Wednesday, September 23


was browsing through some of my earliest posts of this blog, back in jan 2004. Its interesting to read some of the things that i've written. All I wld say is that i was very yg back then..haha..but i was surprised to read a particular entry where i mentioned about the purpose of my life...an extract of what was written:

gp today was so interesting. teacher questioned about our purpose.. it started like this :

we had to write the question and answer it and then question the answer.

socrates(the philosopher): why are you in tb21?

me: for gp lesson.

socrates: why do you go for the lesson?

me: it's in my timetable.

socrates: why is it in your timetable?

me: it's a sub tt i take.

socrates: why do you take the sub?

me: it's compulsory for university admission.

socrates: why do you want to enter u?

me: to get a degree.

socrates: why do you want a degree?

me: to get a good job.

socrates: why do you want to get a job?

me: to get money.

socrates: why do you need money

me: to survive.

socrates: why do you need to survive?

i stopped there.. and it was time up. looking back, it would be so hard to answer that question.. why do we need to survive?? now that i think of it, the best ans tt i can think of is.. I SURVIVE FOR GOD, MY FRIENDS, AND MY FAMILY.

I was quite surprised when i read this. To think that back then, when I was not a Christian yet, I actually wrote about the basic need for survival is for God's purpose! I think it was after I read the Purpose Driven Life that I received this understanding but I thank for the little faith which was already deposited in my heart even back then. I went on to read about the post where I mentioned about my salvation after my first church service in FCBC. I was drawn by the innocence displayed in me back then. The faith of a young Christian whose one desire is to build on the relationship with God and everything else in this world becomes insignificant. It was a reminder of the first love of God that I had when i received salvation. And i pray that even on as i'm being made holy right now, i will always rmb and have this innocence and faith of a child

jel; 11:47 pm