Friday, August 19


friday is here! finally...after a pretty long week this week...preparing for a technical recall on sun...thats why part of sun wld be gone...sad...but i'm looking forward to wed cause my branch is having cohesion, so everyone will have a day off and take this opportunity to bond with one another...going kbox for lunch, followed by bowling at marina square and finally dinner at kenny rogers...oh and after that prob going zouk...this is the first time we're having a gathering outside camp, so it'll be interesting to know more abt them other than their working habits....but i hope the scenerio wld not be too akward with s3 ard..for those who doesn't know what/who is s3, s3 is our 'boss', an LTC who may seem demanding but is a person who is truly worthy of our respect....anyway, the following morning i'll be clearing a 1/2 day off so that i can a late night's out....afternoon i'll be having a medical appt at nsc, so i'll be out of camp from tue night to thur night...i hope i wun get to miss ahm on sept 11 due to my infection...i've been missing out on a few ahm trainings and i really want to cure the illness asap...

its quite a tough week considering that i'll have to endure the behaviour of some colleagues...have to constantly keep myself calm and remind myself not to flare up...its really to control one's emotions when the going gets tough...esp when they are irritating and their views clashes with yours...but i'll just treat this as yet another opportunity to develop my character...

saw a part of the nus campus life just now...vibrant and lively...groups of young adults hanging out tog, engaging in various activities....really want to experience campus life...of course its going to be hard to cope with much more activities but there's really no harm getting to know more friends and having a more vibrant uni life....

sometimes, i really feel very irritated when things dun go accordingly to my plan...there's this sense of discomfort and uneasiness in me when i can't follow my plans accordingly...and sometimes, i'll feel guilty when regiments set are not being followed strictly...i hate the feeling whenever i divert away from my schedules...it just shows that my determination is not strong enough...but sometimes its due to external factors that my schedules can't be followed...its not that bad at this moment, i'll just have to ensure it doesn't get worst at this moment....just have to plan more carefully...but i dun wish to have my life fall into the trap of being too structured and planned out....something which i'm still working at...

my entry is super long...and i know that the various paragraphs are not coherent cause they're different ideas which had came across my mind at various periods of the week and i've decided to bring them all up in this entry....long night ahead...not sleeping so early...

jel; 10:34 pm