Sunday, July 26
Friday marked the last day of my school attachment. I was really blessed with a wonderful attachment. The school took really good care of us, especially the vp who planned a very comprehensive timetable for us, to maximise the learning opportunities for us. Had the chance to understand many of moe’s policies and how they are implemented on the grounds and to understand the constraints a neighbourhood school has with regards to many of the implementations.
I had a presentation regarding our school experience to the school management committee and i shared about how authenticity and passion are 2 very important qualities teachers need to have to make a difference in the students’ lives. This was based on what i observed through the teaching staff during those weeks. Authenticity requires a genuine approach from the teachers in their dealings with students and not out of a duty call. Only then can words or actions have an positive impact in the students. Passion requires intense interest from teachers in order to inspire and influence the students. I believe i will need to always exemplify these 2 values in my life.
2 more weeks to actual rag. Filled with much anxiety as there are much uncertainty with regards to completing the float. But i will continue to pray for God’s sovereignty over the entire RAG.
jel; 11:51 pm
Sunday, July 19
Today, during service, i happened to flip through last week’s sermon notes and the words of the first complement caught my attention, “ pleasing God and not men” I believe that was the reminder God is showing me, something which i needed at this juncture. I realized, from the happenings the past few weeks, that i was trying too much to satisfy the demands of people, trying to please everyone but in the end, as much as i try, it sort of backfire and i ended up lost and confused. I might have failed, in the process, to see what God would want to do if it was Him. Reflecting through, I believe God would have done it in a different manner and i was convicted to see in His perspective, recognizing that doing things in His perspective, rather than mine, would please God rather than please men, or in this case, even me.
I have not had much time praying through the week and in particular, for rag itself. It is something which i believe needs prayers and i am convicted to pray for the progress, the members and God’s sovereignty over it. Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders build in vain. It pains my heart to imagine the entire float built in vain. My prayer is that God can be glorified and take sovereignty in every place.
One area which God is guiding me after the reminder, is that i need to stay authentic, authentic to myself and the faith that i possess. God used that to guide me in understanding how i can overcome the challenges. I pray that this authenticity will allow Christ-likeness to shine through me even as i deal with the weeks ahead. I believe reflecting this authentic faith will please God in many ways.
I was sharing with my friend yesterday that rag will be an incredible one this year, something that will definitely impress the audience. I spoke this with conviction despite the uncertainty. And i believe this is faith that i’m acting on, faith to believe God will do something great in, because there is someone who recognize His sovereignty over it.
jel; 11:00 pm
Sunday, July 12
Completed my first week of attachment. The school has been taking care of us very well, ensuring that we maximum our learning experience in the school as much as possible, going through dialogues and meetings with the various school departments and understanding policies and programmes that the school implements with MOE’s guidelines. Albeit tiring, it has been interesting to sit through the various conversations with the various personnel from the P to the VP and senior staff. The P and VP shared inspiring stories which brought renewed passion within me, eager to make a difference within the school environment. At the same time, there were cases, from the sharing by teaching staff, cause me to ponder if expectations of students, especially like those from neighbourhood schools, are limited by what the teachers set for them. Is it a case of less-than-inspiring standards or simply surrendering to reality after years of experience? I really ponder if its the many years of experience that killed the eagerness to inspire the students. Its a scary thought although it may really be the situation. It may be too early to determine anything but one thing i ask is that the Lord will place in me a passion in pursuing the direction He has placed me in, now and in future.
I’m looking forward to the rest of my attachment, to learn and be inspired. One of my prayer items is that God can sensitize me in school, to use my senses to pick up the needs of the school, whether if its the staff, the students or even the school environment.
jel; 11:53 pm
Thursday, July 9
a few days into my school attachment. Have been pampered for the past few days. May seem mundane to go through all the conversations and dialogues but God has opened my eyes to see and learn from the various experienced staff. I've been very much inspired to do more with the resources He has given me. Pray that this passion will always be burning bright for Him
jel; 11:22 pm
Monday, July 6
was very blessed during worship in service today. Pastor joe shared the story about the singer for a new song “desert song” and added that this song was not only given by God to the singer but also to us as well. I’ve already liked this song but as we worship with this song today, the words went deep and resonated in me as I felt the relevance of the words in this season of my life.
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worshipThank God for using this song to speak to me as a form of reassurance of His presence in every season of my life and as a reminder that He is still God despite all.
looking forward to the school attachment for the next 3 weeks. Praying that God will use this opportunity to ignite a stronger passion for what I’m doing and to enlarge my capacity of love to the lost and needy.
jel; 12:02 am
