Wednesday, February 28

phoewwww.......

finally, i've finished every single script i have....thank God for that...couldn't imagine i can actually fnish all of them..esp the sec 3 scripts...horrible..every script takes me ages...but i was quite fast towards the end..maybe i'm beginning to be more used to it...

anw, i'm really thankful for the things which have been happening in sch...somehow i look forward to coming to sch everyday..dun know whether i mention this before, but really, its the students i'm looking forward to meeting each day...and i really account all these to my Lord who gave me this source of motivation and renewed passion for each new day...

have some impt issues to settle now...anw, just for your info, i did not set today's sec 1 history paper!!!..for the umpteen time, its a printing error!!!

jel; 9:13 pm

Monday, February 26

you know what?

received news abt an upcoming service learning trip to sheng yang led by pastor..and the decisions which followed after that really is tearing me apart...can't reveal the details here...but i'm really torn over what shld the right decisions to make...Lord, help me with this!!! let me make the right decision for you...what is the best plan You have for me? reveal to me the answer....

now i'm going to put my complete trust upon Him and allow Him to settle everything for me...you know why i can trust my Lord so much? cause He always pave the way for me, the right path which is the best for me...and it brings me much joy to know that i can put my rest and joy on Him!

jel; 4:56 pm

Saturday, February 24

what a day...

a stress day today...its the geo common test for my students...thank you Lord for bringing me safely through the day..indeed, His hands were upon me, to keep me from harm so that i can be free from pain..i was so worried abt the hiccups which may occur today regding the sec 1 papers..but it turned out well...

i think i was being quite dumb today..i was more anxious and worried abt the paper than my students were..was walking ard classes in the morning to ensure my students are alright before the paper, during the paper and even after the paper...thinking abt how they'll fare during the actual paper and being so anxious in looking through their scripts..

cool down man..the students may not even be as worried as i am...but hey, i take my personal reaction as a positive one..showing that i do care abt them and their performances and not just leave them to survive on their own...and nevertheless, reviewing my actions today, it was rather hilarious...

well, the paper is over now for the students but the nightmare has begun for me...have 400 plus scripts to mark....but so far i've finished close to 200..phoew...struggling on...wun have much time to do it tmr..and i'm anxious to know how they all perform!!!

here i go again.........

jel; 12:04 am

Thursday, February 22

thanks to my students, i broke my personal record..chatted on msn non-stop for more than 3 hours..technically, not chatting...more lk replying last min questions asked by them...when i say non-stop, its really non-stop..even when i'm eating dinner! and i think i'm having a nightmare seeing all the flashing windows and hearing the nudging sounds...

actually, i dun know why i'm doing all these for?..spent 2 nights doing the same thing and i ask myself the qn..i'm only a relief teacher..but each time i think of this, my love and passion reminded me once again of my motivation for doing all these...

I've always believed in doing the best in everything i do and in wherever you are..i may just be a relief teacher, but that doesn't stop me from giving my best for the students..i may be spending more time and effort than some perm staff but i always tell myself- whatever i'm lacking in terms of experience, i make up for it through my time and effort for the students...

my love for the students really pushes me further in doing more...they're theones i'm doing all these for..and teaching thus far has been a joy for me..i may be discouraged many times in class by the response of the students and become agitated, but i'm always looking forward to seeing them again..

whether the students appreciate anything no longer affects my passion in teaching them although i wld really much appreciate it..cause ultimately, its the Lord's love that is my source of motivation..His love nv fails us..thats why in whatever circumstances i face in teaching, i will alwasy remind myself that His love in me nv fails, thus keeping my love for teaching strong and burning...

thank you Lord for being my encourager and motivator behind my passion

jel; 11:53 pm

Tuesday, February 20

end of 3 days of cny holidays...have been blessed much during this season...had a great break during this period..managed to catch some movies, something which was hard to do during sch terms...dreamgirls, norbit, epic movie...nvm abt the quality of the latter 2 movies, but it was a time of relaxation for me..

more imptly, its the joy i received during this holiday that is more than receiving hongbaos, going home-visiting or wearing new clothes..i've passed that phase and during this yr's celebration, i've seen beyond that to appreciate the warmth of family togetherness and the love through interaction with some pple during this period...thank you for bringing joy to my heart!

and do go and read my church's tribe blog @ www.molmam.blogspot.com ...i shared my blessings with my spiritual family through the contribution of an article which was published yest regding my article on the newspaper and my vday gift...alternatively, click on SJ Tribe under my links...

jel; 9:43 pm

Monday, February 19

http://www.sgforums.com/?action=post_display&post_id=6036234

go read this news article published in sunday times....a true-life story abt a mother and her unfilial son..a social issue which nevertheless tugs at our hearts at how filial piety seems to be in a dire state among the yger generation these days? although it may be only an account of one particular case, but i'm sure there are many similars cases happening ard which are left hidden beind closets...

Lord, let Your love fill the hearts of the pple, esp those among those of the yg generation, that they may display unconditional love in their actions and speech..my heart cries out to the lost generation. that they will not continue to be lost in their own world, lost in the direction of their lives..Lord, bring them back on track, let their lives be filled with purpose and meaning, that they will know what lies ahead of them..and through it all, let true joy flow out of their hearts as they learn to live their lives in purpose...

Reflect upon your lives, are you living your life purposefully? if not, seek for the answer....

jel; 10:55 am

Sunday, February 18

May you be blessed this new year with abundant blessings and that the yr ahead be more purposeful and meaningful for all of you! During this new yr, let us not forget to express our love for others as we go hs-visiting...esp those whom you dun usu meet...

Hope everyone enjoy themselves this festive period and as we enjoy ourselves, let us not forget the true meaning of this season...may everyone experience the spirit of togetherness as we gather tog to celebrate and that you'll feel the family warmth and love...

Blessings to all of you!

jel; 12:50 am

Friday, February 16

i spent the last few hours managing the yahoo grp for nchgeo3fgh..a student portal site which i've created for my sec 3 classes..don't know how i ended up spending so much time on that but most imptly is that my students benefit from it...now what i'm hoping is that they will all be able to join this yahoo grp and make this site a useful one for them...

Lord, help me to do the things which are right in Your eyes...that whatever decisions and actions i take will be the right ones...


i need more than a refreshing of Your spirit..i need the strength and courage to step out of my comfort zone...

tmr is chinese new year eve...prepare my heart to step into the new yr with a renewed mind and spirit..

jel; 11:01 pm

Wednesday, February 14

v day gifts which i managed to 'chunk' out late last night...stayed up till one plus in the morning to complete it...i'm rather satisfied with it although i'm sure i can make it so much better if given more time...but more importantly, its the meaning behind this gift that matters..the idea behind this gift is based on 1 Cor 13

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails.

and i hope the 3 ladies who received it are blessed with the meaning of true love, love which comes from the Lord...and indeed, this v day, its not only abt the love bet couples but also the love of the Lord which is so wonderful and great...

jel; 8:26 pm

was featured in a new article today on zbnow in lian he zao bao...i'm thankful for being blessed with the chance to be interviewed and be featured...more importantly, i'm thankful that i'm being blessed by the Lord with this humble talent of mine...

it has always being my passion all these years in making handmade gifts for others cause i believe it holds more meaning than purchased ones and to me, making those gifts is a form of expression of my love to the receivers..of course, dun misunderstand my meaning of love in this context..its the love of the Lord which i hope to bless others with when they receive my gifts...

and through this news article, its a form of assurance from the Lord that indeed, be thankful for my talent and continue to bless others with the talent He has blessed me with...

jel; 8:15 pm

Monday, February 12

Indeed, God is gracious and mercyful...

Today was a demonstration of His goodness and love for me...i arrived in school with a peaceful heart yet fully aware of the concerns and issues within it...without elaborating much, the Lord knows what i'm going through and He has the way out of all...i need not fear or worry cause i know He is in control of the situation...

Delighted and joyous i was when His goodness and love is demonstrated to show the light at the end of the road...i trusted and walked obediently with Him on this road and He showed me the way out of it...

I was touched by this love from the Lord and its this experience that allows me to understand His love for me as well as for everyone...

jel; 11:09 pm

Sunday, February 11

was reflecting through the activities that i went through today..and i came up with a list of roles which i play..as a student to my guitar teacher, son to my mum, nephew to my aunt, teacher to my students, army mate to my army pals, spiritual brother to my church members, son to God, jc friend to my jc mates...

and the fact is that all these roles which i play are not independent of one another..they run concurrently all the time..it can make me feel breathless when certain committments require much of your attention..and i really thank the Lord for everything which have happened today...

that He has blessed me with the strength and energy to handle every situation in my life..and esp today during prayer mtg that He refresh me with a new spirit to preserve and to be energized so that i can continue to be strong for the works which He had called me for...

sometimes when the world seems to be crashing down on you, do not be discouraged, do not give up, for the Lord is always there with you..His love for you will nv fail..so long as you believe in Him...

jel; 12:30 am

Thursday, February 8

i just want to set my heart and mind right for the Lord...Lord, i pray that you will set my focus right..that i need not be concerned over matters which are of no eternal purpose..Lord, i dun want to wait till a similar lesson to happen again for me to learn the right things in life...so let me continue to walk in the light of Your path..to stay victorious in Christ, to be the salt and light of the world!

was at the lders' mtg yest...what i've learned from pastor...

John 17:23 "...May they be brought to complete unity..." Jesus wants us to be unified as one.

How to Remain as One?
1. Remain in Him
2. Remain in His word
3. Remain in His love

God's words to us in the bible will have different impacts to every one of us as we read and receive it because of our the different circumstances we undergo.
We may be different in our personalities and characters, but no matter how diverse we are, we can only unified simply by His words and His love..simply because these transcend all boundaries

We need to be unified with His agape love- love which is not self-seeking, giving and able to receive...

Indeed, there is still so much to learn abt loving others, esp my dear brothers..and i need to learn to show the Lord's love through my actions for them..and i do pray i will learn to carry out my love actions to my dearesr brothers from this moment onwards...

jel; 7:08 pm

Tuesday, February 6

in one of my earlier posts this year, i mentioned abt God often asking for the things we hold on to dearly...and just now, kenneth was sharing with me this when i shared with him the issues which i faced in sch recently..indeed, God will use opportunities to teach us and through the lessons i learned, i can better control my emotions and behaviour in handling situations...

but His grace and mercy is abundant as i found out yest that He has indeed blessed me with the classes which i'm teaching now and the more i'll treasure the opportunities given...the main learning i need to rmb: whatever He can bless me with, He can take it away from me anytime..so i must be prepared to be able to let go...

just came back from visiting a dear brother of mine at nuh with kenneth...the Lord taught me abt being obedient to His words..wun elaborate much on that..but more importantly, is the things i've learnt from kenneth just now...indeed, i'm proud to have him as my spiritual dad..a true man of God..i was touched by the love he has displayed..the love of Christ was true from his heart..and i want to always be in his guardiance in this journey of loving Christ and sharing His love...

jel; 10:14 pm

Sunday, February 4

Lord, let me live the life which You have intended for me...

for the past few days, i've been living in the joy of knowing that I'm safe with Him..keeping close to His heart ensures my life is on track...its no longer an aimless wondering, but a purposeful walk...

was reflecting upon my life today as compared to life before i accepted Jesus Christ...nv before was i so sure of my future..being assured of my future was one of the greatest gift i received when i accept Him into my life 2 yrs ago..and i'm thankful that even today, i'm still walking in this journey with the Lord and enjoying each moment of my life in His presence...

Lord, continue to bless and protect me..May this life journey be even more purposeful and sweet..

jel; 7:45 pm

Saturday, February 3

its been a few days since my birthday on sunday, but even till now, i still rmb clearly this sentence which serene blessed me with in church...

happiness comes with happenings, but true joy comes from Jesus

indeed..the reason why this has leave such a deep impression in me is because this serves as a reminder on the source of my motivation and perservance..its not the superficial things of this world which can bring you happiness..true, sometimes they can make u feel happy, but its only a momentary feeling..

true joy is smthng so much deeper..u dun juz feel the joy when things are happening in your favour...this true joy can withstand the test of pain and emotions...its when even in the midst of troubled hearts and mixed feelings, u can still keep still and have the joy in your heart..thats what i call true joy...

and knowing that my joy comes from Jesus is an even greater joy..cause this source of joy is everlasting, pure and nv fails...i'm thankful that in the midst of walking my life journey, i know where to rest my peace and joy in and i'm indeed blessed that He is always my soul provider and my shelter in midst of the storms and thunder...

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