Saturday, April 23
the past week has been pretty boring, maybe except for the part where by i get to go home after day after five...thats the only gd thing abt the course...i dun have to stay in...there's really nothing much to do during the coursei really feel i'm wasting my time there...morning arrive at the lecture room, take attendance, listen to lessons and then it'll be time for canteen break at ten...after break, it'll be carrying out of some eye-power practices (=doing nothing/watching demonstrations) before we break off for lunch...after lunch, we'll be doing the same stuff and it'll be another canteen break at three...after break, it'll not long before we pack up to leave...now u know why i felt lk i'm wasting my time and this will last me another 2 more weeks...argh....
but i'm really glad that now i've more personal time for myself for the past week..doing stuff that i had put off for some time already...
it really pushes me on further when i know that i'm getting on the right track...but sometimes, distractions and temptations will deviate u off....failure to comply with your believes will demoralise u...actions which will make u feel guilty...i do hope someone will be out there to guide me through, to bring me back on track....
jel; 11:34 am
Sunday, April 17
just came back from an after-dinner trip to borders...i just enjoy going there more often nowadays as compared to kino...maybe its because its closing hours are later...found more books that i wanted to read...guess i have to speed up on my reading now that i've more time for myself...talking abt more own personal time, i'm finding time now to start on my personal interests...bought the materials from art friends on sat already and i saw a very nice sketchbook from borders just now...so i guess i can begin things soon once i find the time...bought black forest from coffee bean just now...damn nice...its my third cup of ice blended this weekend...becoming a coffee addict...went out with black five yest...i guess we miss one another after not seeing for 2 weeks...thats why everyone were so excited...walked from raffles city to bugis after lunch...past by a few places which reminded us of a few occassions we had tog...lk the juction of raffles city where we watched the vertical catwalk a few weeks before the a level prac started...we still went out inspite of the oncoming exams cause we wanted to relax on fri..haha..the raffles hotel/ bras basah complex route which we walked down during one of those days after a levels...rmb those times we were still tertiary students...enjoying our student lives tog..but looking at the five of us that day, it seemed lk everyone has matured and progressed...fresh a level graduates, each embarking on diff routes, preparing for our next phase of adulthood...each of us will prob will taking diff courses in uni so i guess in future each one of us will be busy in our own fields of study but i do hope our paths wld cross every moment to meet up....sometimes i really wonder how diff my post a level-life wld be without the four of you...definitely not something i wld imagine of...jus strange why such thoughts came up in the spur of the moment...maybe its because those interviews and scholarships are arriving......
jel; 10:52 pm
Saturday, April 16
finally..i've completed the course successfully..got my licence for m113 on thur...actually the licence is no big deal cause all of us wldn't say we are very confident over the stuff that we were supposed to know...i guess 3 weeks were too short to grasp every single info.....but i guess i heaved a sigh of relief on fri after i hand over the vehicle key and bunk keys...being the vehicle commander wasn't the best responsibility to have...but i did have the opportunity to learn more stuff than the rest cause of the additional responsibilities u have...at least i felt that i had done my best to do my job well and its all over now...i wldn't say i miss the course or the place cause it didn't leave gd memories but i wld definitely miss the friends i made through the duration of the course cause we definitely be going our separate ways...but at least i'll still be seeing most of them for 10 more days cause we'll be attending the operation management course at keat hong tog...went to watch pacifier with yk and wb yest after course...not bad for a family comedy kind of movie...reminds me of a lot of ns stuff....really enjoyed some parts of the movie which were extremely hilarious...but at least i hoped yk enjoyed himself yest...dun worry too much abt next week and the subsequent weeks...i'm sure you'll pass the phase very soon...
jel; 10:02 am
Sunday, April 10
went to watch 3-iron yest...sick of watching mainstream movies, thats why we decided to watch some exclusive showcase this time...there's a lot of questions unanswered in the movie but i guess such movies always leave these questions to our own interpretation...sometimes i'm just amazed at how relationships bet pple work...or shld i say shocked...i really wonder how and why certain stuff happen the way we do..why do messages or info have to pass down a train of pple and the process goes vice-versa...i'm not particularly anger or mad but it sometimes makes me feel puzzled...i guess thats another qn left to be answered...
jel; 6:42 pm
Saturday, April 9
this week actually didn't seem as bad as expected...at least we didn't stay outfield for the entire day for five days in a row as thought...and the fear for driving has decreased substantially as i got more used to the mechanism of the vehicle...in fact, i was kind of enjoying some of the stuff that we have been doing...stuff that we wld not be doing elsewhere outside camp...it really feels gd to be able to learn to drive a vehicle now...driving up the gullies were actually fun..gullies are a series of high steep bumps btw...and the other day we helped to change spoilt tracks for our vehicle...it was hard work but with the cooperation of my syndicate members and the instructors, it was quite a smooth job..at the point of time, i was really enjoying the process of changing the tracks cause there isn't much opportunity for us pple to be doing such hard labour when we go to society to work later...it was really an eye-opening experience for me that day...
got to know more fellow course mates better throughout the week...well, of course there wld be pple whom u feel lk bashing them up each time u see them...ok, maybe not that violent but they really irritates u with their nonchalant, heck-care attitude....it really angers me each time i see them..but i'm trying to show that i dun care abt such pple...on the other hand, some pple do impress me a lot...my syndicate is really the best i could ask for...everyone is cooperative and easy to work with...and this makes each operation an ease...the only thing i could complain abt is myself cause i feel that i have not performed up to my expectations of the vehicle ic..haha...but its lk pple in my syndicate which enables me to perform my job much easier...i'm still surprised why some pple in my syndicate didn't make it to command sch....pple lk ming feng, chun wei and jerold who surprises me with his knowledge of the vehicle...
of course, there are quite a few pple i know from rj who are really hardworking and genuinely helpful...pple lk raphael and andrew and of course liang yuan..i'm really impressed by his drawing skills...very professionally-done...he can just do up a sketch in five min and the sktches looked lk those done by fashion designers..amazing..i really admire his skills...
oh, yest we had bbq for dinner before bookout..its a course dinner to reward us for the hard work...initially a lot of us were complaining its a waste of time but i guess everyone still did enjoy ourselves...i mean how many opportunities are there to have a bbq in camp?..its a break from training and a good chance to bond with fellow course mates...got to know the trainee female sergeant from my syndicate a lot better...found out more abt army from a female's perspective which was quite interesting...and we were laughing silly at raphael's jokes...he's a natural comedian...there were performances put up by fellow coursemates...brendon whom i first got to know during the block leave is really good at drumming...didn't really got to know him better although he's also a fellow vehicle ic cause he's in the another grp...
anw, next week is the last week of the course...i dun know whether i'll miss the pple i know from there but my gut feeling tells me i will for some pple...and i'm definitely looking forward towards doing flotation where we get to drive the vehicle into water....
jel; 8:48 am
Sunday, April 3
this week's bookout seemed to have been very long from the previous one...time seemed to have dragged on for very long...really hope this course wld end quickly...first of all, there's so many of us attending the course..abt 130 which explains why its so difficult to conduct the course...lack of instructors ard and when they conduct the lesson, they just briefly go through the stuff and expects us to try to understand whats going on...and we're not even given a chance to have hands-on practice before we actually go down to do the stuff and they expect us to know everything right from the start...but the fact is most of us wldn't know whats going on and that leads to more confession....no point talking abt the details cause no one reading this wld understand anyway...anyway, the entire course is very poorly managed ...instructions do not get passed down efficiently, whether it is among the instructors or from instructors to trainees...everything is so messy...its just so horrible that i can't wait for 2 weeks to pass by quickly...and next week wld be even more outfields and tests...and being the vehicle commander is the worst responsibility to hold...have to go through more shit than othe pple...but so far its been manageable...hope nothing worst will happen next week...this whole course feels worst than it was in bmt....and there are some pple whom u feel lk bashing and cursing...trainees and instructors included....but i'm really glad that there're a small grp of responsible and efficient pple working tog with me which wld make this experience slightly better...and i dun understand why these pple didn't make it to command sch too...but nvm, there shldn't be anything worth complimenting abt in army......i'm just looking forward towards going back to keat hong...yest went for a good dinner at sizzler and bought more clothes from bum equip...i must control myself from buying clothes every wkend from now on....going to watch movie later...becoming a movie addict lately...i guess it keeps me away from all those shit thats going to happen back in camp...py, enjoy yourself in hk next week...take care of yourself and rmb to bring back something for us...haha..we'll miss you and seeya 2 weeks later!
jel; 10:25 am
