Wednesday, January 5
Memories
My third official day as a non-student...trying to get used to not going school on a school day...it seems lk the sch holidays have been extended...went back nj last back...has been a month plus last I last entered the sch compound....a pretty short yet fulfilling two years have been spent there....as what a lot of pple have commented...the friends and the times spent there have added colours to my 'grey' days...I rmb the first day of sch...a new chapter to sch life...everything is new, lotsa stuff to learn and get used to..i still rmb the first time I stepped into the sch compd, I told myself 'this is where you’ll be spending the next 2 yrs, make full use of it'.....since then, I feel that I'm learning something new everyday....orientation 03 was a great start to a new sch life.....ground-breaking no. of days...a memorable period full of exciting new stuff to discover each time....I was pretty much enjoying every moment of it.....building great calamaderie with ogls and friends....not forgetting chancing upon my grand-ogl...since then, the learning curve has been an exponential one....getting used to tutorials and lectures and nj sch life....after 3 months, I have contemplated switching schs....cause nj wasn't exactly where I have visioned myself in right from the beginning...but certain feelings pulled me back right from the first day...something not easy to explain..its not the teachers, not the sch system, not how run-down the sch may look.....
The first few months found me maturing rapidly..no longer a sec sch boy but a pre-u young adult...challenges and responsibilities u face in jc is lots but its what makes the whole jc thing so exciting...tough may it be but I found myself learning and growing with each experience...there are times where I encountered problems during that period but its just problems faced by a typical student...everyone is bound to face similar situations....but after that, I guess I've learned a lot...throughout the two yrs, there were setbacks in terms of cca and ext activities, but I guess life wun be smooth-sailing....
Significant highlights of the yr include the ndc...I guess that is the only sch celebration which I am most involved in...reason why that was a highlight was prob because I tend to lk to get heavily involved in organising stuff although I’m just a participant in ndc...but the process of organising and ensuring its success is a new challenge for me each time...I lk getting into the hype of such sch celebrations ...but I guess the thing is in nj, the only chance to organise events lk ndc is to become a hs rep...project work was an interesting period of time...have to work tightly with a grp of classmates really isn't an easy job....there's a lot of friction at times and things just isn't as smooth-sailing as it shld be but I’'m really glad things slowly work out for the five of us and at the end of the day, our cooperation really makes things work...the results were fabulous, considering the fact that there were lotsa setbacks and we thought we couldn't make it in the beginning...thank you for such a great grp combination....
Being chosen as an ogl for orientation 04 was such an exciting moment....the fact that I enjoyed my orientation so much makes me want to relive the moment again.....and the fact that I lk to get into the hype of sch activities make me want to grab this opportunity .....and I can't imagine having the hit the books once sch starts...I guess u can't tie me down...haha...with more new friends, I felt a greater sense of belonging to the sch...the fact when u know more pple and know the things happening ard u, u feel part of the sch community ...from the point of being selected, everything was just fun..i guess I chose to adopt a positive attitude and go all out to have fun...no point in dwelling on small stuff which spoilts the fun....got to experience what my ogls used to go through...all the ogls share a similar fact that we all lk to have fun makes the entire process so fun and enjoyable right from the preparation to the camp and finally to the actual orientation...too much too say from this experience but in a nutshell, orientation 04 was definitely the highlight of my jc life and prob the peak...
Hard to recover from the orientation mood during the post-orientation period...esp hard to join the rest of the cohort and trying to catch up..when others went on gear in their studies, we have to be at a higher gear than the others...I rmbed I took a month before the initial stress settle down.....and I'm glad the ogls were there to provide support for one another during the tough period...
Year two was busy...with lotsa of tests and a relationship to handle...its tough when u dun perform as well as expected and very stressful I would say...studying for the a levels was a mind-boggling period...trying very hard to concentrate each day...its very hard to tie myself down...the more I try to, the more I yearn for freedom...but at least at that moment, I just have to concentrate on studying..i dun need to be busy with another activities or worry abt minor and major issues...there is an excuse to push everything else after the exams...
Throughout my jc life, reflecting on myself, I guess I matured a lot from my sec sch days...I've learned to control my temper, at least it has been reduced by a significant amt...maybe I've learned to release my anger quick enough...I've been less sensitive to a lot of stuff and adopt a positive attitude....all these has allowed me to be a much happier person and allow me to enjoy each day....but a lot of times, others often only see the more chirpy side of me....i dun know how I project myself of others and I have this feeling that sometimes, they see me as a person I'm not...I guess when I'm alone, I'm quite different....oh and I think too much when I'm alone and that's something I have to change...that's bad cause it cause me to worry and stress unnecessarily...
I often tell myself to be brave and live life to the fullest so that I wun have any regrets but I guess its hard not to say that I dun have any regets in nj....first, I wan to say I have no regrets coming to nj although I dun know whether I'll perform better elsewhere....but I have a tint of regret joining interact....it wasn't the ideal cca right from the start...i guess I joined it cause I was afraid to break away from the norm and that was a wrong move indeed....there is no denying that I love the nature of the cca but throughout the 2 yrs, I didn't get the fulfilment that I wanted and pursued for.....I felt that I had more to give which some other cca are able to offer me.....I believe I shld try something new and learn some thing new each time.....to maximise myself and be able to satisfy myself and others.....there are a few ccas which I had wanted to join but I just everything was my mistake.....a lesson learned...
My class for 2 whole yrs...03S15...this is where I start my learning point and breeding ground where I mature from...where I share laughter with and being tog through the happy and sad times......i'm glad the class managed to get along pretty well with one another...there isn't any outstanding person worth special honour or recommendations but because each one of us is equal and outstanding in their own ways, we all managed to build bonds..i'm really happy to be in this class where everyone is on similar frequency..there's no rivalry going on, no fights, no cold shoulders...yes it may seem dull and boring, but seriously, who wants all those? At the end of the day, I may glad none of such stuff ever happen...I dun know how I'll do if I was in another class, but I am sure this is the class I’ll never regret to be in...
Farewell 03S15...from this day, we go our separate paths but may there be a time where the paths meet again...
Farewell NJ...2 fulfilling yrs are enough for me to keep u in a special place in my memory...
jel; 4:04 pm