Friday, June 23


i finished reading "man and boy" while travelling ard today...there was a part which i read where the dad asked his son a question pending to a divorce with his son..."so son, who do you want to stay with? your dad or your mum?"...and i rmb my mum asked me this same question years ago when i was still young..probably ard same age as the boy...but i didn't answer the question at that time...somehow, the decision was made....i was lost at that point when i was asked this question..somehow i didn't feel that i needed to answer that question or be asked in the first place...i dun want to be the situation where i need to make this decision...

in the story, the dad eventually forgo the residential rights of his son cause he doesn't want his son to a victim in the midst of the lawsuit and most importantly, he knows he needs to let go if he really loved his son...and i really ponder..was it the situation for me to? that i need not make the decision in the end cause my dad gave up his custody of his children?...well at least the boy had the assurance from both his parents that they loved him and he received equal attention from both parents in the end...did my dad let go cause he loved me and doesn't want me to be a victim of the divorce? i wldn't be able to find out the answer..i nv know my dad and there's no vivid impression of him but i choose to believe that he did it for the beneficial of both my mum and me...

in every story, there's always a happy ending..thats because readers love to read happy endings, partly to make up for the less-than-happy life that they are leading..its a general statement but neverheless, its true to a certain extent...and for me, although its not the best ending that could happen from a divorce, i've not lived a regretful life...i've since learnt to live life independent of my father's love...and i wld proudly say, the love of God is above all love in this world...a love that heals wounds and hurts...

how says happy endings only occur in stories? our lives can have happy endings as long as we choose to believe in Him, our Lord and Saviour...

jel; 12:35 am