Tuesday, September 15

Had been busy ever since school started. But the strange thing is its not like i’m laden with many commitments or that school work is overwhelming. In fact, i don’t really have a chance to revise my work thus far. I’ve never felt that packed during school term before. Almost every day i will end up reaching home late and weekends are almost packed back-to-back. But thankfully, I’m not stressed out in terms of academic even though there’s little free time for me to put my attention on it. I would had been stressed out by now if it was in the past. I thank God it has been a fulfilling time for the past few weeks, even if its just spending time catching up with friends.

Even during these few weeks, there had been unhappy moments in school when i’m dissatisfied with some issues and also stressful moments. During one of those days, after having to brood over all these matters, i prayed and sensed God telling that instead of hoping to change situations around me, i can change what is within me. Sometimes situations might be hard to change, but whats possible is to change my attitude or mentality towards these matters. Suddenly, it brought peace within me as i was strengthened not to be affected by the things of this world but be strongly guarded in His ways and values.

Sunday’s sermon impacted me. The Lord convicted me of the time I spend with Him. For the past few weeks, the only time I get to spend quiet time was on my journey to school which tend to be inconsistent and unproductive. I am aware of that but out of convenience, I continued to stick to that and try to make the best of the situation. It struck me when pastor used the analogy of a hungry man adjusting his path and intentionally seek his way to find food. I could totally relate to that sort of situation. So it was put back into context of being hungry for God, I question myself if I ever did a similar thing? I seriously doubt so, at least for the past few weeks. If my life is to reflect my hunger for God, it must first of all be shown through my desire to have this quiet time with Him. I thank God for pastor’s sharing on quiet time and for recommending living life. I read the QT and was very refreshed by the words shared. Definitely looking forward to greater growth and intimacy with God. Indeed, I believe what pastor has shared that with quality quiet time spent, it’ll first make a difference to one’s well-being and growth and eventually as a church.

jel; 12:03 am