Wednesday, March 31

Ok...quite a number of things happened these few days...

Mon

Orientation 2 is finally back! Ok, know that its not going to be as fun as O1, as expected, since its only a day...furthermore my ip class not taking part as well...nvm, going to make the most out of it...was rather boring I would say, if not why would almost half the cohort left before orientation ends? They were mainly 2nd intakers...quite pity them some times...might have felt out...I did enjoy myself during last yr's one as a 1st intake student...got to do the mass dance and play games with a whole class of familiar pple...I would say we are more enthu for the second one since we already know each other...

Mass dance was quite bad...technical fault at the gym and in the end, we only danced for an hour or so...melyvck got a bit pissed off...games was even more horrible...I'm supposed to join alwyn's og but his og only has 1 person left! In the end, we left her with another class and slacked...haha, we went to walk around, chatted and played with the other ogls...started playing 'passing the bal' with alwyn, sara, huimin, zhaoxiu and a few others...it's the extremely most lame thing to do, but we were damn bored liao...to think that I was actually laughing at huimin, zhaoxiu and simin earlier now for passing the ball and now I'm doing it too...we went to chat with Melissa at the hockey area later....sitting down there out in the open sun and chatted...played a bit of Frisbee too...the whole idea during the games is for alwyn and I to get some tan...I know its stupid but we were lk trying to stay in the sun while others were lk looking for shade...in the end we did manage to get a bit of tan after standing out there for 3 hours...went out for kap dinner later...reminds me of the times in orientation 1 again...the last time I went there was during the last day of orientation...that place has many memories of orientation 03 and 04...

Tue/Wed

Got back my physics paper and maths grade...these are my 2 s paper subjects...physics was disappointing...could have gotten much better...will not talk abt it and what happened on tue...was quite relieved when I know my maths grade...we convinced mr bek to tell us our grades first...he only announced some grades...was so tense that my heart was pumping so hard...was so relieved cause I screwed up physics and I'm uncertain about my maths cause I'll either break it or make it...so glad the nightmare during last yr's common test didn't happen about...now have to worry abt gp, chem and bio...

Dislike some pple in my class when it comes to releasing of grades...there are pple whom I'm very disgusted at...some of them would start comparing marks to see how they perform and judge pple based on their marks...its just very realistic and practical...if you're not good, you're not fit in this class...they'll start to feel confident and look down on others...there're just some who are so unbearable as they just want to be on the top of the competition...there is some sort of silent yet strong competition going on in class....such silence is making me go crazy...some of them just can't wait to step on others and outwin the rest...but there are some are just very nice too...although that person may have the highest grade among the entire class...he/she just want to remain anonymous...some would just want to have some fair competition with no motives...

Will have to bear with this for the time being...think its going to get worst as the a levels are nearing...omy...wun think abt it first...will end off here...

jel; 7:14 pm

Sunday, March 28

Went to bugis junction today...did some serious buying...ok, I know that I'm supposed to start saving, but those stuff were sort of necessary...bought a new earphone from sony style...my most guilty purchase cause it cost $50...quite a cool-ooking design...bought it cause the old one was spoilt and I've been eyeing that since dec...

Went to kinokuniya and managed to find a book which I couldn't find in poupular...its entitled "My Voice"...it is a collection of letters from troubled youths who wish to express their inner voices which would not have been heard without the help of this book, which is a non-profit project initiated by the founder of 77th street, Elim Chew and radio personality, Danny Yeo...these letters were collected from flyers placed at 77th street outlets and from homes...thought it was a meaningful project cause it helps to bring relief and comfort to these youths and encourage youths to express themselves-something our environment and culture constrains us from doing, furthermore, profits from the sale of this book goes to training programmes for these youths in homes...know that some people may just think it's a waste of money to pay to read problems of other people who are not related to us, but I think after reading this book, it inspired me to do some self-reflection, appreciate what we have and to want to make a difference just by listening...for those people out there, I encourage u to purchase this book and let the stories of these troubled teens touch your heart...

Bought the "love actually" vcd on my way home and watched it immediately...nv watched it before but heard from many friends that its very gd...indeed, a heart-warming, sweet romance comedy...thought it would be great to watch over the Christmas season... a movie well-focused on the love theme... really makes you agree that love actually is everywhere...well...need to go to sleep now...ciao

jel; 1:09 am

Saturday, March 27

Was listening to one of the cds that joel bought for me- The Best of LeAnn Rimes...wanted it primarily of 2 songs..Can't Fight the Moonlight and How Do I Live...impressed by her 'live' performances..lk the latter song since a long time ago..lked it the moment i heard it...

How Do I Live

How do I,
Get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I need....
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?

Btw, to all my blog-readers: if u dun mind, just leave ur name in the tagboard so that i'm aware who's reading my blog..thanks!

jel; 7:09 am

Friday, March 26

Woa...more than a week since I last blogged...longest break since...so sorry, just couldn’t fork out the time to blog...btw, nothing much happened during the one-week break...happened to read other blogs and found out that most have blogged for that period...haha...guess I was too focused...hiyah, but I dun think it'll do any help for my results...wun mention abt how horrible the common tests were...even after the common tests, I couldn't even find time to blog...

Wed
Right after the common test, went to orchard with joel to buy cds...he had lk $80 worth of vouchers to spend in cd-rama...had put in my determination to cut spending limits to the minimum from now on...want to save up for prom night and possible korea trip...for those who know, I have feverish in buying cds and I actually have to cut down on the 3 cds that I had actually wanted to buy...woa, in the end, joel bought 2 cds for me...actually one of it is for my very very belated birthday present...haha...went to meet mich and co later but nothing much happened cause she was preparing to go home...

Thursday
A packed day, I would say...woke up lk 7+ to go to the gym...have to force myself to do it cause its being more than 2 weeks since I had any proper exercise...then had to go back to nj for the sapphire meet-the-mentor session...argh, mr bek made us go back on this day just for this....spoilt part of my schedule...but it turned out to be just nice...felt more lk a conversation than a discussion session...in the end, it turned out I stayed there till 2 which makes me way behind schedule cause I expected it to end at 12...but nvm...rushed down to yee ching’s hs soon after to meet them...first time there...was damn excited abt it cause I heard its quite big...took a private bus there...I would say her hs was the second biggest hs I've been to (after ek kiat's)...had a swimming pool and half a basketball court...impressive enough...watched "the classics", a Korean movie...can't believe its alene's 13TH time watching this...u believe this? She's so familiar with the show that she can tell us a song will be played after the actor walks 3 steps! Omg...always thought she was a funny girl, some of her reactions simply puts me into laughters...shall choose to just summarize all that happened at yc's hs cause a lot of stuff happened this day...later I went to meet a group of friends at orchard...long time since I’ve met them...had looked forward to meeting them...went ard to look...also a long time since I've been to orchard to do any window-shopping...not very interested though cause I've already planned not to buy anything at this moment...praying hard that I would not see any stuff I lk at the same time...Went over to one of their hs to stay overnight...what a perfect way to end a day...watched ami there...was the results day...my 2 favourites are jasmine and Camille...i know camille didn't perform well for the past 2 performances so I had the srong feeling she'll get booted out this week…jasmine didn't perform well last night but at least her performances were stable all along so I wasn’t worried….was so worried but she was the bottom 2…couldn’t believe how happy I was when matthew's name was read…haha, that's very mean…..after the show, we chatted for a long time…I think it was already 3+ when we finally slept….

Fri
Woke up at seven...slept for so short...was damn shragged...lucky there was coffee...cause I wouldn't want to fall asleep as I'm going to joel's hs today...his hs is also one of the bigger ones I've been to...what I lked abt his hs is the rooftop space which is big enough to hold an open-air bbq party for ~10pple...lk sitting at the ledge and feel the wind blow against u...its high enough at 4th level and little obstructions to view from that height...but the main purpose for going there is to play with his bro's new dog...lk it the moment I see it...actually as long as its dogs, I'll definitely lk it...haha...did lotsa stuff over there...listen to music, watch dvds, vcds...walked a dog for the first time in my life...had to run tog with it cause its so hyperactive...haha...went to lot 1 and westmall later...shall not elaborate on y we went 2 places…

Anyway, the above stuff has kept me busy till now...finally got to settle down to type this blog entry...will continue to keep myself busy for the next 2 days...will enjoy as much as I can...O2 on Monday too...can stay away from studies for one more day...

jel; 8:01 pm

Monday, March 15

yea! bmw is finally over! After 6 whole months of hard work and slogging, everything was over! Everything ran smoothly throughout the whole event, right from the morning all the way to evening.....of course, there are some gitches here and there, but finally everything was smoothed out....can't believe its such a success...first of all, the whole event is organised by teenagers lk us and next, the event is a high-profile one cause we invited Dr Vivian Balakrishnan as our GOH....for your info, he is an ex-NJCian president scholar (go look at the 1980 winner on the board!)...right from the straight, we look that nothing must go wrong cause we can't afford that!

thanl goodness nothing went wrong on my part..i was the stage manager on that day and it was the most important job on that day cause if anything went wrong, it'll be my fault...mrs gan and mr lim were there and mrs gan even told me not to be so stress...well, definitely have to give credit to pple who have helped me along the way, from the preparation all the way to the day inside...cedric, david who guided me along the way and of course dr gan and many more others.....

i know that along the way, i have met many obstacles and i admit that i dislk working with some pple...although those pple are present, i did learn how to work with such pple....i have matured alot from this event and really gained from experiences...can't believe the satisfaction one gets when an event that requires 6 mnths of preparation is finally over and having the goh praising us on our initiative....and guess what? there will be a bmw 2005! means that this is going to be an annual event! although i wun be part of the organising committee nxt yr and dun know whether nj will be a co-organiser nxt yr, one things for sure-the few of us are in the pioneer batch of organisers of the event and as dr gan mentioned, we will be in the bmw alumni! Such a wonderful experience....

jel; 10:31 am

Saturday, March 13

sorry didn't continue on the previous entry cause btyz was closing...didn't want to continue with it cause that entry was written on the verge of angry and there are simply too many stuff to be written....furthermore i have better stuff to worry abt...thanks to all those who have shown concern for the past few days...know that i wasn't my usual self....have been taking things more lightly to relieve my stress....so thats abt all...ciao!

jel; 8:26 am

Thursday, March 11

This is the limit...i simply can't stand whats happening now...bmw is a complete disaster for my part.....right from the start, i've tried my best to find performances for the event but all of them couoldn't give me a positive reply at all and it doesn't help that i'm the only one doing this job.....the performances were either too expensive or they were not free at all...and all they see at the surface is that i'm not doing my job of finding performances...they dun see the work i've done and put me down in an uneasy spot...so shallow...

she simply irritates me so much..all she does is call pple to tell them what they are supposed to do and i ask her for assistance in an area, she refers me to another person and then i was referred to another person...tell me what i'm supposed to do? you pple simply put a mess into everything.....when she called me to remind me to complete my task, she scolded and say she's already told me 2 weeks ago and its not done till now..hey, the performances are already screwed up and there needs to be confirmation before i can do anything..how to give u an answer when smthng before that is not done yet? and regarding the goh movt,

jel; 4:03 pm

Wednesday, March 10

SSEF is finally over! Have missed sch yesterday and today for this competition....didn't win anything in the end..quite sad..nj sent around twenty plus teams and only 7 won-1 gold, 1 silver, 2 bronze and 4 merits...a lesson for nj: its the quality and not the quantity that counts...vj sent in ard the same no of teams and many of them won with a greater no of golds and silver...such a letdown for nj........but its really a great experience for me..taking part in a science fair of such big scale....bonded closer to the nj team and get in contact with other schs' participants too...the two days spent there were interesting, i could say...all the hard work put in for the project and this being the final stop....memorable experience there although i'll be happier if there was a coloured ribbon on my poster (for ur info, a particular colour ribbon will signify an award)..hehe...

the bmw thing is still such an irritating job...wun continue complaining again...still the same old stuff and pple.......stress, stress..common tests are coming up and i'm expected to obtain gd results for this..argh.....

jel; 6:52 pm

Sunday, March 7

Long time since i've blogged..

since the previous entry, have been busy with the bmw stuff......simply disliked the job...had the normal routine in the morning...gym, breakfast and then to the cc to study...haha..surprised to meet shaun there...know that he lives just nxt to the cc but wouldn't expect to see someone i know there...had the bmw mass meeting later in the evening...lots of nj pple attended (although there are a lot of absentees too)...met the emcee too..familiar face cause he appeared on tv before..acting in a channel u drama serial....after the meeting ended and settling some stuff, it was already 8+ when a few of us went of dinner at causeway point....went to eat pastamania.....felt i became closer to anson and mingyang through this project...interesting pple to chat with too...glad that smthng gd turned out from this project, at least....by the time i reached home, it was ten plus...

next week is ssef....had to miss 2.5 days of lessons...sian..hate catching up..argh...then i heard that i'll be involved in Orientation 2 although ip students wun be in...that'll mean more lessons missed although i'm happy that i'll be involved...hmm, forgot the mass dance steps liao...

jel; 3:42 pm

Tuesday, March 2

Got a free ride to sch today...first time someone drove me to sch on a normal schday...i know its not big deal but to someone who nv gets droven to sch before, it’s a big deal....

Was so pissed off again over the bmw thing....being in charge of goh and performance management is the suckiest job ever....didn't choose that job in the first place...but had to accept it...right from the start my role wasn't stated clearly at all and later in the next few months tasks started appearing... had to take charge of a whole lot of rubbish... have to get a bkdrop for the stage and the table for the prizes what the what have these got to do with me and when I asked her (F1) she just say its my job... ok fine ....then there was suppose to be a partner (F2) sharing the job with me but she just didn't help out in much ways... either I couldn't contact her or she just didn't get the job done properly and now i'm practically doing the things myself ...then later a few months later...when I told the committee abt it, F1 suggest getting another person (F3) to help me since she has completed her stuff ...thought at least now i'm going to have some help....

Today I asked F3 to help me plan out the emcees speech... dun need the exact words that the emcee has to say but just a guide to what to say according to the prog schedule... then she replied and say she doesn't know anything... cannot help... I replied and told her its just a rough guide and i'll edit through and she insisted on not helping me cause she doesn't know anything.... fine... I understand that u dun know much but its just a plan... I'm sure u know how a prog is run but that's not the part i'm angry abt its her attitude... its alright if u dun wanna help ill understand if u explain nicely but u simply chose to reject me straight in the face what the i'm already pissed out and stress by all those and u dun need to add it on by giving me this kind of attitude....

I can't stand it now... everyones pushing me for deadlines and i'm the only one doing this... hey this is not the only stuff I need to do k ?...I can't allocate forever to do your stuff and F1 keeps calling me and telling me to rmb to do this and that all she knows is to tell pple to do jobs but when I ask her questions she couldn’t provide much help either.... and I dun lk the way she tells pple to do their stuff... argh ...sometimes I just dun know what to do and all that kind of stuff no one is there to provide a direct form of help... k fine... just 2 more weeks to go I have to just get it done and over and that's it... I wun say I enjoyed working with u pple but i'll say I gain lots working with u pple... get a taste of working with pple who just so uncooperative... wanted to use uglier words and decided against it....

Know its going to be a big event so I'm not going to screw it up... njcians out there who are helping out as volunteers have a great time that day.... think its going to be fun for u pple helping... at least u all dun need to face all the ugly stuff....

jel; 8:31 pm

Monday, March 1

Happy 1st Month!

Time seem to have passed by so fast…but at least the time was well-spent, fruitful and exciting...thanks a lot...

Today seemed to pass by quickly, maybe because I was busy...wasn't happy with the SSEF poster...regretted not giving it a careful thought before printing...it was yellow in colour which is a direct copy from the template given..now a lot of them have the same colour..wun stand out at all…sian..then it was printed in A1 size when the given space is twice that size..shld have printed it bigger but it'll cost more if its customized...argh...then there shldn’t be a title on that A1 poster cause there's suppose to be a separate title on another sheet of paper…there's so much fault in it that now I hate my poster..argh…and my partner couldn’t care more abt the title which is not done yet...argh...my partner dun seem to bother abt the project nowadays..come on, the judging is nxt week..can’t u just hang on there...

Did up the noticeboard within 1 hr during civics lesson today...was empty since beginning of yr...then its my job as a cip rep to do it, so might as well do it well…thanks to yingjia, waiwan, shileng, chinyaw, lynn, ruoxi anqi and qinning who helped me in the process..the rest were busying their hw, couldn’t help and lucky I’ve completed them...without u pple, thw work wouln’t be so efficient…was an amazing feat...I’m so proud of the final product...its so nice! Wouldn’t give credit to myself for the design cause few of them chipped in their ideas in the process…hey pple, if u happen to pass by TB 34, go take a peek inside...i know its highly unlikely to pass by there cause its at the most seclude area of the sch, but just in case if u do,k?

Argh....star symposium just 2 days later and I’ve not prepared anything for that day yet! Help me!...stress, stress, stress...

jel; 5:08 pm