Monday, December 20


Somewhere I Belong

just went to yishun just now...dun know why but i always felt reluctant to go back each time...
something is holding me back....
its fear of smthng....
fear of the memories there...
as i walked to home...every thing there reminds me of something...memories of the past...some flats have been repainted, some things changed...yet, this is the familiar place i've been living in for the past 16 yrs....
it seems lk every path home reminds me of a past memory.....every tree, every building, every shop....
although i've not been staying there for the past 2 yrs and have not been going back often since, it seems lk i've not left the place at all...it seems lk i've been staying there all these while....

saw the repeat telecast of mvp valentine on tv....it was the same show i watched during that period of time...it seems lk i have travelled back in time...back to when everything was fine....before anything else happened........

i wish things were still the same as before...but no, i'm not going to look back.......
i'm glad to see my cousin living comfortably....
i miss my 'aunt'...truly........

i've such a strong feeling towards the place....a strong attachment which is irreplacable....
16 yrs....my entire childhood and a great part of my teens....
just smthng which will always stay somewhere within me....

i was forced to adapt, to change and to learn.....and to learn how to control my emotions
but i'm not going to regret anything........
we have to learn to move on with our lives.........

jel; 5:08 pm