Tuesday, March 2

Got a free ride to sch today...first time someone drove me to sch on a normal schday...i know its not big deal but to someone who nv gets droven to sch before, it’s a big deal....

Was so pissed off again over the bmw thing....being in charge of goh and performance management is the suckiest job ever....didn't choose that job in the first place...but had to accept it...right from the start my role wasn't stated clearly at all and later in the next few months tasks started appearing... had to take charge of a whole lot of rubbish... have to get a bkdrop for the stage and the table for the prizes what the what have these got to do with me and when I asked her (F1) she just say its my job... ok fine ....then there was suppose to be a partner (F2) sharing the job with me but she just didn't help out in much ways... either I couldn't contact her or she just didn't get the job done properly and now i'm practically doing the things myself ...then later a few months later...when I told the committee abt it, F1 suggest getting another person (F3) to help me since she has completed her stuff ...thought at least now i'm going to have some help....

Today I asked F3 to help me plan out the emcees speech... dun need the exact words that the emcee has to say but just a guide to what to say according to the prog schedule... then she replied and say she doesn't know anything... cannot help... I replied and told her its just a rough guide and i'll edit through and she insisted on not helping me cause she doesn't know anything.... fine... I understand that u dun know much but its just a plan... I'm sure u know how a prog is run but that's not the part i'm angry abt its her attitude... its alright if u dun wanna help ill understand if u explain nicely but u simply chose to reject me straight in the face what the i'm already pissed out and stress by all those and u dun need to add it on by giving me this kind of attitude....

I can't stand it now... everyones pushing me for deadlines and i'm the only one doing this... hey this is not the only stuff I need to do k ?...I can't allocate forever to do your stuff and F1 keeps calling me and telling me to rmb to do this and that all she knows is to tell pple to do jobs but when I ask her questions she couldn’t provide much help either.... and I dun lk the way she tells pple to do their stuff... argh ...sometimes I just dun know what to do and all that kind of stuff no one is there to provide a direct form of help... k fine... just 2 more weeks to go I have to just get it done and over and that's it... I wun say I enjoyed working with u pple but i'll say I gain lots working with u pple... get a taste of working with pple who just so uncooperative... wanted to use uglier words and decided against it....

Know its going to be a big event so I'm not going to screw it up... njcians out there who are helping out as volunteers have a great time that day.... think its going to be fun for u pple helping... at least u all dun need to face all the ugly stuff....

jel; 8:31 pm