Tuesday, February 28
i'm at zx's hs right now...oh my gosh, his room is lk a big pig sty...dun even know how in the world he can find his stuff...but nvm, apparently he said he can find his stuff...typical of a quote from a messy guy...decided to pop by his hs today with ch cause i'm too tired to go out too far tonight...had guard duty yest and had barely 3 hours of sleep..oh man...but luckily i survived through the day...anw, nothing really interesting to talk abt this camp...now on to other stuff...really hope that a miracle can really happen...i'm really praying hard for it and i'm working hard towards achieving the goal...really hope i can see the result...anw, even if it doesn't work out, i believe one day it'll happen, just that the time isn't ripe now...it'll really be beyond my control and by faith i hope it does happen....
jel; 8:01 pm
Thursday, February 23
just came back from church rehearsal at tct...can't believe i'm the only one who manage to survive through 4 weeks of choir service....i thought i wld only be able to come for 2 weeks only esp this week was so busy in camp...thank God for the time spared to worship Him...i guess there will always be time for Him...
had btoc drill for the past 2 days...i'm so glad its finally over and that i managed to survive through...and the joyful thing is i managed to go through btoc without any feeling of dragness cause i had my focus on the right thoughts...and it really made things go so much smoother...and i've done my very best in my role and put in my effort through these 2 days..i really pity those who kept complaining abt everything..i really think it'll make their days seem more miserable and prolonged too...well, i'm still learning to spend each day with a meaningful purpose but i guess it's beginning to be much easier now than before...and the btoc drill was a gd opportunity to mature...and it really reminded me once again of the presence of pple whom you will detest their characters to the core and at the same time, experience the bondness among fellow mates...
i'm beginning to feel more at home here as i feel a greater presence of Him...found out this week that s3 is from my church...what a pleasant surprise, i wld say..so it was really him i saw at service last sun...and getting to know more christians better really build a stronger bond among us...i thank God for this allowing me to have all these opportunities this week to get to know more christians as well as to get to know them better....
jel; 11:40 pm
Monday, February 20
its irritating that i can't change the font and colour of the text..now my blog looks so dull and boring...and i looking forward to changing my blog layout....
jel; 7:55 pm
i think today is a test of my endurance and patience...this must be plan of God's plan to build my character...oh man...i'm not going to continue rattling on what exactly happened today but i'm wanna say i dun understand why irrevelant remakes have to be made and why egos have to be so great...anw, i've accepted the fact that not everyone is the same and everyone has different ways of handling matters and different ways of expressing their words, so i guess we just don't communicate well...well, i must always bear that its not up to me to judge them eventually at the end of the day so thats really no need to bother abt it and care abt it...and i'm going to lead my fulfilling life....
sometimes, u feel lost when u dun see the light in front of you, so its hard to even make the next step in your life...but dun feel despair, everything has being planned out for you, just that its not being shown to you yet...presevere and not be discouraged...you'll be shown the light eventually..and most imptly, stand up for what you've always believe in and you'll received what you have been promised...
jel; 7:23 pm
Sunday, February 19
this weekend's schedule was rather packed...fri went straight to tc for the last day of sanctification week after i book out...manage to get there just before the worship songs ended...realised i missed quite a bit for sanctification week but its the best that i can make up for by turning up on fri...sat went for tabernacle experience back at tc again...only got to learn more of the tabernacle on sat and experience His experience inside...anw, i'm thankful for this experience cause its only inside the tabernacle that i encountered a totally different experience with His and i'm thankful that i've recieved His replies and answers to my queries and doubts....totally awesome...anw, went back home at 12 for 2 consecutive days...took cab home on bothe times cause i'm really exhausted by that time...didn't even get to stay at home for the whole day...
anw, managed to spend a bit of time at home for meals today...but have to rush out at 11 in order to reach expo on time...today's praise & worship was a much better experience than last week's although the songs selectiuon was not as gd..maybe cause this week's choir pple were more energetic...furthermore, there were more pretty faces ard...haha...
oh, and next week we are going for rock-climbing at the wall in ite east...and that wld mean less time spent at home...but i hope it'll be fun...
jel; 9:01 pm
Friday, February 17
fri today...end of the week finally...this week seems particularly long...can't wait for the weekend to come..this weekend's schedule is already packed and i'm still trying to fit in more stuff cause there's a few places to go to...i guess i have to push a few places to next week...
listening to hillsong united songs...some really great songs which i haven got sick of listening to even after so long...going over to tc tonight..have to rush over there early cause its at marine parade...missed the first few nights of sanctification week and tonight is the only night i can make it so all the more i shld go...
oh, and i finally found the verse that i've been looking for since sunday, its romans 14...what yk said was true, it'll come to u naturally, u dun need to look for it...
jel; 12:56 pm
Thursday, February 16
i was quite pissed over a certain matter that happened, how sarcastic pple can be, how blant their words can be...well, words can hurt at words, esp when the words are not said in an appropriate manner...i've accepted the fact that such pple exist in this world that i am now and i guess its another learning opportunity for me to handle such situations...have to learn to accept it, really, cause if not i wld go mad sooner or later just by pondering over the thoughts....
was quite pleased last night when we were at our bunks and i was just lying on one of my friend's bed watching antm with the rest of the pple, and my friend actually picked up my bible and started started reading verses from matthew...its quite a pleasant surprise cause he always seem to have this slight bias against the religion...i didn't initiate anything or make make any comments...its the first time he's reading the bible and i'm just glad that its mine that he picked up...well, although he wasn't really inspired by His words or became more interested in reading more, at least its still a start...well, i guess the right opportunity wasn't there and i believe you have to work for it...
jel; 12:23 pm
Wednesday, February 15
finally discovered a way to blog in camp using i-net..thanks to thomas...you're gd man! now i can blog on weekdays too!...was chatting with candice and sl on msn just now...they asked how come nowadays i'm not free and i told them my schedule each week...well, i agree that it may seem lk i'm quite preoccuppied with church activities each weekend, but i do believe each min dedicated would be worthwhile...and i definitely disagree that its a waste of time...in fact the time would amount to something worth so much more which is so valuable and precious....my mum did ask me how i'm going to handle my time well in future esp when i'm studying next year...but i can assure her that time is there as long as i have the trust and faith in what i believe in...anw, i guess she's worried that i can't afford the time to get a gf or what...hey, its not lk i'm that old and need to get married...haha...
anw, there's lotsa stuff that i can talk abt or prob complain abt that happened in camp these few days, but all those are secondary to me cause i have my focus and i know what i shld concentrate my mind and thoughts on, so it doesn't bother me what horrible stuff i went through in camp (which is lk a lot)...and i'm actually quite glad cause i'm actually feeling quite at peace at this moment...so keep it on man!
this week is sanctification week...have to miss it cause i'm in camp now!...why can't i stay out...even if it's for a few days i wld not mind...nvm, i'll have to depend on myself then...dun know when i'll get to see black5 again..soon k? we'll find some time...and to alwyn: take care in india and may God bless you throughout your exercise!
jel; 9:30 pm
Sunday, February 12
went to anthony's hs on sat with some of my camp mates...to celebrate his baby's first month celebration...cheryl, the elder child is so damn cute and she drove all our attention over to her from her younger sis...haha...anw, it was an enjoyable afternoon spent at his hs...and we took lotsa photos too...i'll get htem from ch and post them...anw, i went to lance's hs in the evening for cell grp...it was yet another meaningful session there and i'm quite surprised joel is experiencing the same prob that i'm facing and had the exact same feelings...but i guess its a common phrase that christians face, esp when your stand is firm and most importanly, u do care for those ard you...anw, i spent the entire sat in the east cause i sent anju off at the airport in the morning, anthiny's hs in tampines and lance's hs in eunos....
and i'm back in the east today...service at expo...today's choir performance wasn't that great cause of last min chances...anw, aim to do better next week...felt that i've achieved quite a lot this weekend...managed to get across my point through, make my stand firm and most importantly, improve continuously to be a life testimony...and i'm thankful this is progressing quite smoothly so far....and i manage to talk to my mum more abt my religion...although she wasn't all that convinced, but at least she didn't rebuke and is listening so that's progress....yeh!
jel; 9:53 pm
Thursday, February 9
now at nyp...to visit jedd..and to use the comp as well..haha..anw, i'm on off this afternoon and tmr so it'll be a long weekend for me...so relieved this week's worth of work has ended for me...can't wait to step out of camp just now...thank God i was able to come out in time to meet jedd...anw, i'm looking forward to the events for the next few days...quite eventful...going to tct later for choir rehearsal again...raining outside now...dampen my spirit for today...sian...but of course, i'm still thankful i'm in the civilian world and not in some miserable camp...haha...
jel; 3:23 pm
Sunday, February 5
today was such a special day...attended p.e. at tct this morning...its the first lesson after e.w....lesson on sexuality and how to overcome this world...got many pointers from the lessons and i really learned a lot of God's Words today...rush in time for service at expo...cause those involved in service had to be there early so there was a bit of panic trying to get everyone on board the shuttle bus...the experience on stage was great, singing for the congregation, leading them in praise and worshipping...we sang with devotion and had lots of fun at the same time...can't wait for next week's service again...tribe meeting after service..first one i've ever attended..played telematch games and our cluster won! haha..it was more for the spirit of fun and joy...was inspired by Ps s.l. words for us...to be bonded within this family , get to know one another and expand this family...and we really listened to him cause when we were on our way back, we chatted with new friends on the train which was suddenly flooded with this one big family...and the fact that we can get tog is because we belong to the new tribe and this unity is so strong that you wld want to treat them as your family members.life has changed so much for me..i could feel my love for God grow stronger by the day and the Holy Spirit working within me...thank you for the present from my cell group..lance, jedd, jon, joel, gordon, jerum and of course my cell leader kenneth...hope we can grow tog as the band of brothez!
jel; 9:53 pm
Saturday, February 4
had such a great time at rehearsal....it was held at touch community theatre at bukit merah...that place held such fond memories for me...if some of u might know, there was this charity concert held there 2 years back and some njcians were organising committee members...anw, being in the same place again after 2 years brought back thoughts as i recalled the events that happened there...the entrance, the seats and the stage....it was all so familiar once again....back to the rehearsal...it was not bad...spent a bit of time learning through the actions and songs...felt totally immersed in the atmosphere of worshipping God...with the live band, dancers, worship leaders and vocalists....being part of the stage members is so much different from being part of the congregation...i guess i'm going to have lotsa fun on sunday where the service is going to be held at expo...oh my, the stage is going to be big there....guess its pretty much going to be a very fruitful session for us...pray that sunday youth celebration service will be a meaningful time for the band of brotherz!
jel; 12:31 pm
Thursday, February 2
i think nj pple are such a united grp of pple...yest there was this message being spread ard, seeking for blood donation for a teacher who has leukemia...and i've recieved at least 3 messages from different grps of ex-njcians...and those njcians in my camp recieved the message too...this actually shows how well-circulated the sms was and unless u live in a cave during your nj days, you'll prob received one from someone u know too....mf did reply to the message and the ans was that now they're just gathering the list of pple and when needed, these pple will be asked to have their blood tested....anw, i hope mrs che will be able to have a suitable donar and recover...God bless heri have choir rehearsal tonight for church service this sun..and i dun even know how to sing those songs yet! i better go practise them now....
jel; 3:50 pm
