Saturday, July 9


felt rather stressed up sometimes...although there's no more schoolwork to worry abt, i guess there'll always be sources of stress ard in our lives...the prob is i want to accomplish a lot with little time...i'm not trying to say i'm an over-achiever, but i just lk the feeling of having done certain stuff which wld put me at peace at least...i know i shldn't be feeling this way, but looking at some of my fellow camp mates, i can't help but feel that i shld be spending my time wisely and not be wasting my time lk them...

i just dun feel at peace with myself...every wkend, i wld be trying to plan my time to maximise it and to squeeze in as much stuff as possible...the pace can be too fast, with many things running through my mind all the time..it makes me too preoccupied with thoughts so much that at times, i can't carry on with the things that i am doing...things that i want to do include certain fixed routines every wkend, stuff which i do to satisfy myself and others and aims which i hope to achieve in the short and long term...and i hate to push back stuff which i had planned to do...

it didn't really occur to me that i was trying to do too much till last night...
i'm not worried abt it...cause i believe all these are achievable....

jel; 10:53 pm