Saturday, August 30

was at ed silvoso's conference last now..amidst all that i've learnt from this great man of God, i began to see myself in a wider perspective...in that sense i realized i've spent too much focus on the current self that i lose the longer vision to see things in the long term...to be more specific, currently my school work has caught up much in me that it can potentially cause much stress and worry that i might not be able to follow up with the schedule..but God showed me a bigger picture of my life, my future career, marriage...there's so much more that i can accomplish and will do in the years ahead..the pile of work is just part of the developing process that can be overcome and must not be a stumbling stone but instead a stepping stone...

i think that's a more immediate task right now for me...as what ps sl shared just now, it is for me to truly experience God and live my life on my faith...

jel; 10:01 pm

Sunday, August 24

another weekend over...completed the safra 21km run this morning...thank God this race was much better than 2 yrs back where my legs cramped up quite bad towards the last one third that i had to walk through much of it..at least i could still jog towards the end this time...enjoyed the run except for the muddy padang at the end which was very disgusting...

can't walk for the nike run next sunday but hope my legs can recover asap...

jel; 11:25 pm

Wednesday, August 20

Had our first prayer mtg for this sem yesterday. Had our chance to share what God has spoken to us/ done in us for the past 3 months with regards to being a marketplace minister. I shared my experiences with respect to the camps and RAG and how God is beginning to use me in Science club itself. I reflected upon how many times i wanted to give up with what i've been called to do. As shared in last week's reflection, I know there were breakthroughs in what i've been doing in Science club. And its only then that i felt that He has given me this special role with Science. While others may have their own platforms which God intends for them to do within the fac, I was placed by Him within the club itself to shine His light there. Thats prob what has been keeping me going on through the many difficulties during RAG.

I felt that my work done during the past season was the pruning season, something which pastor shared last sermon. I've been ploughing the land during the past months and i know my work there is not done yet. I know there is much more God can use me in this area, given that He has blessed me with the necessary knowledge to handle the demands of the job. That leads to my interest in joining the next batch of pple, knowing that this time round, I can contribute more significantly not only to the team but also have the opportunity to be used by God.

I'm excited over what God has been doing in the cell recently. If I rmb correctly, during one of the cell, each of us listed our practical steps to pray for people whom we want to reach out to. Last weekend saw many of our prayers answered including mine which was for my freshie, an ex-fcbc member to return back to church. i'm been praying for his return back to God and did mention to him before that i hope to see him back in church. I wasn't the one who brought him to church last sunday, so it was a pleasant surprise to see him on sunday. Praise God for this returned soul!

jel; 12:29 am

Saturday, August 16

a week has past since sch started..been adjusting to life after rag...its not easy, especially with work starting to kick in...mentally, today has been a stressed out day, but i managed to put my trust in God for what is ahead of me and choose to relax and enjoy what have been planned..sometimes i do wish for many things to be different but when our plans and will clash, i just have to learn how to commit my time to Him and walk by faith for what lies ahead of me...

jel; 12:27 am

Monday, August 11

School starts today!!! life in school is so different now..no more s16 worksite, ah ma island, under the staircase...one thing i did when i went to school today is to go the worksite and signed my name on teddy...to leave my mark on it...

met some raggers today..everyone looked different..no more science tees, shorts and slippers...will definitely miss ragging but i guess we're all moving on with life but definitely looking forward to the next rag!

i'm taking these 3 particular core modules which has been advised by the prof today not to be taken tog in the same sem...felt the jitters when he mentioned it..furthermore, not many in my cohort are doing the same 3 combi...a bit hard to step out of it but I know i can have the confidence in Jesus in difficulties simply because of 3 reasons mentioned on last sunday's sermon- because i'm assured of my final destiny, i know my Father and i'm promised of His continued presence!

Amen

jel; 9:51 pm

Friday, August 8

a few hours before RAG!!!! now we have a few hours to spare before we proceed on to the field area...i'm really amazed at what we've done today..everyone simply chipped in to play their part to make things happen...and everything indeed was completed on time..it was simply mind-blowing!! though the stress level was high, i was more touched that every single props/items are done with the help of everyone's effort...it was a super huge adrenaline rush..

praying now that the Lord would bless our performance later, that the mechanism and dance will proceed on well during the actual performance..praise God for what He has done for us thus far..will continue to surrender the whole RAG into His hands..

its gonna be an exciting RAG!!!

jel; 2:06 am