Friday, January 30
Those Days Gone
short day today again...but strangely, the day passes by very slowly...hour by hour, minute by minute...nothing much happened today...just that want to say that i kinda of miss the times where i can truely enjoy the accompany of my OGL friends during orientation...
shawn came up and chatted with me and candice at the canteen after sch today..i was surprised to see that the 2 of them still so close to each other even after orientation..its lk they only got to know each other during orientation stuff and they managed to bond so well...well was kinda disappointed that some bonds were only made only during the period of orientation...they sort of 'ignored' or 'pretended' not to know you after orientation's over..wouldn't even say a hi or what...so sad, rite? so anyone out reading this, just dun forget to say hi if u see me in sch k? of course, there are many pple who are indeed friendly out there too, impressed me lots....
so sian now, at the library studying..didn't want to go home cause i'm afraid i'll fall asleep, but i still took a nap in the library anw...will hate myself if i dun finish what i'm supposed to do...sigh..when will be the day i'll write write something happy in here? a day which i'll truely enjoy myself and smile for the whole day...will be anticipating..till then, i'll just wait....
jel; 1:19 pm
Thursday, January 29
Another Day
Hiyah..i didn’t think I’ll have a gd time in sch today when I woke up in the morning…didn’t know why, but its just this feeling…thought today was going to be quite an uneventful day for me…well, indeed it didn’t turn up too well…nothing drastic happened though, but if u know me well enough, u shld know whats happening to me these few days…its quite a horrible feeling though, hope to get over with it in due time…
Really enjoyed lunch today..a record-breaking of 14 pple from my class came down for luch and sat tog! For ur info, this is a magnificent feat for my class though…I feel so happy for my class today which is surprising….its even bigger than mich’s clique! But I still think they are closer to each other cause they are all happily chatting while having lunch but for my class, its lk we’re just physically sitting there and mentally, we’re elsewhere…its only the few of us talking to each other….
Surprising today during our break before s paper, the few of us didn’t do any hw and we ended up jus chatting…although its nothing special, but its quite relaxing to just take a break at times and let our hearts out for a moment..great feeling…n now 2 of my classmates have my blog add..wonder whether they’ll read this…end off here..nothing more to talk abt too…sian…
jel; 5:57 pm
Wednesday, January 28
Birthday Boy
Yea!..The day is finally here! Haha..guess that I have anticipated this day for quite some time…however, when today arrives, I kind of felt that today was rather a normal day in sch, nothing special…its quite weird…haha…lessons still continue as per normal…quite happy to receive presents from others..I can say that this yr’s bday is the most memorable out of my entire sch life…what a good way to mark the last bday as a sch student b4 I go NS….well, received a total of 11 presents from 8 individuals/grps, the most I’ve ever gotten…nothing special happened for the rest of the day…supposed to feel happy today, but halfway through the day, I sort of feel disappointed as well as upset over some stuff, well I have to take it in my stride and dun let it bother me…will only bother and affect my mood….sigh..shall not mention abt such stuff…
Went out to have sakae sushi after sch with my friends...had an enjoyable time there..first time eating buffet lunch there, so quite excited abt it, but couldn’t eat much cause I’m still sick..nvm, as long as I enjoy myself…didn’t stay outside for long cause didn’t have the mood to go ard, but I can see I enjoyed what happened after the meal…shall not elaborate on the details…although its nothing special, but I really treasured the time spent then…came back home and received some calls…got damn pissed off…didn’t like the misunderstanding and lack of sincerity…y can’t there be better communication bet pple?What a way to end my bday…sigh..i’ll just endure it for 2 more months….
Haha, now to the acknowledgement..it may be long and boring but I must mention them…Thanks to all those who gave me presents and make this yr the most presents I have ever received (in order of when I received them): mich, huiling, alwyn (I’ll get back at u one day for that!), shi leng, wei han, huiyian, joyce, qinning, ruoxi, lynn, jingling and last but not least, my best friend, tim….and other than those who gave me the presents and my classmates, I’ll also like to thank those who gave theor well-wishes to me in sch: joanna, ching, jac, huilin, derek and esp shawn lee..i was impressed by ur sincerity…thanks again.
To mich: thanks for the 2 presents! Love them…so sweet…thanks for a lot of stuff..would not elaborate them…but u shld know what I’m trying to refer to…hope u enjoy urself as much as I do…
To tim: hey pal! U gave me what I wanted! Thanks…didn’t disappoint me…the 3 presents u gave are very meaningful…knew u spent a lot of money and time on those…thanks again!
My entry’s kinda long already…to end off: I’ll definitely treasure all those pple I’ve met and known during my schooling yrs…u pple make up my memories in sch and these memories will stay will me for as long as I can…the yrs I’ve spent may not be smooth-sailing but it’s the motivation and concern that u pple gave me that make me move on…sound cliché but I do love u pple…quite touched today..thanks and best wishes to u pple out there!
P.S: hasan, if u are reading this, so disappointed that the stayover on fri couldn’t realize..i bet u thought that way too…haha..thought it was a gd idea..but dun worry, I’m sure we will have it one day, I hope..
jel; 6:13 pm
Monday, January 26
Nothing Interesting
haha..actually didn't want to blog today but since i'm online, might as well blog a short one...
nothing special happened in sch today...strange though, i seem to enjoy going down for lunch nowadays...smart pple shld know why...today during lunch was so pai sei...my grp of friends were sitting at the canteen eating, then mich's clique came by and everyone started saying hi to me! its juz sort of funny, u know...then they came and sat a few tables away from us...i wanted to ask mich some stuff n decided to call her..she picked up the phone and guess what? alene saw the caller's name and spotted the two of us using the phone! then the whole grp started to tease mich...poor girl, guess she was damn embarrassed...same thing happened at the bus stop after sch, everyone was teasing her...
i'll end off here...hmmm...counting 2 more days down to 28 Jan...yea!
jel; 2:42 pm
Sunday, January 25
Sparta Clan Outing
had our very first official sparta clan outing today at orchard...the very last time was just a dinner at kap, wasn't counted...thanks to siqi for organising it..i know its hard on you...although its a clan outing, in the end, only 7 turned up, but i think its commendable already...
wanted to catch a movie, but its either the timings were not right or there wasn't tix, so it was apity, but its alright..we went to starbucks to have a drink n a talk..talked abt everything under the sun- studying overseas, cny, life in s'pore..blah,blah,blah...at least its better than watching a movie where u just stare at the movie screen...went to play at e-zone at cine...didn't play lotsa of games as we tried to play the games as a grp...haha, n guess what? we tried out all the four machines of the spot-the-difference photo game and came in first in two of the machine...left the name sparta in the list of top winners..go check them out..well. siqi was in her usual go-crazy form n did lotsa funny things..haha, couldn't stand this girl..like how she squated on the floor, holding on to the machine just to try to be the first to look at the photos when we were taking neo-prints...
went to eat edo sushi...was a long time since i went to a japanese restaurant..ate lotsa delicious stuff..n filled my stomach to the brim..but it was cheap cause we shared the cost and to end off our end, we went to swenson's to have an earthquake as dessert...had been some time since i had a care-free time with a grp of gd friends in orchard..not having to bother abt anything, just to let go and have fun...thanks to everyone present for being such sporting pple...
to who u know u are: thanks for that stuff...i really appreciate it...didn't expect u to give me that n the great length u went to make that...was very sweet of u..well, dun know what to say, was just very touched by ur actions...few pple had shown such care for me...thanks *huggies*
jel; 7:11 pm
Saturday, January 24
CNY 3
Went to my og's hs (joanna) with a few of my og pple and her church friends...lydia and huimin couldn't make it..so sad..then huimin couldn't bring the mass dance cd too...so sad x2...wasn't expecting a really fun time cause there're quite a few outsiders, so its not really an og gathering...
Played ice-breaker games...one of the church friends started to organise the games...i've nv played those games before although they all have the same purpose of getting to know one another...could say that i enjoyed myself thorough the entire session...as we begin to warm up to one another, we started chatting too...those christian friends are really sociable and i've always enjoyed talking to such people..meeting new pple has always been a joy for me, love making new friends, esp with pple like them...as i'm a free-thinker, i dun mind socialising with pple of christian bkgrd cause i think they treat others like friends...wld say i enjoyed myself there, didn't feel awkward...later began to chat with joanna's parents..think they are very amiable pple..well, think they have a gd impression of me and i had too of them...envious that joanna has a warm and close family, n not to forget her cute little sis...
had a gd, long talk with my best friend tim last night...it was a fruitful talk i wld say...he's a gr8 person to chat with...at least after that talk yesterday, he made me realise some stuff which i had been confused abt these few days..he had managed to clear up my doubts and queries...i wld say some stuff are complicated, u really need someone to guide u and clarify ur thoughts...felt that his advice was rather convincing--'go for it if u really mean it. its hard to find, so cherish before u lose'wld really love to heed his advice, but i'm so confused now whether i shld go for it, shld i make the first approach?...but i've nv wanted it to happen...sigh, some things are just beyond my control...
jel; 5:02 pm
Thursday, January 22
CNY 1
has been quite frequent in updating my blog, cause have the chance to use it more often these few days, so pls read the previous few entries too if u have not read them..thought the previous few entries have lotsa my reflections, hope u dun find it crappy, haha....
its the first day of new year..a day in which i've always anticipated when i was yg, but now, it just seem lk any ordinary day..maybe its because i've grown up..went hs-visiting as usual, nothing special...at my uncle's hs, we had bbq..n its in the afternoon, so funny...lucky the weather was not hot...had lotsa satay and chicken wings...and now my throat is getting from bad to worse..not to forget the bau gua i had...nvm, its juz this time of the yr..met many relatives, many of them are those are meet-once-a-yr kind of thing..was kind of bored thorough the whole hs-visiting thingy, cause u're meeting pple whom u may not tok to often..n i hate those qn like 'do u have a gf' or 'what will u be doing after ns'? hate it..i guess some of us out there are experiencing this too, rite?
anw, lucky there's mic there to keep me company, as in she's not there physically..juz smsing each other..its so funny, got to know updates on whats happening on her side...guess u r the only one left on the shelve rie? haha..n dun forget ur ox bf target....need me to help u find? haha..so funny...k, i need to end off here..need to reply an call...ciao
jel; 10:21 pm
Wednesday, January 21
Inspirations
Came back from chinatown and marina bay just now...so tired now..can't believe its so late now n i'm not sleeping...maybe its juz cny...
was really damn crowded in chinatown..frankly speaking, its the first time i went there on cny eve...so was rather anticipating..no doubt its really packed and congested, but seeing the big crowd and good response n support from the public that turned up, i think the organisers have done a good job in hosting the celebration...it has done good publicity n effort put in to hip up the event as well as to increase the scale of the event...have successfully attracted lotsa tourists over...they muz have been feeling impressed by our celebrations!
Another point is after seeing so many pple coming tog to celebrate this oncoming event, i had this sudden urge of feeling...i guess most s'poreans have been deeply affected by the events of 2003, then seeing so many pple come tog in a celebratory mood n enjoying themselves, i really feel that the bad times shld well be over, esp when we are inviting the arrival of another new yr..really hope that the exhilaration wld be a sign of the good times ahead...i know i sounded very cliche, but its this sudden thoughts that struck me when i saw in chinatown..thats why sometimes, i love to be with the crowds, esp during festive seasons, where i will get inspirations other than the fun n enjoyment....
well, at the stroke of midnight, at lau pa sat, we saw the fireworks both at marina and chinatown..the one at marina was more impressive, with some that are really magnificent and bright...and i do hope the fireworks could really brighten up the days ahead of us...
jel; 11:29 pm
Eve
cny eve today...woa, time passes by so fast...so glad to have able to wear home clothes to sch..how many times a yr do u get to do that?...started the day off well when i met alene at the bus stop and she told me my dressing was nice n the accessories match my clothes..she's frank with her words and didn't say that out of courtesy, thats y i'm so happy..haha, i know i'm abit vain, but i feel confident when i dress well...no harm right?
sch's concert was rather boring..didn't have any rise in cny mood..think the concert was done for the sake of doing...prefered what the j1s were doing..so vibrant, so happening..saw them staying back often to prepare, esp for the bazaar..missed my yr 1 lots...met mic and clique in canteen n joined them while waiting for shileng...then they wanted to take photo n asked me to join in...at first i thought its no harm cause i know most of them but then later i realise all them from s22 n the other outsider was mz, jac's bf...then i realised what thats suppose to mean if i join in the photo...was so embarassed n didn't wan to join in, but huiling n yeeching were lk 'come, come' then mic didn't say anything, think she's shy of the entire incident...then in the end, i joined them but decided not to sit nxt to her, juz concerned abt how she might be feeling...opps, now after that photo, the scandal wld become worst and the photo can be used for evidence..argh...
later went to celebrate jingling's bdae..then they were discussing abt my b'dae present in front of me...hey, dun say it in front of me rite?...the 4 girls already shared n bought my present..at least i can expect 1 present on that day..shileng was saying its difficult to buy stuff for me cause i've everything..haha..but i'll appreciate anything that u give me...went to take neoprints..very long nv take..think the last time was lk, erhm..1 yr ago?...anw, so funny..had so much fun playing with the machine...
Had a fun time today, as i can say...and to all those out there: Happy Chinese New Year!!
jel; 4:09 pm
Tuesday, January 20
Listen To This
nothing much happened in sch today...except that i wld like to say i hate the feeling of being ignored n treated as non-existent...dun like it in class now...being treated like i'm not in existence, then so stressed too..really makes me feel i'm lagging behind n dumb, k? can't stand my friend..can't believe he/she could say such stuff!!! argh....
will not continue on that..makes me mad...these few weeks, i'm so glad that i've put my determination in changing myself..well, an incident happened 2 weeks ago which makes me realise that i really shld treat my loved ones better and treasure them..not that i'm very bad to them last time, but there's definitely room for improvement..i've always heard of stories or advices to treasure ur family members n not regret when they are gone...but i've nv really put that into place...that incident really sparked the change and the determination to change my attitude towards my family members...i've learned to really treasure and appreciate them n have mended any of my bad behaviours...really glad that i've really 'woke up' now n took the opportunity to show my appreciation to them...
to all those who is reading, although i know u have heard this umpteen times, u REALLY shld start tresuring ur loved ones ard u if u have not done so..dun wait till something happened b4 u realised ur mistake..and dun wait till an incident happened, lk me, b4 u decide putting ur heart to it...start now-its nv too late....
jel; 3:43 pm
Monday, January 19
What Can I Say...Sigh...
Was horrible today...first lesson of the day-gp...n we need to hand in compre...didn't know need to hand in, thought only going through...did a haphazard work...now i think i'm going to get a scolding from gerald yee...he doesn't lk sloppy work..but the passage was difficult n i had a hard time trying to come out with an answer..i'll promise this wld be the last time i hand in such sloppy work...
didn't get a gd time later too... everything seem crashing onto me...almost broke down during our contact lesson...we didn't really clean the classrm n everyone started to do their hw...some stuff juz happened which sparked my emotion breakdown...didn't know why i suddenly had this emotional change...maybe i juz couldn't take it and wanted to let off...but i guess i managed to control myself in the end...at that moment, i juz feel lk screaming my head off, couln't control my feelings...
why issit that my class is so results-driven? why couldn't they spare a thought for us ogls? dun they understand that we needed their help and support esp during this time? why issit that they are so selfish and think only abt themselves? juz because we are lagging behind the rest now doesn't mean we will not catch up...can't u pple show any signs of concern at all?? juz because we have not finished our work does not mean u have chance to laugh or look down on us or even outcast us rite?...hey, its not as if u are at the top of this world rite? how mean can u all get? we are tog as a class, not individuals...where's the class spirit? where's the help for ur fellow classmates? y can't u pple stop for a moment and provide some assistance?i'll be so gladful for ur help...sigh, guess thats the nature of human-selfish...can't help it.....thats all i was so impressed by huiling when she came back to sch to help mic in her maths..hey, thats what friends are for, right? so willing to help out to that extent...will not find that in my class...well, if u have no idea which class i'm from, dun bother to find out...dun want a bad reputation of my class...opps, just realise its written down...juz dun spread it around
i'm so pissed off today already...feel much better now after letting off the steam...hope tml will be a better day then...:>
jel; 3:19 pm
Saturday, January 17
Unfulfilling
nothing much happened today..went back sch for physics prac and tutorial make-up..saw lotsa ogls back in sch..well, seeing the gathering of ogls reminded me of orientation 04...sigh..only saw 3 spartans..siqi,yuwen and lydia..most in s7 combi...anw, miss the times where we ogls have fun together...met mic and huilin studying..wonder whether they always make so much noise while studying...think huilin very funny, wave to the pri sch kids in nj today..n she kept complaining abt her mushroom hair...then another huiling popped by too..strange to have 2 huiling's at the same plave tog..haha
went to meet my best friend tim today...really very long nv meet and talk to him..either i'm too buzy or he's busy catching up with stef...sigh. if he gets tog with her, i'm definitely going to lose half a friend..already lost one half already, not going to lose another one...
anw, think today was a slack day...very disappointed with myself...sigh, y can't i always make full use of my time and be satisfied with how i spent my day...y can't it be fulfilling?
jel; 8:13 pm
Friday, January 16
Fri- the end
today was wonderful..end at one plus...nv experience such an early end b4..and u can nv imagine how happy i was cause its finally the end of the week! This week has been horrible for me but i guess i was already much better than some others whose teachers are not as understanding towards ogls...why can't they just understand that its difficult to cope with the pile of work only at the 1st week of lessons for us?
Anyway, went to westmall with my class pple for bk..played truth or dare but wasn't fun cause no one were daring enough to try out the dares..but at least for the truth, we got some juicy news out of the four...dun worry alwyn, lynn. jingling and shileng, i won't spill anything out...
Went back to sch with them cause they have bio s paper..i dun have bio s but just wanted to meet mic cause she seemed stress...in the end, she still look chirpy although i dun now whether she's trying to cover up...sigh, or maybe she's trying to put up a brave front...
We went at the canteen chatting then saw grace's og celebrating her birthday...issac was there too..then due to lack of experience in throwing whip cream, one of the girl threw the cake and missed grace and the cake with whipped cream created a mess in the canteen...luckily they brought another proper cake (waste of food!) to celebrate...after a while, gabriel and xiuwen came while they were eating the cake...then gabriel was holding the cake and guessed what happened? the cake slipped off gabriel's hand and wasted the rest of the cake...omg, its such a waste...
Was really envious to see their og so bonded to their ogls, celebrated the birthday together..well, i'm not that close to my og and its quite a pity too...but its alright....anyway, its was really fun to see them have fun in the canteen today...
jel; 7:56 pm
Sunday, January 11
Down to Earth
today is a horrible day for me..so damn stressed out..actually i could just have predicted this would happen today..wasn't expecting anything gd...lotsa of sch stuff to complete..and i really mean LOTS...tutorials, assignments...still have research report to complete, OG presents to complete and chem test on wed....
its being a long time since i've being so stressed by sch stuff and i hate it! Experienced so much of that last yr..need to take a breather, thats y i signed up as ogl..kept me away from all my troubles and problems..cause got to be away from my class and sch work, sound like i'm trying to escape from my troubles...but being an ogl has given me a gr8 experience..
i'll lk to thank all those pple who have make this experience a memorable one, my fellow spartans, 04I04 and all the other ogls whom i got to know and talked to through this orientation programme...and its horrible now for me...
thanks mic for ur concern..i need my friends' encouragement at times lk this...have not felt so down for very long...not enough time to write much for my first entry..so i'll end off now.....
jel; 4:27 pm
Saturday, January 10
CCA Carnival
today was a great day...cca carnival in sch..whole sch was buzzling with activities, just lk open day...enjoyed myself in sch...was really glad to dance the mass dance along with some ogls at the track..think i'm going to miss it...was supposed to go ikea to bring stuff for my og...but was unknowingly dragged to orchard cause issac suggested going there...alright for me cause its being a long time since i last went there...had anenjoyable time tokking to issac at bk...we didn't really tok to each other b4, but strangly we hit off quite well..my mood became gd cause i lk meeting new pple n thats y i signed as ogl..had this opportunity to know more njcians.....i'm really glad to be able to know more really nice pple lk issac thoughout this orientation thingy
well, shawn, candice, ria, mic and hasan were there too...n haresh+yujie came to join us at bk too...then later i was yet unknowingly gragged to watch paycheck..dozed off at a few pts cause i was damned tired...
later went to ikea with hasan n mic...had hard time finding suitable stuff for my og...took the same bus as mic home and we tokked abt lotsa stuff...
overall, i enjoyed my day cause i always lk to go out with different grps of pple whom i dun usu do...will have diff experiences..
jel; 8:39 pm
Friday, January 9
Reflections of Orientation
Orientation's finally over! one whole week of lack of sleep, hectic timetable is gone...but so is the fun and excitement..and signals the ncoming of homework and lessons...argh...i can say i didn't regret being an ogl despite the catching up on sch stuff that i need to do later.. orientation has truly being a wonderful experience and has left a beautiful memory in me...at least when i leave NJ, i can proudly say that i enjoyed myself and had spent my time meaningfully....
My sch life has changed since i became an ogl..my circle of friends has expanded and i no longer just talk to classmates, cca friends, etc...can u imagine how it feels like to have a long-awaited dream come true? the excitement and enjoyment...well, i'm so glad that i had one such experience which will stay with me for as long as possible....
Orientation had its fun...mass dance, wet games, N-adventure, bbq and dance party...but most importantly, it was the bonds that i had made which i cherish the most..those are the stuff that i had hoped to achieve and has done thru orientation...
Miss orientaion already..but all gd things will come to an end...and i hope that there will be many more such wonderful experiences ahead!.........
jel; 7:55 pm
Thursday, January 1
Reflections
the biggest thing that happened was to enter into a jc life...the switch from sec to jc was tough at first, but afterall, its worhtwhile...wanted to go vj all the time..nj NV came to my mind...n oh man now i wld say i love this sch...full of pple with diff bkgrds..love making friends with diff sort of characters and behaviours...life in nj was full of ups and downs n orientation 1 will always remind as one of the highlights...words wld nv be able to explain the experiences i had during that short span of time...wld love to be involved in orientation 04...then there was this whole change in my looks..quite diff from the slight nerdy look in sec sch..haha..changed of hairstyle and change into contact lenses..proud of my new change...
jc life was taken up by lotsa stuff....pw is one of the worst experiences...but at least through that, i got to learn a lot of new skills...haha...could still rmb there were a few low points this yr where i really felt down and miserable...bad experiences with friends, but at least i think i matured a lot through all these lessons..i just all these are part n parcel of growing up...thats definitely more important than the change in surface looks...
my class was average...if u r the mugger kind, this class is superb for u man...although the pple there are not that kind of nerdy pple, sometimes they are just not that enthu in stuff...then pple there are not those who are popular and well known with the rest of the sch, in other words, not high profile...but i can say, they are nice n friendly pple...and i must really say thanks to 03s15, because of u pple, i didn't slack in jc n continue to do my best to get 2 s papers....sometimes, when i need to take a breather, i wld make friends with pple from other classes...which was the reason y i signed up to be an ogl...
i think being an ogl really is another turning pt in my jc life..it was my desire but dun always believe in dreams becoming into reality...luckily i got the extra boast of confidence n realise my dream..nv know how happy i was when i got selected...really went into doing stuff that i really loved...had been a long time since i had done that, the yr was spent doing stuff for the sake of doing (pw, work)..was so fulfilling n fun, getting to learn mass dance,got to meet lotsa pple...love sparta...n as u know, i love making new friends...
sad to say, didn't really meet any new true and close friends this yr...well,try harder next yr, guess many r still close to other sec friends? to my best friend tim: thanks for the sacrifices that u had made this yr, i appreciate it and although we no longer are in the same sch, we managed to maintain close friendship...really appreciate all that help and companionship..will always treat you as my best friend...u know me too well....
well, i guess my j1 life is well-over n i'm glad i got to fulfill some of my wishes and gained a lot in term of experiences...some say that this is one of the wildest yr for teens but i guess that as long as its well-spent, it doesn't matter whether u have tried out the wildest stuff....n i'm definitely happy with how i spent my 17th yr of my life...
Seize the Day!
jel; 1:43 pm
