Sunday, December 12


i guess i still have lotsa things to say...realise that sometimes although i may say some things but deep down inside, i still have lotsa regrets...maybe i shldn't have been too decisive...maybe i shldn't have been too vague...i'm afraid putting things wrongly may hurt u more...it hurts me when u get hurt..everytime...everytime they tell me how much u likes me, i nv fail to believe..sometimes u may not show or say it, i always believe...everytime ,deep down inside, whenever you are struggling...how i wish i can be given a chance to share it with you, but but i felt neglected...

you have everyone else to share it with...sometimes i dun know why but i can't help but feel that i'm just not given the importance...i choose to believe that it isn't that way but sometimes the its hard not to feel that way...

does anyone actually understands how i feel?...............

no one....thats what i feel............

i'm given the impression that i'm replaceable....i'm just another friend.....as tog with the others, where do i stand? nowhere?...thats how i feel....

now i'm being made the bad guy...thas fine with me, i can't blame the others...they support u...i dun have any...i dun wish things ended up that way..i really dun....i hope we could have sorted things out..but whats the point now........its over now.........

i guess its better to be the bad guy....its easier to start a new life...its harder to move on if u still can't forget abt one...i hope u can forget abt me, but not our memories...times spent tog are not replaceable..each memory is unique...i do hope this hasn't been a wasted time...i hope u can bring with u something and has learned something too...

i wish we cld still be friends..i hope i'm not asking for the impossible...but with your support grp, i reaaly dun know how to face you and the others...whatever it is, i hope life carries on.....

i wish u could read all these.....





jel; 1:19 pm