Advocate*Land

2010-11-08T23:28:00.001+08:00

Felt the urge to blog. Not that I have something substantial to share or that it has been a long time since I've last blogged. I almost decided to totally give up on blogging ever since the advent of more convenient social networks like FB and Twitter. But the demand for a blog will always be there. Where else can you really share words of more than 140 characters in a diary-like format?

I guess one shift in mindset personally is to stop blogging thinking of who my readers will be or to target my blog content at people I know who are reading. I think I've stopped blogging after a while cause I don't know who else are still reading this blog or whether anyone is reading.

A personal thought- I should just continue to blog my thoughts and comments, regardless of whether anyone is reading. This blog will be a tangible record of my world and my train of thoughts.

2010-08-01T01:39:00.002+08:00

haven't been faithfully updating this blog. admit that I'm kind of neglecting it. Maybe it's because I've been drawn towards twittering which provides more convenience. Maybe it's because I'm unsure who is still reading what I blogged about. But all these while, there is still no doubt that I still enjoy sharing my experiences and thoughts with the people around me.

It is a blessing to know that God places friends around you to share your life with. Upon reflecting, I have different groups of friends with whom I share different aspects of my life with. Not that my life is segmented-all parts of my life are still as real as I am, just that with different groups of friends, I share different common interests with each group and conversation topics will differ. I'm contended with being able to enjoy the company of these friends regardless of the nature of the conversation topics. It is really through such reflection that I see how God molded me into a person with diversity and yet unique in my own ways, that these different groups of friends are testimonies to how He can use me to share my life with them.

One of my purposes is to continuously form and build relationships that matter and it really brings joy to my heart, knowing that lives can be transformed and inspired.

2010-07-10T00:48:00.002+08:00

I'm really glad i'm starting on this book by Joshua Harris " I kissed dating goodbye". It is not by coincidence that I got hold of a copy of it and started reading it. What was amazing is that the book reaffirms what my stand was with regards to staying single till I graduate. It gives freedom to grow and develop, to mature as an individual till my commitment level is ready for a relationship. In the meantime, i found joy in discovering true friendship with the opposite sex without any intention of seeing them as potential girlfriends.

This book got me engaged and it has aspiring to read and be reaffirmed of my believes and decision to stay single for this moment

2010-06-01T06:58:00.003+08:00

It was a good time spent over the weekends. Attended Big Church Day Out, a christian outdoor concert, with some manchester friends, including Johnston and Daniel. It was a concert gathering some familiar Christian singers and groups and I'm impressed at such an attempt to gather Christians around the nation to celebrate and to promote goodwill agendas to believers.

I was blessed by the worship led by Hillsong United through the many songs they sang, songs which at different stages of my life have ministered to me. It seemed like a compilation of memories which surfaced during the worship that reminded me of how God has been good to me through these years of growing in Him and how He has stood by me in all situations of my life, from when I was still a young Christian with faith as small as a mustard seed till times when I face utmost difficulties and choices.

Worshiping together with such a large group of equally passionate believers brought something different in the spiritual atmosphere where we stood together to praise and worship God. The slight drizzle didn't affect any of us and I chose to declare that regardless of rain or shine, I will still worship God with the same fervor and passion and I pray that this passion will continue to burn within every time I worship

2010-05-13T07:10:00.003+08:00

Have been very ministered by this song today:

Hillsong United Arms Open Wide lyrics

VERSE 1:
Take my life I lay it down
At the cross where I am found
All I have I give to You oh God

VERSE 2:
Take my hands and make them clean
Keep my heart in purity
That I may walk in all You have for me

CHORUS:
Oh here I stand
Arms open wide
Oh I am Yours
And You are mine

VERSE 3:
Take my moments and my days
Let each breath that I take
Be ever only for You oh God

BRIDGE:
My whole life is Yours
I give it all
Surrendered to Your Name
And forever I will pray
Have Your way
Have Your way

One question I had was: what does it really mean to say that my whole life is yours? how should i live my life then? it's kind of strange that i'm asking these questions as if i'm faced with them for the first time but when I was listening to this song today, the verse brought afresh these questions as i ponder and evaluate how my life has been thus far.

Lord, give me a clean slate to start afresh and be renewed in You each day as I learn to live that surrendered life to You

2010-04-28T05:18:00.002+08:00

just read the straits times online. it is really a comforting feeling to reconnect back to Singapore in such ways. Though i may be physically far away, the news kept updated with all the new happenings. I'm so looking forward to the new developments which have sprung out these recent weeks- the helix bridge, marina sands, circle line and of course universal studios

catching the online sermon after travelling for the past month makes me yearn towards attending church service in fcbc upon my return to Singapore. haha, i guess these are the symptoms which will arise after being away for lk 3 months? in any way, I'm looking forward to spending a meaningful 2 months ahead before i finally return to Singapore

2010-04-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

Slacking around in the hostel right now. Waiting for time to pass till my flight. Hoping that my flight won't be cancelled.
Time past by so fast. I'm at the end of my Easter trip already. Thank God for how this trip turned out to be like and the many pleasant surprises throughout the trip. Learnt quite a lot from this trip as well- being more street-savy and of course about the overlapping history of this part of Europe. Have been very intrigued by history and inspired to learn a lot more and be more informed.

Looking forward to a good break from all the travelling

2010-04-04T20:34:00.002+08:00

today marks the seventh day of my Europe trip. It doesn't feel like a week already but I've already been to Milan, Venice and am at Rome right now. Experienced rain in all three cities which really dampens the mood of moving around. But thus far it has been an eventful trip. Soaked in the beauty and charm of the cities and admiring the architecture of the numerous cathedrals, churches and monuments.

Have been enjoying the company of the various groups of groups here. Really thank God for how the trip has turned out thus far. Firstly, for His protections and directions for me at those times when I had to arrive in Italy alone first and for how the itinerary turned out to be just nice and comfortable. There were those moments when I'm just thankful that the plans turned out better than what I had originally planned to be and it made the trip more meaningful in fact.

Will be looking forward to what is in store for me in the upcoming days as I travel around the next few destinations in Europe

2010-03-23T01:04:00.002+08:00

a nice weekend spent at belfast. Although I was still in UK, it felt like an overseas trip due to the flight which we had to take. Ryanair is surprisingly better than what I thought it would be, or at least what I've gathered from comments of others. I managed to pass through the baggage restrictions pretty esay without any checks. Plane was standard no-frills but I had no complaints since it was only a 30min journey. Landing was punctual, in fact way in advance than scheduled. Apparently, the airline is so proud of that fact that they would broadcast a silly announcement regarding that. When I mention silly, it's referring to the music that starts the announcement.

Belfast is another extension of nature I've experienced at nottingham. It is the scenic coastal strip that make this city so endearing. Passing through those houses lining the coast make me envious and yearn for an opportunity like that too. I believe this seafront living is so much better than what is being offered at Singapore's so-called waterfront living along Marina Bay/Keppel Bay/ Sentosa Cove. Nice English houses set in a peaceful, serene coastal town- the perfect retirement houses.

Had an opportunity to walk through the neighbourhoods of West Belfast while in search of murals. This part of Belfast is away from the main city and is considered the living area of the locals. Past through rows of houses and observed the activities happening on a typical Sunday afternoon- children hanging out together, playing football and locals enjoying time out in the park. Been to different cities to travel, yet this is one of the rare moments when I'm not in the touristy part of the city. I looked out of place there with my backpack and camera but I was glad to explore a different side of Belfast and that definitely made the 2 hour walking journey worthwhile.

Last week before Easter break. Preparing and looking forward to my Easter holiday trip!

2010-03-15T07:13:00.002+08:00

just came back from a weekend trip to nottingham. Although the rest of them went over to amsterdam and brussels this weekend, i didn't regret having to give it a miss and chose to head down to notts instead. I didn't have much expectations for this trip, in terms of exploration, since I've been told many times that there are not many places to explore there. I took this trip as a time to relax and sort of recover from the slight fatigue from having to travel every weekend.

This trip turned out much better than expectation, but in a different manner. There really aren't much in terms of places which we went, but there were so much fun in the company of the friends i was with there, including the new friends i made over there. The 2 nights we had watching friends were hilarious, although it seemed weird to have 4 guys watching friends together, but the fact was we couldn't have enough of that, forcing ourselves to rest only when it got too late to continue.

Had a enjoyable time hanging out together in lynn's place for dinner. Cooked great food and the highlight was really the brownies with ben&jerry's ice-cream. Had such a satisfying food that didn't burn a hole in the pocket :) had an impromptu worship time post-dinner in the living room in front of the 'fire-place'. Totally absorbed into the fellowship we had.

Thankful for the wonderful weekend. Couldn't expect anywhere better. In fact, it was so surprisingly wonderful in an unexpected way. Looking forward to even better times

2010-03-09T01:21:00.002+08:00

cam back from oxford over the weekends. It was a meaningful and inspiring trip. A place home to many well-known figures around the world and a place rich in literature and knowledge. Visiting the different colleges and understanding the way education is carried out in oxford somehow inspired me, not a very direct inspiration but it opens up my mind to see the abundant opportunities lying in the learning journey.

Had a good chat with Daniel on the train back from Oxford yesterday. We chatted about our return back to Singapore and I was reflecting on my own return. Yes, I do agree that I look forward to going back to Singapore, not because I miss home right now or what. It's with respect to the fact that by the time I return to Singapore, I believe that I had already spent a meaningful and fruitful exchange and it's time to return and share this wonderful journey with my family and friends.

I believe that by the end of this exchange, there will be so many wonderful stories and testimonies to share on the adventures I had, challenges overcame and victories won as well. It takes faith but even right now, I can see the plans unfolding and revealing along the way. It is gonna be an exciting time!

2010-03-01T06:34:00.003+08:00

I'm on the bus back to Manchester from London now. It's a long journey back and since I could not do any readings on the bus, it was a good opportunity to think and reflect. Spent quite some time thinking through my plans for summer-where to travel and how to make arrangements for the last few days in June. Then I realized I am getting a bit too caught up with details right now which are unnecessary. Furthermore, at the end of it all, I asked myself where is God in the midst of all my planning? Have I surrendered these plans to Him or is everything done in my way?

Just the past week, I've shared during fellowship that I do not want to get too caught up with all my travel then I lose focus on what God has planned for me in this place. More than just doing my own travel, I have to learn to be sensitive to the Spirit wherever I am and perhaps receive more insights than just get too caught up with what I have to do next.

Praise God for the timely reminder and may I open my senses to see, hear and feel what is around me and more importantly, to act upon it. May my trust always be in God alone

2010-02-28T06:42:00.002+08:00

currently in london now. Just very thankful to be able to have this chance to return to this place again. Personally, I do find London to be an exciting place to be in. Others may not agree with me on this but I can say I'm not tired of this place even during this second visit. The fact that there's so many different types of places to explore and visit is one major reason why it's possible to spend so many days in London and it's still not enough. There are PLENTY of HUGE museums which are all free, different types of markets and so MANY different musicals to watch that you'll never feel bored in this city. Of course being a developed city, it's easy to say that it lacks its own flavour and predictable in many senses, but at lesat London is being to offer its best to the rest of the world with its history and heritage still distinctly present in the various cultural sites and attractions.

Would love to spend more time in this modern-day city, absorbing in more of its sights and sounds.

2010-02-22T08:12:00.002+08:00

had an eventful weekend. Wasn't feeling that well on friday night but thank God that i survived through these 2 days and am feeling much better now. went to york on saturday. York was a city invaded by the Vikings back in the early first century and has since retained much of the Viking heritage. Out trip coincided with the Viking festival and the atmosphere was good with many tourists, especially the children, dressed up in VIking costumes and with many Viking fringe activities around the town. In other words, the town was immersed in the Viking atmosphere which gave this town a unique identity.

Had the chance to visit Audacious City Church on Sunday. A charismatic church which was different from the baptist church which I attended the previous Sunday. The message for the sermon was from Philippines 3, to forgive about the past and to press on to the goal ahead. It was significant to me as it reminded me to set my sights on the goal ahead and not allow distractions to pull me away. More importantly, it is to set my sights on the goals that God has set for me and not simply pursue my own worldly goals.

Had a good chat with a friend over this weekend. Kind of struck me deep inside to discover and realize the felt needs of the minority. Often as Singaporeans, being in the majority will shadow or mask any senses to understand the minority. Or sometimes, we're just too self-centred or lack the passion to extend our hospitality to the others around us. Holding the positions of being hosts meant a great deal when it comes to extending a helping hand and service to the foreigners of the land. A great amount of expectations lie on the hosts and this role will come whether you like it or not. Well, not to say this is a daunting task or responsibility, but why not simply welcome these foreigners with an extended hand and smile? This is something which I truly convicted about when it was shared by my friend and I am more determined now than before to be even more welcoming and even go the extra mile when hosting foreigners in our land.

2010-02-16T06:33:00.003+08:00

came back from navigators meeting just now. I can't emphasize more of how much I thank God for this opportunity of placing me in this community of believers and also having daniel as a fellow brother in Christ. In times like this, when you're overseas, I'm thankful that God blessed with people whom I can connect and to share in like-mindedness.

Hebrews10:19-25

19Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, 20by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, 21and since we have a great priest over the house of God, 22let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. 23Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. 24And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. 25Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching

These verses relate especially to me as I find it important to continue in meeting one another and continue in spurring one another on in doing the good work of God

2010-02-15T08:45:00.003+08:00

it has been a truly great weekend. Xin Wei came over for a visit to Manchester this weekend, so I brought him along the city. Went to various places which I myself have not been before. Begin to widen my perception of Manchester after visiting some wonderful places like the Imperial War Museum and Museum of Science and Industry as well as the Manchester Markets and the surrounding shopping areas. Manchester is more than what I know of it during the first few weeks. Had a chance to understand more of Manchester especially during the Museum of Science and Industry exhibitions on the city's history as well as the groundbreaking scientific discoveries right here in Manchester or by Manchurians. I begin to appreciate more of this city's beauty and its heritage.

Had the chance to visit a small church on Sunday known as Grace Baptist Church. Its a traditional baptist church very different from what I'm used to in FCBC. It's a small community of believers who knows one another and are close. A very homely feeling. It's such a blessing to be here and to be able to connect with the community and listen to a good sermon and receive a deeper understanding of God through the preaching.

This weekend was Chinese New Year. Being away from Singapore for the first time during CNY makes you really appreciate the blessings you have when you get to be with your family. It just doesn't feel the same over here with the usual family gatherings and house-visitings. But after saying that, I did have a different and yet enjoyable time having CNY reunion dinner with the Singapore Society and a gathering with the Singapore exchange students just now for dinner. A visit to Chinatown here also reminds me of the crowded streets of Chinatown in Singapore on CNY eve. Of course, selection of stalls pale in comparison but at least the CNY atmosphere was strong. It was further enhanced with the 15-minutes long fireworks which of course cannot be compared to the high standards in Singapore but nevertheless gave me the opportunity to take in the festive joys.

Thank God for the past weekend. Would love to continue to appreciate the opportunity of being here in Manchester for exchange and to continue to widen my horizon.

2010-02-11T07:43:00.002+08:00

The weather was quite erratic today. It snowed briefly in the late morning and by noon the sun was shining brightly but within an hour later, it began to snow heavily for a brief moment again. Can't make out the sudden changes in weather.

Received my local debit card and started making transactions with it. Felt so wonderful trying to purchase songs from iTunes. I've always felt disadvantaged in Singapore when many countries around the world gets to buy individual songs and songs which are unavailable in Singapore. This card brought so much convenience and accessibility. Very thankful for it.

Suffered a costly lesson just now. I booked the wrong dates for a trip to edinburgh. I only realized it after the payment was made. The worst thing is that just yesterday, this same incident happened to my friend and I was just telling him to take it as a lesson learnt. Apparently the lesson was meant for him and I had to pay for my own lesson as well. Had to call up the company and pay for an admin charge to change the tix which i believe would be rather expensive although still cheaper than geting new tickets. Well hate that feeling but I've to remind myself not to be bothered about it and really take that as a lesson learnt and move on.

2010-02-08T04:51:00.003+08:00

I'm on my way back to Manchester right now, enjoying the comfort of first class on the rail. Please do not be mistaken, the cheapest tickets I've got just happened to be on first class. Beats me. Anw I had a great weekend at London. First of all, it was the blessed opportunity to meet up some good friends tog at London. It's just so nice to meet my cell mates at London and to meet familiar faces in an overseas setting.

Now for London. The night I arrived at London I could see why London is the capital and most happening place of England. The streets were crowded at midnight and the roads at the city centre were jammed packed with cars. Just based on its nightlife alone, London definitely seems more exciting. Went to the main attractions over the 2 days. Definitely not enough to cover its numerous places of interest. The British museum itself would require at least one full day just to briefly go through all the exhibits. Makes our own national museum seem lk a much poorer cousin. There are many other museums worth visiting too and are equally huge. I'll definitely have to make a second trip to cover the rest of this busy city.

Another highlight will be the chance to attend the Hillsong London service. I finally have the chance to attend my first service in UK and going for Hillsong London was an eye-opening experience, the worship and listening to its vision Sunday today. It was wonderful to have this opportunity to witness how believers here work differently in pursuing God's purposes. Looking forward to visiting other churches in London when I return.

2010-02-04T07:54:00.002+08:00

Sunday's trip to Chester was very much different from the Liverpool trip. Liverpool is a much developed city, comparable to Manchester. Chester, on the other hand, is a small town in Chesire which is really small but yet has an good old charm to the place. Maybe it's due to its Romanian history links that gave this place its heritage. It was on my journey to Chester and at Chester itself that I saw white snow piled up on the ground everywhere. It's the first time I see snow and it was amazing to see the place so pure and white.

Lessons started this week. I enjoyed the one-hour durations for lectures as there is a limit to our attention span and 45 minutes worth of lessons is just nice and digestible. I guess one thing that I've always taken for granted back in NUS was the accompany of friends. I guess when this privilege is not available, you start to appreciate the comfort zone that you are at. I'm exactly in that position right now. Sometimes I wish I can just approach random people in lectures and make new friends but it's just my inert nature that doesn't seem to make that happen. But at least one good thing that came out of there is that all I can do during lectures now is to pay attention to what the lecturer is teaching :p

Anw, today was the first day I experienced falling snow! It was really funny as we were still discussing whether it was snow initially but gradually it became so obvious that there was no denial that it was really falling snow. It was nice seeing snow fall but not that enjoyable to be in the open with an attire that cannot withstand the cold weather.

Really thank God for His guidance and plans for me through the past few days. Other than the above-mentioned events, I had a chance to sign up for a cheap school gym membership. Was very glad to be able to continue with my gym exercise, something which I didn't want to discontinue over here, so I found some familiarity and comfort when I went to the gym 2 days ago. That was something a testimony of how I can trust in Him in my plans throughout my experience here. Learning to continue with that trust and faith

2010-01-31T09:34:00.002+08:00

saturday marked my first day-trip out of Manchester-to Liverpool. Didn't go to Anfield, we reserved that for another time but this trip was to cover the other attractions there. The amazing thing was that we didn't bring the lonely planet guides that we have, so we were completely lost when we first arrived there, with no map and information/address of the locations which we planned to go. Thankfully there was a lady giving out free maps at the terminal and most of the attractions were within walking distance, so we basically manage to travel on foot. It was a rather simple and relaxed time, enjoying all the extremely cold wind which was blowing during the day as well.

Beginning to miss the people in Singapore. Took it for granted that they'll always be there but now that i'm overseas, it's almost impossible to meet them up. But I believe that through the people i meet and interact over here, they'll give new experiences and encounters which i'll learn and treasure the lessons learnt.

2010-01-29T08:46:00.002+08:00

I thank God that He has been protecting me through the journey to Manchester, to bring me safely here and to allow me to adapt quickly to this place and even blessed me with this wonderful opportunity. It was almost a dream come true simply to be able to be in UK. I was reminded to be thankful that I could even have this opportunity to be here for 5months to make new experiences and to gain a bigger perspective. The world is so much bigger and it's just waiting to be explored and discovered. Being here itself is the first step in understanding the bigger world doesn’t revolve around Singapore and I'm beginning this journey of exploration. While being excited about all these new discoveries, I appreciate each moment and each day for I’m constantly reminded that this opportunity is blessed by the Lord and I will treasure and make the best out of this given opportunity.

I am really thankful for all the birthday well wishes received through facebook. Was a bit overwhelmed by all the messages but I appreciate each one of my friends :) thanks and i do hope to keep in touch with my friends in singapore even during this period of time

2010-01-28T04:59:00.002+08:00

had a good morning run today with adrian and louis. running is something that I didn't want to stop or take a break while I'm here, so I was quite determined to continue in this discipline. Thank God that I found running mates, esp for adrian, whom I was got to know the day before.

Early morning runs in winter sounds crazy and it did indeed seem so in the beginning when the cold wind blows and i'm not covered in multiple layers. But it became gradually better when the body warms up and I soon enjoyed the run around the neighbourhood. In fact, i liked it better than in Singapore due to the less humid weather and cool breeze. Discovered and explored new places around the residential areas and also found out the shortest route from my hall to the gym as well :)

Had my timetable more or less firmed up today. I was quite shocked to find out that there are no tutorials at all for all my modules! So basically, each module is only 2 hours every week. My total weekly contact hours is 12hours for 6 modules. For the first time, a Science student has fewer contact hours that a Arts student (my friend). Lessons may be a bit slack, but I'll prob have lots of preparation to do esp for the higher-level modules, some of which I may not have all the pre-requisites.

there are quite a bit of uncertainties with regards to trips and upcoming plans. Praying that God will lead the way and make paths straight for me and also to make the right decisions too

2010-01-26T07:06:00.002+08:00

figured that more people will be reading my blog ever since i came over to Manchester, thats why I'm blogging more of my daily happenings which I usually do not when I was back in Singapore.

Today was the first day of orientation. It isn't the kind of orientation we have in Singapore, but more like an orientation to be familiar with school admin and important issues. Somehow during the orientation, I felt the excitement of being an international student. I guess for the past years of education, I am so used to being a local student, used to the environment that I'm not and I never could quite understand or put myself in the perspective of the international students. But here I am right now, an international student in a faraway place and also a minority in a huge student population. For the first time, I have the first hand experiences of the feelings that international students go through. More than that, I could also sense the kind of exposure one would have studying overseas. It is indeed exciting and it definitely broadens one's perspective on ideas and cultures around the world. I wondered how nice it would have been if I was indeed studying for my degree overseas but I am just thankful right now that at least I had this opportunity for one semester.

I love this current weather in Manchester. Some would comment that its tad cold but I find it rather refreshing. Enjoy the nice cool weather everywhere you go to. Will miss it when it warms up.

2010-01-25T05:39:00.003+08:00

today is sunday. Continuing on my journey of discovery. Actually it was less of a discovery today as we basically went back to the same city centre to buy stuff. Went into quite a few of the shops which we went yesterday to purchase items for cooking of dinner just now. But I did saw a few more brands which were located at the Ardnale Shopping Mall other than the ones I mentioned yest, like New Look and River Island. I had this aim of getting stuff from these shops over here as they are generally cheaper than those in Singapore and I'm glad I can find all these brands all under one roof. Make things so much more convenient.

It was quite atrocious trying to buy the food items and cooking equipments for dinner. We did not really plan what to cook and what to buy, so everything was impromptu and we had to try to recall what we have still need and rush to buy everything before the shops close at 5pm. That marked the start of the series of unfortunate events. Next as we were leaving to return back to hall, we realized we left the rice cooker we bought back at the shop. But the shop was closed already and we just have to leave till tomorow.

Cooking began and we found ourselves lacking in many equipments and necessities, wondering how to cook the ingredient with so much restrictions. In our rush, we used a microwaveable tupperwave into an oven, mistaking it as a microwave. It was much to our horror to discover the melted tupperware and we had to try to remove the melted ware from the oven tray too. Just when we thought that the damage done to the food and equipment are bad enough, the worst was to come. We thought there were too much fumes coming the kitchen with little ventilation and I joked about triggering the fire alarm. To our horror, the fire alarm really went off! To make matter worst, the fire alarm caused the ENTIRE hall residents to come out of the building and wait for inspection by the security. We were really shocked at that moment. Thankfully nothing serious happened and we were advised to keep the kitchen doors closed while cooking. I thought there were more than enough mishaps which happened today and I was so glad the day came to an end.

Tomorrow will be the start of the orientation. Looking forward to visiting the campus grounds and meeting more exchange students.

2010-01-24T04:27:00.002+08:00

it's the end of my first day in Manchester. Has been a full day of exploring new things. It all started from the airport where me and my friends are like the only Asians among all the British, from Changi to London Heathrow to Manchester airport. I remember blogging about a pseudo experience in a faraway country when I was in Phuket. But this time round, I'm really in a faraway country where the majority are indeed the British (or at least we are the few Asians around). It seemed weird from the beginning since we already do not fit in to the crowd, but I try not let physical appearance be of any hindrances in my interactions with them. I do treasure this opportunity in fact :)

Even after being here for a full day, the fact that I'm in Manchester now still seemed like a dream which I've been thinking of since I got the place 2 years back. Maybe the wait had been so long but it was unthinkable that it happened. I thank God for His protection over me throughout the journey and the smooth settling of my accommodation. The only grievance I have is that there is no power supply from my power sockets, so I basically have no access to charge any electronic devices. Thankfully I can depend on my friend who is staying nearby me. That also explains why I am typing this from the computer cluster within the hall now. (One interesting thing i discovered through this was that the British has slightly diff keys on its keyboard)

Spent the day exploring the city. I really have to say it was one of the most daring thing we've done thus far. We had no maps with us, just based on my vague memory which i recall from the map i saw previously. We had no idea what bus to take. So what happened was we just chose a bus to board and asked how much to pay for a trip to the city, not even knowing where we want to go. We alighted at what seemed to be a busy street and decided to alight there. Everything was basically pure exploring with completely little knowledge of where we are. Thats what I call true explorers.

Somehow, we stumbled upon Chinatown, discovered a whole lot of Chinese groceries which are great for CNY meals. Thank God for that. Later we stumbled upon the shopping district of Manchester. It really is amazing. It has all the brands that I was looking for in UK (well at least most of them) like Topman, H&M, Primark. There were some amazing items and at pretty affordable prices too especially Primark :)

Meals where not amazing today, Had subway and kfc for lunch and dinner respectively. Food outside are really not worth the money. It was the first day and we just had to settle the easy way out but we'll try to cook our own meals on weekends. Thank God our breakfast and dinner are catered :)

Would love to upload pictures on fb but that will have to wait till Mon when the repair man comes in. Till then, I'll have to continue to use this comp to type my updates

2010-01-22T15:56:00.002+08:00

leaving in a few hours time. Would not want to think too much but just to look ahead at the journey that i'm embarking on. Want to list down the list of things which I'll be missing during my absence in Singapore over the next few months (in chronological order):

1. Chinese New Year
2. G12 Conference
3. Good Friday
4. Jerald's 1st birthday
5. Opening of the 2 IRs (opening dates unknown)

Of course, many other countless events as well, such as my friends' birthdays! no worries, those i've missed will get something special when i'm back :)

There are so many new things I can look forward to seeing when I'm back:

1. The 2 IRs (including Universal Studios!)
2. Duxton Plains Skypark
3. New Circle line stations
4. 313@ Somerset B3

And many more new buildings/features which are being constructed now but will be ready in the coming months. As you can tell, I'm always fascinated by new places and love to explore them as soon as possible. Although 5 months is a short period for drastic changes but the above mentioned changes are enough for me to anticipate my return.

Till then, I will enjoy this upcoming journey of exploring new places over the next 5 months :)

2010-01-20T11:26:00.004+08:00

A few highlights from my past week:

Greenview Sec Orientation
It was really a blessed opportunity to be involved in the Greenview Secondary.I was there as volunteer for trybe who was organizing this camp. Although my interaction with the sec ones are indirect considering that my role as a trybe facilitator is to assist the Peer Support Leaders in leading the students, there were still many opportunities when I could interact with the students. It was a new experience considering that this is the first time I’m involved in a school which has a large percentage of Malays in its student profile. Culture of the school is very differernt compared to a Chinese-majority neighbourhood school and it definitely allowed me to gain a new perspective of relating to students. Being involved in activities like Amazing Race and Dragonboating did bring a breather in my midst of preparing for SEP.

What was the most rewarding about this camp was the opportunity to inspire my PSLs. I had a debrief with my PSLs indivdually and highlighted their strengths as well as provide guidelines to help them in growing their leadership skills. I was pleasantly surprised to hear their hunger to grow in that aspect as they questioned about problems and learned as I shared with them. It was during that time as I shared my experiences that I’ve seen my own growth through the years as well. Although the debrief session was short, I believed and trust that what I’ve shared will bring forth actions that will be make a difference in their journey as a leader.

Gkidz
Attended Gkidz orientation for the leaders. Through the orientation, I’ve began to see to see the role of Gkidz as a ministry, instead of just a service to take care of the children while the parents are attending service. There are much involved in how this ministry looks into growing the children in the ways of the Lord and to see these children as precious as they mature into people of faith.

It was my last week with the Gkidz before I fly off. There’s a bit of disappointment knowing that I can’t see them for the next 6 months. This week was really a blessed time getting to really interact with those who were present in my group and I thank God that they have quickly warmed up to us after these few weeks. But I know I can leave for Manchester in assurance that they will be well taken care of in the hand of Wei Ren.

There was a slight disappointment when Pastor Khong added another session of Romans on Friday as because of that, quite a number of good friends in church who had intended to send me off at the airport could not make it. I would have told them the same thing even if they want to send me off as I know the Romans class is definitely more important than sending me off. As what I’ve shared with joanne, sometimes, things don’t happen the way we want it to but we just have to accept it and learn to appreciate and enjoy every moment that is given.

I'm very thankful for very moment in this week. The anticipation is building up as the day draws nearer but there's also a portion of uncertainty lying ahead although i'll choose to trust that God will lead the way. Will claim this promise of God which I shared with my kids at Gkidz last Sunday from Josh 1:9

9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Indeed the Lord my God will be with me wherever I go

2010-01-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

Attended a funeral wake just now. It was a funeral wake which I wished I didn't have to attend. It was a dear friend, a fellow peer. An abrupt end to her life which I wished never happen. I had tried to imagine in the past how it felt if a friend, especially a peer, passes on. I understand that feeling now and its definitely not something comforting.

i had a dinner appt with her and it was arranged just the night before. It hurts when you realize how all these happened so sudden, with such a long journey ahead. And there's so many questions unanswered.

However, it's really not the time to go a quest for answers. It's a time to appreciate this beautiful life God has given to my dear friend, a life that's growing in faith, a life that's inspiring to the others around her. Thank you for crossing my path somewhere in my life and although our paths have parted, they'll meet again in heaven.

Farewell my dear friend, may your sweet voice continue to bring forth songs of inspiration in our hearts

2010-01-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

counting down to the days left before I fly off. Somehow as the day comes nearer, my life these days somehow revolves around this exchange. I'm either shopping for my essentials/necessities, meeting people who want to catch up with me and conversations with friends revolve around overseas trips/uk. I guess in some way this prepares me mentally and physically ready for the trip.

Since this is my first post of 2010, I shall post some of my reflections for 2009:

Had this desire in the beginning of 2009 to dwell deeper into His words, especially after I got my bible commentary. However, I got caught up with many things along the way that brought distractions. Did not progress much with using the commentary. Through this reflection, it brought upon my heart to want to continue with this desire to know God’s words deeper and to be disciplined to the commitment.

I’ve learnt that one’s outward behaviour and attitude are reflections of what are within and these are largely dependent on one’s spiritual walk and devotion with the Lord. I find myself ‘unbalanced’ most when I do not spend adequate time with God and neglect to place Him first in my life. It is a constant reminder that my daily walk with Him is of utmost importance.

I’ve learnt to recognize God’s grace upon me on many occasions when I continue to fail to learn from mistakes but yet He continues to remind me time and time again till I learn to overcome. Very often, I’ve failed to recognize God’s sovereignty over my studies and stressed myself trying to do well based on my own capabilities but God was patient in guiding me through this journey and allowing me to gradually overcome this obstacle.

2009-12-30T13:28:00.002+08:00

Christmas has come and gone. Personally, this Christmas season was a time of building and strengthening relationships. My mum has been on leave for the past 2 weeks and I had more opportunity to spend time with her as well as my sis who is on holiday. Just being able to hang out together was something I treasure and appreciate. With the KL trip, camp and the gatherings, I've got to make new friends whom I'm keeping contact with now and strengthening bonds with people whom I wasn't as close with previously.

I recognize how God has placed different people in my life, to play different roles and for me to know how to relate to the different people. I am very much blessed during this season as I receive this joy simply with the company of these friends. Even as the year comes to a close, I pray that these friendships and ties can be sealed and even strengthened further in the new year ahead, especially during my overseas trip.

2009-12-17T20:45:00.002+08:00

was on the bus today when an elderly man sitting beside me started a conversation with me. He started with complaining about one of the car drivers and went on to talk about other topics, from universities to jobs to getting into relationships. I was pretty startled in the beginning and out of respect, I continued to listen. It was more of a one-way conversation with him talking most of the time. Gradually I was pretty amused at how the conversation started and continued for so long.

I figured that he belongs to this category of retired elders who do not have much to do during the day and have lack of company to chat with, so I became the willing listening ear to hear him share about stories of the past. It was pretty insightful to hear from such stories, considering that I am very much into heritage. Don't usually get to hear from first-hand experiences, so today was considered as a chanced opportunity.

2009-12-15T09:38:00.002+08:00

it has been a week of rejuvenation and refreshment for me as I spent the week in Phuket and KL. Two separate trips, two separate experiences. Phuket for me was a cosy and relaxing affair. No big plans, not travelling, just a time of relaxing under the sun, doing some reading and reflection, together with just a good buddy loke with me on this trip. Love the weather there, love the fact that even though i'm not far from Singapore yet with so many Caucasians there, i feel like i'm somewhere far. Will love to visit Phuket again in future for the many activities and sightseeing at the lovely landmarks.

KL was a different experience. Extended time spent with the spiritual family-building upon existing relationships and making new ones as well. Contrast with Phuket, this was a big family affair, coming together to enjoy the time together corporately. Thankful for this time, especially with my roommate benny. Had quality time getting to know him personally, beyond the lame and crappy behaviour.

Indeed, such times are hard to come by and I give thanks to God for all these precious moments. May the rest of this holiday break be a time of building and restoring of relationships with family and friends.

2009-11-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

finally got my table settled and packed just now. It has been some time since i can see visible space on it. Though not totally neat and tidy, but at least there's less things on it now. I'm totally enjoying this moment now-the moment after the exams. Of course, its not like its the first time I had exams, but somehow this sem feels much different. Could be due to the fact that my long-awaited SEP is coming :)

Anw, caught the movie 2012 earlier today. Was a bit apprehensive about this movie initially because I do not agree with the myth over the 2012 deadline. During the first half of the movie, when the family was trying to escape from their home, I thought it was too much of calculated moves to be able to escape from the numerous near-death instances. But of course, they have to escape death for the story to continue. There were better breath-stopping moments with more realistic portrayals of incidents but what really caught me in this movie was not the jaw-dropping effects but the humane touch in the characters as they face the deciding moments of their lives.

Indeed when facing crisis, many of us struggle- struggle to make the right decisions. And what is right becomes questionable at this case. I'm not going to dwell on the topic of what is right but my question is will we be able to stand as who we are, firm with our beliefs and values even at the face of death? or will we scramble to hide just to save ourselves? Often I feel a lot of us will tend to choose the convenient way out or what comes to our minds first. But it may not be what is necessarily right or honourable. Is that what we want to be known for what we die?

Just the past Sunday, pastor was sharing about the engravings on the graves. Usually the words must summarize what you are known for in your life. So do we really want to be known for when we die? what kind of legacy do you want to leave for the future? It doesn't have to be bigger and world-changing, just the kind which you've leave behind for your children and loved ones. What will they know you for?

Finish the race well. In a way that is pleasing and honourable to the Lord.

2009-11-14T01:05:00.002+08:00

It was a test of faith last week as I struggled to decide how I was going to complete my assignment for science of music. I had to hand in an original piece of music composition. As I had no music background, it is a uphill task to even come out with a tune that i can translate to a music score. I was at a strong musical handicapped when compared to others who had much stronger music background and even have professional music composition software. It is much easier to ask for assistance from experienced musicians or edit works done by others, something which was rather common for students for the past semesters. However, it is a tug at my integrity and I had to finally make up my mind that I will not do such things and decide to come out with a totally new music piece with no aids. When I decided on that, it was by faith as I had no idea how to go about going it.

I struggled as I started on my assignment but after hours on my computer, i finally squeezed out something. It was no Mozart piece, but I’m proud of what i’ve done, proud that its my own original work and that I stood by my integrity and placed my faith in Him.

I shared this with joanne and she was inspired by my testimony because she knows of a friend who appears nonchalant over plagarism. More so for me who is musically disadvantaged as compared to many others that I chose to take a firm stand on integrity. It makes me glad to hear such comments from others that I know that what I’ve done can be a good testimony even for fellow Christians and to reinforce and encourage others in insisting godly values in an environment that is so polluted.

2009-11-01T20:10:00.003+08:00

haha, spent the past 2 days trying to complete my music composition for my science of music module. Finally finished it last now. Well when i say finish, it means i think i've spent enough time on it already. Music composition can never be finished. The more time u spend on it, the better it gets, so it only depends on how high your expectations are. Well my 'finished' piece is no Mozart, but given my minimal music knowledge and experience, i'm very proud of what i've done and i'm proud to say that i've done it on my own with no aids and assistance from anyone! haha...

anyway, some random pictures of orchard road when i past by there over the past few weeks.

Tanglin mall's christmas deco. Always one of the first mall to start their decorating efforts. At first sight, it looks lk a RAG float. LOL

They started putting up the christmas deco since mid oct. Thats fast but its because this yr's celebration is earlier to coincide with APEC. Looking forward to the full lightup next week. Always look forward to this season of the year, with so much to do and so much to look forward to!

2009-10-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

At the moment, in our nearsightedness, these battles may seem pointless and never-ending. But we can always reflect on our past victories that have shaped and strengthened us and remember that indeed, God has been, is and will be faithful to see us through the present battles.

2009-10-02T14:11:00.001+08:00

Had my recess week last week. Thought it was quite well spent, in one sense rather purposeful. Have to balance both my commitments as well as the revisions for my tests but there was much breathing space and i felt quite relaxed throughout the week. Had planned out enough time for my revisions but somehow i think i didn’t really study effectively. Found myself still inadequately equipped even till the point before the test today despite having read through the notes a few times. Think i have to readjust the way I revise and understand concepts. Thankfully, for the 2 tests i had for the past 2 days, it was still very much managable and i thank God for that despite feeling inadequately prepared for the tests.

I was much thankful for the little things which happened through the week in which God answered prayers or even guided me through when i choose to trust in Him and not worry. Its these little events that happen in my life which remind me time after time of His presence in me and show me the reality of God in my life. Also for the valuable quiet time spent. Helped me a lot in understanding perspectives and put me in the right one.

2009-09-23T23:47:00.002+08:00

was browsing through some of my earliest posts of this blog, back in jan 2004. Its interesting to read some of the things that i've written. All I wld say is that i was very yg back then..haha..but i was surprised to read a particular entry where i mentioned about the purpose of my life...an extract of what was written:

gp today was so interesting. teacher questioned about our purpose.. it started like this :

we had to write the question and answer it and then question the answer.

socrates(the philosopher): why are you in tb21?

me: for gp lesson.

socrates: why do you go for the lesson?

me: it's in my timetable.

socrates: why is it in your timetable?

me: it's a sub tt i take.

socrates: why do you take the sub?

me: it's compulsory for university admission.

socrates: why do you want to enter u?

me: to get a degree.

socrates: why do you want a degree?

me: to get a good job.

socrates: why do you want to get a job?

me: to get money.

socrates: why do you need money

me: to survive.

socrates: why do you need to survive?

i stopped there.. and it was time up. looking back, it would be so hard to answer that question.. why do we need to survive?? now that i think of it, the best ans tt i can think of is.. I SURVIVE FOR GOD, MY FRIENDS, AND MY FAMILY.

I was quite surprised when i read this. To think that back then, when I was not a Christian yet, I actually wrote about the basic need for survival is for God's purpose! I think it was after I read the Purpose Driven Life that I received this understanding but I thank for the little faith which was already deposited in my heart even back then. I went on to read about the post where I mentioned about my salvation after my first church service in FCBC. I was drawn by the innocence displayed in me back then. The faith of a young Christian whose one desire is to build on the relationship with God and everything else in this world becomes insignificant. It was a reminder of the first love of God that I had when i received salvation. And i pray that even on as i'm being made holy right now, i will always rmb and have this innocence and faith of a child

2009-09-22T20:00:00.002+08:00

Word of wisdom:
The proud and greedy never rest; the poor and humble in spirit rest in great peace. Anyone who is not completely free from the grip of his own vanity is easily tempted and is toppled by small, trifling things.
I pray that my spirit will be poor and humble.

I learnt the importance of continuous praise from pastor’s sermon last sunday. Even if the situation may not be in my favour, I should continue to praise Him. Praising Him continuously till something in the spiritual realm changes and my heart and the peace of God resides in my heart. It is a truth which is valuable to me as I felt needed to praise Him on many occasions when I feel things are not going well and the understanding on the need to continue praising Him till something changes within me brought a deeper understanding of praise.

I thank God for the past 4 days. Somehow the days are all packed and although I didn’t have much of a time to revise my work, it was a fulfilling 4 days being in the company of good friends from different areas of my life. Sendoff@airport, dance, family dinner, BBQ, KBox. I won’t take this busyness for granted but give thanks for having these people in my life for me to spend time with and to fellowship as well. Indeed, through this half of the sem, I've learnt not to complain about how packed my schedule is or that I don't have enough time to rest but instead, I'm learning to appreciate the commitments and the activities God has placed in my life through my family and friends. He placed me here not to live life alone but in the company of people so that relationships can be established and built upon.

A thankful heart and spirit....

2009-09-18T16:33:00.002+08:00

It's finally the end of the first half of the sem. Can finally take a short breather. Indeed, even as I had foreseen a packed sem during the start of the sem, it wasn't until I've been through that I understood how the experience was lk. But I thank God that He kept me well during these weeks. Even though I didn't have time to revise my work, I could complete the work that I needed to hand in and even more.

3 good friends would be gone for overseas by the end of today. The next half of the sem wld feel different without them.

2009-09-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

Was chatting with some of the 30th scmc pple who were preparing the recruitment drive. Somehow I kind of missed the times of staying late or overnight in schools, preparing for events. But just as I've felt I miss science club activities, this is an option which I had to accept and learn to embrace the different areas which God has placed in my life. Indeed, HIs plans for me are what's best for me and I can't deny that I'm glad with the commitments and the company of friends which God has placed in me. I could say He is preparing me in moving on with a different phase with a different agenda, one which I'm enjoying and maximizing to make the most out of.

Trusting in faith the plans God has for me

2009-09-15T00:03:00.001+08:00

Had been busy ever since school started. But the strange thing is its not like i’m laden with many commitments or that school work is overwhelming. In fact, i don’t really have a chance to revise my work thus far. I’ve never felt that packed during school term before. Almost every day i will end up reaching home late and weekends are almost packed back-to-back. But thankfully, I’m not stressed out in terms of academic even though there’s little free time for me to put my attention on it. I would had been stressed out by now if it was in the past. I thank God it has been a fulfilling time for the past few weeks, even if its just spending time catching up with friends.

Even during these few weeks, there had been unhappy moments in school when i’m dissatisfied with some issues and also stressful moments. During one of those days, after having to brood over all these matters, i prayed and sensed God telling that instead of hoping to change situations around me, i can change what is within me. Sometimes situations might be hard to change, but whats possible is to change my attitude or mentality towards these matters. Suddenly, it brought peace within me as i was strengthened not to be affected by the things of this world but be strongly guarded in His ways and values.

Sunday’s sermon impacted me. The Lord convicted me of the time I spend with Him. For the past few weeks, the only time I get to spend quiet time was on my journey to school which tend to be inconsistent and unproductive. I am aware of that but out of convenience, I continued to stick to that and try to make the best of the situation. It struck me when pastor used the analogy of a hungry man adjusting his path and intentionally seek his way to find food. I could totally relate to that sort of situation. So it was put back into context of being hungry for God, I question myself if I ever did a similar thing? I seriously doubt so, at least for the past few weeks. If my life is to reflect my hunger for God, it must first of all be shown through my desire to have this quiet time with Him. I thank God for pastor’s sharing on quiet time and for recommending living life. I read the QT and was very refreshed by the words shared. Definitely looking forward to greater growth and intimacy with God. Indeed, I believe what pastor has shared that with quality quiet time spent, it’ll first make a difference to one’s well-being and growth and eventually as a church.

2009-08-26T15:35:00.002+08:00

It has been a busy first 2 weeks of school. Out of my curriculum time during the past 2 weeks, i have been busy catching up with friends. Could be because I was ‘deprived’ of a holiday break during the RAG season and this period was lk my own holiday break. Nevertheless, with school work kicking in, the transition out of my break has to be made.

Even as the new academic year started, I felt God leading me into a new phase. I’ve moved out of hall and stepping down from Science club commitments. At the same time, new things/changes are occurring. We had the approvals to carry out activities for the foreign students and we’re planning a few activities over the next 2 months, including BBQ, a food race and mid-autumn celebrations. To me it’ll be a new learning opportunity. I’ve always wanted to do something for the foreigners esp the PRCs since the Shenyang trip a few years back. I believe through these series of activities that we’re carrying out, God will place in me a heart for them, to understand them better and to learn how to engage them. I pray that my heart can be soften so that this learning can be inspired by God and that indeed there can be effective engagement when I choose to make myself available to serve.

Next event which will keep me busy will be the dance ministry (which has since officially changed its name to ministry of dance). Looking forward to the upcoming events for the rest of this year, such a dance recital in Oct and Christmas service. Additional practices are starting for the dance recital. There was a sharing yesterday by Pastor Paul on the ministry with regards to the vision and mission. Just as how the vision says, we dance to the glory of God and to inspire others. It was a reminder for me to see the ministry in the right perspective and to be an engaged dancer for God.

I’m excited over what I can learn through the rest of the year as God leads me into this new phase and I definitely want to be found walking in His journey for me. That’s one of the prayers I have.

2009-08-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

I really thank God that RAG is over and more importantly that we are able to present Science RAG in a manner that we’re proud of. The rather successful completion of our float would not have been possible without His guidance and protection. I would not dare take anything for granted but choose to acknowledge His sovereignty over the entire process. Over the last 2 weeks leading to RAG, many adversities happen, almost everyday i faced outburst of emotions from different people and many accidents and sicknesses plague my dancers. Together with a fellow Christian comm member, we chose to pray and believe God for answered prayers. indeed, on one memorable incident, God proved Himself to be faithful and built us up in our faith.

With regards to the results, we were disappointed, not simply because we didn’t win any awards, but felt quite unjustified that other seemingly weaker opponents won instead. No matter what, results can be changed and we just had to accept them. Most importantly, we are proud as a faculty and as a committee that we had outdone what we did last year and better ourselves yet again in terms of our float and presentation, something which was undeniable. I was really proud of what we are capable of, proud of what we have done and present to the rest of NUS.

To reflect upon what God has been teaching me through RAG, i believe more than just to do up a beautiful float presentation, it was to see the different faces of human nature and to learn more about inter-personal relationships. I believe I have matured much over the past weeks and definitely a stronger person in handling adversities.

Almost immediately after RAG day ended, i started to ‘suffer’ from RAG withdrawal symptoms. Considering that i have been doing rag almost everyday since May, there was a sudden sense of lost when everything ended. Not in the sense of lost of direction, but all of a sudden, i have so much ‘freedom’ to do what i want. I will definitely miss the rag season and especially the long periods of stayovers in school. But i was also thankful that I didn’t really have to suffer much withdrawal symptoms considering that i was hanging out most of the time over the past 2 days. I believe life would resume quickly back to normal once school starts tomorrow.

Tomorrow marks the start of a new academic year. Have not had much chance to think about what to expect ahead, considering that RAG just ended but i do pray that it’ll be an exciting and meaningful time where i see God working through my life.

2009-07-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

Friday marked the last day of my school attachment. I was really blessed with a wonderful attachment. The school took really good care of us, especially the vp who planned a very comprehensive timetable for us, to maximise the learning opportunities for us. Had the chance to understand many of moe’s policies and how they are implemented on the grounds and to understand the constraints a neighbourhood school has with regards to many of the implementations.

I had a presentation regarding our school experience to the school management committee and i shared about how authenticity and passion are 2 very important qualities teachers need to have to make a difference in the students’ lives. This was based on what i observed through the teaching staff during those weeks. Authenticity requires a genuine approach from the teachers in their dealings with students and not out of a duty call. Only then can words or actions have an positive impact in the students. Passion requires intense interest from teachers in order to inspire and influence the students. I believe i will need to always exemplify these 2 values in my life.

2 more weeks to actual rag. Filled with much anxiety as there are much uncertainty with regards to completing the float. But i will continue to pray for God’s sovereignty over the entire RAG.

2009-07-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

Today, during service, i happened to flip through last week’s sermon notes and the words of the first complement caught my attention, “ pleasing God and not men” I believe that was the reminder God is showing me, something which i needed at this juncture. I realized, from the happenings the past few weeks, that i was trying too much to satisfy the demands of people, trying to please everyone but in the end, as much as i try, it sort of backfire and i ended up lost and confused. I might have failed, in the process, to see what God would want to do if it was Him. Reflecting through, I believe God would have done it in a different manner and i was convicted to see in His perspective, recognizing that doing things in His perspective, rather than mine, would please God rather than please men, or in this case, even me.

I have not had much time praying through the week and in particular, for rag itself. It is something which i believe needs prayers and i am convicted to pray for the progress, the members and God’s sovereignty over it. Unless the Lord builds the house, the builders build in vain. It pains my heart to imagine the entire float built in vain. My prayer is that God can be glorified and take sovereignty in every place.

One area which God is guiding me after the reminder, is that i need to stay authentic, authentic to myself and the faith that i possess. God used that to guide me in understanding how i can overcome the challenges. I pray that this authenticity will allow Christ-likeness to shine through me even as i deal with the weeks ahead. I believe reflecting this authentic faith will please God in many ways.

I was sharing with my friend yesterday that rag will be an incredible one this year, something that will definitely impress the audience. I spoke this with conviction despite the uncertainty. And i believe this is faith that i’m acting on, faith to believe God will do something great in, because there is someone who recognize His sovereignty over it.

2009-07-12T23:53:00.000+08:00

Completed my first week of attachment. The school has been taking care of us very well, ensuring that we maximum our learning experience in the school as much as possible, going through dialogues and meetings with the various school departments and understanding policies and programmes that the school implements with MOE’s guidelines. Albeit tiring, it has been interesting to sit through the various conversations with the various personnel from the P to the VP and senior staff. The P and VP shared inspiring stories which brought renewed passion within me, eager to make a difference within the school environment. At the same time, there were cases, from the sharing by teaching staff, cause me to ponder if expectations of students, especially like those from neighbourhood schools, are limited by what the teachers set for them. Is it a case of less-than-inspiring standards or simply surrendering to reality after years of experience? I really ponder if its the many years of experience that killed the eagerness to inspire the students. Its a scary thought although it may really be the situation. It may be too early to determine anything but one thing i ask is that the Lord will place in me a passion in pursuing the direction He has placed me in, now and in future.

I’m looking forward to the rest of my attachment, to learn and be inspired. One of my prayer items is that God can sensitize me in school, to use my senses to pick up the needs of the school, whether if its the staff, the students or even the school environment.

2009-07-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

a few days into my school attachment. Have been pampered for the past few days. May seem mundane to go through all the conversations and dialogues but God has opened my eyes to see and learn from the various experienced staff. I've been very much inspired to do more with the resources He has given me. Pray that this passion will always be burning bright for Him

2009-07-06T00:02:00.001+08:00

was very blessed during worship in service today. Pastor joe shared the story about the singer for a new song “desert song” and added that this song was not only given by God to the singer but also to us as well. I’ve already liked this song but as we worship with this song today, the words went deep and resonated in me as I felt the relevance of the words in this season of my life.

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Thank God for using this song to speak to me as a form of reassurance of His presence in every season of my life and as a reminder that He is still God despite all.

looking forward to the school attachment for the next 3 weeks. Praying that God will use this opportunity to ignite a stronger passion for what I’m doing and to enlarge my capacity of love to the lost and needy.

2009-06-26T22:58:00.002+08:00

got ended scamp today. it really felt pretty long, packed with lots of activities and games. Thank God i survived a mild fever on mon night such that i was well enough to continue with the rest of scamp. Despite the recent scare over H1N1, scamp pulled through and ended off on an enjoyable note.

Looking forward to the building of stronger ties with my freshies during the coming days. Need to rest soon to recuperate and recharge for this weekend's activities.

2009-06-14T23:38:00.001+08:00

sometimes it can get a bit discouraging when you’re in an environment where you don’t have support from fellow Christians and you witness and experience a lot of ungodly manner and behaviour which you don’t agree with. In those circumstances, I wish i can change what i see but i can be rather helpless when it seems lk the norm.

I don’t want to give up on believing that God can do miracles, no matter how impossible it seems. When if the hope seems small, i will still hold on to it because the God who promises is faithful. That verse in Heb 10 really builds up the faith in me as i choose to continue to pin my hope in God. Even if its a little difference that is being made, if that’s God’s purpose for me, i would still be willing to go through all these hardship.

2009-06-10T00:49:00.002+08:00

been leading quite a routine life for the past few weeks, well maybe because i've been down to sch every weekday. Can't complain much because i'm doing what i enjoy although that meant that i had to sacrifice time on other areas of my life.

But i'm glad that God has helped me manage my time where weekends i'm able to catch up with family and to relax as well. Over the past 2 days, there was a renewed passion in RAG as well as I get inspired by new ideas which can contribute significantly to the aesthetic look of the float. Will be praying for more wisdom, not only for new ideas but also wisdom to manage the comm and to assist my director in handling the project. Even when time is lacking, I believe this period is a more crucial time to spend with the Lord and have my dependency on Him.

2009-05-29T23:38:00.002+08:00

Had 2 first experiences today. Explored the new shopping mall Orchard Central. Had interesting architectural features and designs. I was impressed by some of these designs located within the mall and careful considerations were made to ensure the different segments of the mall have distinct identities. The mall is still yet uncompleted, with many shops undergoing renovations and finishing touches on the building, so I'm looking forward to visiting the mall again when its fully opened. But until then, i'm satisfied with this sneak preview.

Rode on the Circle line for the first time today when I was on my way back home just now. It provided a much more convenient way of reaching home with more options now. It was exciting simply to experience the new mrt line.

If you're wondering, I'm someone who is interested in anything architectural, so any new buildings and structures would arouse my curiosity and interest and I always love exploring new places, traveling around different places simply to absorb in the sights. This probably explains my excitement over all these new places i've been to today.

2009-05-27T01:43:00.001+08:00

I was doing a teacher’s profile as part of the attachment. While doing the response, it expresses much of my true comments and serves as a reminder of why I wanted to teach in the first place. Although I have not started teaching yet, but it was good as there are many distractions even during university days.

My Philosophy as an Educator [Belief, Motivation & Goals]

I always believe every student is unique in their own ways and has their own potential which need to be developed. It is important not to apply the same formula to every student but instead pay individualistic attention to each student as much as possible. I believe that as an educator, I need to be a model of encouragement to spur my students. This will bring positive reinforcement to them. Regardless of the situation, there is a need to always believe in the students and place that hope in their hearts.

My motivation as an educator is the opportunity to impact what I have as an educator to the next generation. It is the joy from not just living of my own life, not to live it for the next generation. Thus the opportunity to contribute to the next generation through the impartation of knowledge and values is what motivates me to become an educator.

Apart from developing the next generation, one of my goals as an educator is to make a difference in the lives of my students. It does not matter the number of students’ lives I have made a difference in, even if it is only one, it is still significant. I believe as an educator, it is not only knowledge that I impact, but life values are equally crucial as well. Thus, one of my goal as an educator is to make the difference to the students’ lives, in terms of both knowledge and values.

May this always be a driving force behind my role as an educator.

2009-05-22T23:35:00.002+08:00

really excited when i read about the American Idol win in the newspaper today. This win is not just a singing competition win. With close to 100 million votes cast on the finale night, it represents the opinion and choice of a large number of young Americans and definitely a representative of American society. Voting for an openly declared gay American Idol would signify the acceptance and embrace the society has towards homosexuals and will definitely mark a significant change the society has today.

We are not to underestimate the type of impact and influence America has to the world and the country marks and sets the pace for the rest of this world. If such a society can embrace homosexuals as its idol, the world would see more changes coming along soon.

My purpose is not to discredit homosexuals their place in society but to voice out the change in the acceptance of our modern society towards homosexuals. I'm proud of who America has chosen to be its Idol. Despite being a dark horse, he overcame all discouragements and feedback to put in his best for God and be a great testimony of God's children. It is not impossible but God can use each platform to allow the light to shine to the rest of the world.

May the light continue to shine for all of God's ambassadors in each and every arena of the society!

2009-05-15T23:14:00.002+08:00

i still have not changed my blogskin yet! i still do not have the time to do so. For the past week, i have been out everyday from morning to night and i believe this will continue for the entire week next week.

But i thank God for all that have happened this week. The time spent with different friends. Once again, i need to plan my time well and use it wisely. All the more so when i don't have all the time for myself to plan.

Hope to get the recharge and rest tonight.

2009-05-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

a few days since exams ended and i've been mostly out of the home. But i thank God that i managed to spend some quality time with different groups of pple although there's still some friends whom i wish to meet up too as well.

Praying that God will give me the wisdom to plan my time well and to use it wisely. Deciding to be involved in RAG and SCAMP means that most of my holidays will be spent on those but yet i'm a person who tends to be very much preoccupied with many things as well, wanting to do a lot more.

There's this idea of a personal project that came into my mind a few days ago which i eagerly hope to embark on. I want to explore different parts of Singapore that have landscapes which hold significant meanings to me and capture those memories and heritage in photographs. This is with regards to childhood memories and the landscapes which i grew up in and the photographs will mark the current changes to these places.

I also have to explore places of heritage value in Singapore. There're many areas and places in Singapore which hold historical value and meaning but very much neglected through modern-day Singapore society. I would love to explore these places to learn and to share with others as well.

I believe its not going to be easy to embark on a thorough, professional project but i'll prob start small within my own capacity. It'll be out of own interest that i pursue this and it'll prob not be a one-time project but a hobby which i'll continue through.

2009-05-06T23:08:00.001+08:00

Recently a friend suddenly commented to me that I remind her of a typical gay friend’s best friend. It was meant to be a general reference but I didn’t ask her why she thought that way. Her remark sparked off reminders of the past when I had people commenting to me similar remarks but I sometimes wonder what was in me/ what I do that cause them to feel that way. I rmb in the past when I try to ‘correct’ myself by being very careful about how I speak, behave, react just so that I can conform to the ‘correct’ way that a guy should speak or act. But it soon became uncomfortable for me cause I cannot be who I am, having to fit into a particular image perceived by the world. But I thank God that He keeps me secure in who I am in Him and that has always been a reminder for me whenever someone makes similar comments. I would listen to constructive remarks and change but not to the extent of being who I am not. Through these years, I’ve become more comfortable and relaxed to behave who I am now and to allow people to know who I am instead of fitting into an image which I want them to perceive me as. That's why I wasn’t affected when my friend commented that on Sunday but it let off a string of thoughts and the reminder.

The holidays have officially started for me! I look forward to this holiday due to my involvement in RAG and Science camp as a OGL as well as my school attachment. Am excited over what God can work through me in all these events and what I would learn and contribute in these areas.

2009-05-03T00:18:00.002+08:00

two papers down, one more to go but it seems almost like the examinations are over. Have been enjoying myself too much since my last paper. More updates and happenings after my last paper on tue!!!

2009-04-25T21:16:00.002+08:00

I saw my nephew Jerald just now at the nursery ward just now. He's so adorable. He was sleeping when I was there and its such a blessing to see a new born baby sleeping so peacefully. Well, i think i'm still soaking in the excitement of being an uncle.

May the Lord bless him as he grows up to be the fine gentlemen :)

Two of my must-visit places this holiday break: Night Safari and Singapore Botanic Gardens. Guess as a Singaporean, it'll be a shame if i haven't visited iconic places in Singapore when thousands of tourists visit each year. Well, they may be tourist attractions but still, as a Singapore, I should at least visit them once so that i can be informed when a foreigner ask about it. I've stepped into Botanic Gardens before but that was part of a amazing race game during a camp and i was only at the peripheral, so i wouldn't consider myself to have explored that place.

Will make those 2 places my aim this coming break :)

2009-04-23T22:51:00.004+08:00

was again very blessed by pastor benny's teaching today. I was inspired by the example he gave that regards our faith journey as a relay marathon. Our heroes of faith in the past have run the race, completed their part of the relay and has since passed the baton to us, this current generation.

Like in a relay, those who have completed their part would watch their counterparts complete their part of the race after they had passed on the baton. What happens after they passed the baton is out of their control. Control of the race lies in the hands of those who are holding on to the baton. Whether the baton drops or gets passed on to the next one depends the current and next generation.

Our forefathers are watching us as we run this race now in our generation. We are the ones holding on the baton. How are we handling this baton that was passed to us? Are we going to drop it or continue to run the good race and complete it well?

Something tugged in me when these questions were posted by pastor benny. The choice is mine to make. As the scenes of our forefathers watching us came into mind, it inspired me to carry on the good race that they're completed. Not because of obligation but because they're my inspiration to run that race that God has set for me, to complete my race well and pass the baton to the next generation.

I've decided that it is going to be a good race that I'll choose to run.

2009-04-22T23:18:00.002+08:00

I was very blessed and refreshed by Pastor Benny's teachings on Heb 9,10 today. Thank God for using him to open up scriptures to share with us.

35So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. 36You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.
- Heb 10:35,36

Very blessed by this verse tonight. It refreshes me to press on and continue to do his good works and to persevere in doing God's will for me. For what we look forward to is not the rewards that are temporal but those of eternal value.

Hope it'll bless those preparing for the exams and the rest of us as well :)

2009-04-19T23:51:00.003+08:00

recently i'm sure everyone would have heard about susan boyle's amazing performance on britain's got talent and have probably contributed to the 30 million (and counting...) hits on youtube. I guess whats really amazing in this 'ugly duckling-turned-Cinderella' story is the how most people would have underestimated her potential based on her looks. It wouldn't have created such a phenomenon if her looks were half as good as elaine page's. What caught my attention out of susan was her confidence in spite of the jeering that she received even before she sang. She knows her talent and is totally secure with who she is. Against the odds of the audience, she overcame all the negativity and presented her best, not for the motive of proving them wrong (she doesn't need to) but more so to pursue the dream she always dreamed of...

for that, she won the hearts of millions all over the world. what a wonderful testimony of how one can overcome all odds to fulfill your goals, only if you stay confident and secure in who you are.

2009-04-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

always have to remind myself not to live my life in the middle, not a luke-warm Christian living a life wanting to run for God but yet stuck by the circumstances of life. Like the lyrics of the song "Somewhere in the Middle" by Casting Crowns

Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me

Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control

Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle

indeed, i don't want to live with deep-water faith in the shallow end. Let me not be caught in the entanglements of life. Let my life by lived to the max for God. Let me fix my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfection of my faith. Let my faith arise.

My prayers tonight.....

2009-04-11T00:15:00.002+08:00

This Good Friday, let us remember the price Jesus Christ paid for our salvation through the Cross. Let us also appreciate that while the grace given to us is free, it was paid with a costly price. Was reading this article from Keith Maxwell that medically explains Jesus' death.

That really touches me after reading the article was that although there were many attempts to place a cause for Jesus' death, none could sufficiently or adequately explain His death. No bones were broken, fulfilling the prophecy in Psalm 34. Thus it was not man's action nor the tough circumstances of the crucifixion that caused Jesus's death. Jesus laid His life for us. That fulfills the purpose He came for- to die for us and redeem our sins so that we can have the way back to God. He became the ultimate solution for all of us, that whosoever believe Him, will not perish and have eternal life

"The reason my Father loves me is that I lay down my life - only to take it up again. No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command I received from my Father." (NIV) John 10:17,18

May it bless your heart as you understand this truth this Good Friday!

2009-04-08T01:35:00.002+08:00

my prayers to all who wants to seek the truth that they will indeed receive the real truth

7"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
-Matt 7:6-8

blessed be those who seeks the truth of God in their lives!

2009-04-06T02:04:00.002+08:00

i was personally drawn to this true story shared during sermon today.

A man in Bogota, a drug addict, had wanted to commit suicide for up to ten times. But each time, it failed by miraculous chance. He couldn't help but acknowledge that there is someone up in heaven who is saving him from death. He decided to visit a church and from that point on, his life changed. His desire in being understanding God's words led to the curing of his drug-damaged brain. He has since become a pastor leading thousands of Christians and a preacher sought after in international conference.

Why did this story impact me so much?

I was touched at seeing a man, who so wanted to end his life, but was saved simply God's purpose for this man on Earth has not being fulfilled. This man is destined for greater things in God. No one would have know, not including the man himself, the future ahead at that moment. But God know and He will pave the way ahead. That was how this man 'escaped' from the brink of death and walked right into God's will for Him.

That is the reality of God- One who can make all things possible, even if human logic works against it. One who can use the little Man has and enlarge it to be mighty man of God. Never doubt what God can use through you until you allow Him to.

2009-04-01T21:54:00.002+08:00

attended a briefing today by representatives from university of manchester and after the briefing, i was really looking forward to my exchange trip to manchester...

looking forward to many things:
- the diversified environment of the university
- historical culture of old English
- architectural buildings
- heritage of the different UK cities
- traveling around Europe!!!

really have to thank God for this opportunity to be able to go to University of Manchester. It wasn't my initial choice but somehow, through God's divine arrangement, I secured the place there. And i'm really thankful to know that there are close to 7/8 people going together to manchester in sem 2, but there's still some company.

Its quite interesting whenever i tell others that i'm going to manchester and i'm asked if i'm a man u fan. I'm not even a soccer fan, much less a man u fan. I don't even know what Old Trafford was initially. its alright, i will still visit the place when i'm there and maybe i can catch a few of the players over there if i recognize any.

But it is still 8-9 months to go before i can actually fly there. Meanwhile, i'll appreciate and enjoy what i have in nus right now and maybe spend the rest of the months learning and recognizing the different faces of the man u players. haha

2009-03-30T02:27:00.002+08:00

was out having dinner at Fish&Co on Sat evening when i saw a notice to inform customers of the switching off of lights at its premises at Earth hour. It was then that I notice practical support for this movement and measures taken by corporate organizations. When I was on my way to Orchard Road, what surprises me was the extent to which support was given to Earth hour this time round. Many hotels and shopping centres had their external facade lights switched off and many eateries followed suit with their internal lights. Orchard Road seemed to have stopped operations for that full hour.

It is heartening to see the extent of support given and the awareness of this campaign. Indeed, efforts from WWF have not gone wasted and more people are taking notice and making practical steps to help conserve the environment. What I really hope for is that this hype over Earth hour would not die down soon and fade away as people continued with their standards of living. It is easy to follow suit in a one-hour effort but it is really the continued effort by all that will really make a difference to the conservation of this Earth...

Even as i share this, i'm guilty of leaving my room lights on for a few hours while i was away at patrick's room. May this be a reminder for myself and all that a little effort goes a long way...

2009-03-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

really thank God for the end of the RAG exhibition...being a full week of little rest and trying to handle many situations at the same time...thankful for His grace that allowed me to understand matters in a broader sense and for the learning which i had through this week..

i think i kind of neglected blogging for quite some time and had forgotten this love that i had to write and share with many others through blogging...its kind of reflected through the lack of passion or interest in my blog entries and after a while, it became like an obligation to blog instead of out of passion and interest...really apologise to all..but i'm glad that today when the cell was sharing, the testimony from cheryl really spur me on in continuing this channel of sharing my life...

would want to make the effort to blog more frequently, even if its just a small thought...looking forward to seeing how God can use me in the areas He has blessed me with...

2009-03-21T00:56:00.002+08:00

just to share one significant thing i caught during G12 conference last week and has been reminding myself through this week...

the significance of my life is not based on the abilities, the capabilities which i have, or even the achievements i may have..yes they are important but they don't define who i am as a person...the importance of my life is not based on all these..if we think it is, then we will easily be caught up with pursuing and trying to achieve everything and try to be the best in everything and become too caught up with our lives...what really defines me is my relationship with Him, the One I put my faith on..that is what truly defines my life and the purpose for my life...it doesn't matter what i can do with my own might but what God can work through my life...

understanding that truth indeed sets me free from a lot of baggage and allow me to truly pursue all that God has placed me in...

2009-03-09T00:27:00.002+08:00

Another long break from the previous posts...being an eventful past 2 weeks...really thank God for the making the days meaningful to me and guiding me through my mid-terms and i really took a great break this weekend from studying...

one thing which really made my week was an sms conversation with one of my ex-student...was updated that she became a Christian just a month ago and i was really exited over the news...the main reason was because when i taught her back in nchs, i strongly sensed the need for her to receive the Father's love in her life after getting to know her..it was hard to share Christ due to restrictions and obstacles along the way so all i could do is to do my best as a teacher as well as to keep her in prayers. Even though when i left, there wasn't much changes, but i trust God that a seed has been planted and will grow in the days to come...

it has been 2 years since and i'm excited to hear of this news...what God has encouraged me is to know that my prayers were heard and it is answered now..although it is 2 years later, but it is in God's timing and plan...it affirms my faith to know that prayers are heard and sometimes, we just have to trust in Him and be patient :)

Hope it encourages all who are becoming discouraged from unanswered prayers...

2009-02-22T23:21:00.002+08:00

an short excerpt from pastor rick warren's interview...he is author who write the book "purpose-driven" life which changed my life forever...thats why this interview caught my attention and touched me...

We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions?
Popularity? Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness?
Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)?

When I get up in th e morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do. That's why we're called human beings, not human doings.

i love the way He sees life from God's perspective, one which i truly desire and that part of the interview spoke into my heart, that i'm not on earth simply to be kept busy and fulfill my activities, but to be who God wants me to do...that is a reminder to keep myself focused on Him and to re-align my heart to know and do the right things in life :)

2009-02-05T17:17:00.001+08:00

have been facing with quite a bit of commitments right now. Not only have sch work such as lab reports and essays waiting to be done, rag meetings/related work is increasing right now together with the rest of the usual church events... Furthermore, such commitments are beginning to overlap...The long-postponed rag meeting is tonight which meant that i can't go for dance and i guess there need to be a compromise someway...Considering my weekday night schedules right now: mon- nus prayer mtg, wed-bible study class (coming soon), thur-dance, fri-cell, and not inclding vcf and rag work yet, i'm personally thankful that God has given me that peace in me not to worry about not being able to handle all my commitments. In the past, i will tend to worry abt coming commitments and result in unnecessary stress....But i'm trusting God now more than before with my time and making good use of it so that in every way the things i'm doing can be found pleasing in His eyes....

Am pretty concerned over the recent happenings around me recently... its hard not to think that its just coincidence... I guess when faced with such situations, i may not have all the answers or solutions, but it brought a reminder to me about the importance of keeping ourselves guarded in Christ and to pray. That was why it is important to keep our eyes fixed on God and make that decision to follow Christ each day, to renew ourselves and remind us of the need of Christ in our lives.

I thank God and not take for granted for who I am today, who He has made me today and most importantly, that my heart still desires after Him.

2009-02-02T23:27:00.002+08:00

a lot of changes have been happening ard me, in sch, church that all i can say is i'm thankful for the God who remains unchanged in all these changes...

changes can happen in such lightning speeds that we can be caught off guard and the ripple effects can last quite a while but whats more impt is that we know there is a God whom we can anchor our lives on, who will be that faithful one...all that we go through will simply be passing lessons that we gain and move on...

may we be renewed in our faith each new day as we choose to walk the way of the Lord and anchor our lives in the unchanging One..

2009-01-29T16:50:00.000+08:00

really blessed by the past few days, its when cny and birthday celebrations
come together..for me, cny has become a time when i get to meet my relatives
whom i might not even see for the rest of the year..my kinship ties with the
rest of the extended family have not been strong all these while but i'm
glad for whatever catch-up we might have during this period of time...this is
particularly so for this year as i wun be ard for cny next yr due to exchange,
so i make sure i was around to visit my relatives..

i'm really thankful for all the birthday celebrations for the past few
days. Personally, i wld always lk to keep it low-profile cause i dun lk
attention to be on me for events such birthdays but i guess ever since my 21st
birthday experience, i've slowly grown and appreciate the love that others
show during my birthday. I was really overwhelmed by the many messages left on
facebook..seeing
friends from different periods of my life sending well-wishes really blessed my
heart....

appreciate and thanks to all who have been part of my life thus far :)

2009-01-26T02:17:00.004+08:00

thanks to those who reminded me abt my lack of updating of my blog...at least that shows there are people who bothered enough to want to read abt my updates....had been wanting to update for many times over the past week but just didn't manage to, only till now...

amazingly, two weeks of sch have past and its CNY today!!! haha..but somehow this year the mood for CNY is not evident, at least within me...could be due to the fact that i stay in sch...but even just now when i was out at river hongbao and chinatown, the crowd was evidently lesser as compared to last yrs and the general feeling i receive is people are spending less, whether it is the consumers or the organizers for the festive celebrations...it is true for the latter, having read that from the newspaper...a gloomier year predicted ahead but don't let this affect our mood...its still essential to be upbeat in bad times, for the sun will always return after a heavy downpour :)

have been really blessed this weekend...met up with 2 diff groups of people yest, and we sort of shopped for what i want for my birthday present...well for one who doesn't expect people to give presents, i find it a blessing to be able to receive one...and today i had 3 birthday cakes!! haha...one was from my church family this morning and 2 others are during reunion dinner when both my sis and anut bought cakes...these were the 2 cakes...

blueberry cheesecake and chocolate royal...both fantastic cakes...felt terribly overdosed with cakes today but very very blessed by the love of a family, spiritual and physical ones...really appreciate what they did and definitely always a reminder of God's beautiful creation in me..something which was reminded in me today: to always be pouring out of my life to others, a personal belief and conviction to live my life meaningful for others, to enhance and make a difference to others

2009-01-15T03:34:00.001+08:00

Read a book recommended by Sook San, The Shack, and finished it over a few days... Its kind of weird that i usu take a long long time to finish a book but i guess this is the first Christian fiction book i've read and it caught my attention. Really glad she recommended this book cause through the impersonalization of the Trinity, it reflects the character of God and corrects wrong impressions of God in humans. It left a deeper, personal impression in me as the ways of God is shown through the conversations and actions rather than simply stating them, so it tends to relate to me better. Would definitely recommend this book to others...

2009-01-10T21:07:00.002+08:00

i was really excited over the 2 arts mod that i'm taking this coming sem..changing landscapes and popular culture...both are singapore studies mod and i do agree that i have a special inclination towards such mod..as i was reading through the module details and lecture outlines, i really thank God that these 2 mod were chosen...i'm anticipating the arrival of each lecture to learn abt the various aspects of singapore...haha, maybe one of them might overtake government and politics as my most recommended ss mod..who knows???

looking forward to the start of sch...

2009-01-07T14:49:00.002+08:00

came back from vietnam yest..was down with stomach flu and fever on the last day...a terrible feeling..could be due to the seafood i ate the previous night...but nevertheless, the trip was a great one...filled with cheap, interesting finds and wonderful sights to absorb...thought it would be great if i could master some Vietnamese language so as to better integrate into its culture...wld prob do that if i have the chance to visit this place again...

am resting at home now...hope to recover real soon...

2008-12-31T10:29:00.002+08:00

spent the last 2 days painting my room...wanted this remake since june but i didn't have time because of rag..almost couldn't find time to paint this time round but i'm glad i still could in the end...i thank God that i could paint it the way i imagined it to be like..wanted to be more adventurous in my designs but i could i shld just keep it simple since its the first time i'm doing it but it turned out to be simple and nice...now the only thing is to change my bedsheets and curtains to fit the colour scheme in my room...

last day of 2008!!! being so occupied for the whole of dec that it haven't really dawn upon me that its the end of 2008...during the rehearsal for countdown party on mon, there was this segment which is thanksgiving for 2008 and i realize that its being such an eventful yr for me although i haven't had time to reflect back at all that happened since then...will spend some time reflecting through...

looking forward to countdown party tonight!!!!

2008-12-27T21:29:00.002+08:00

kind of realize that it's being more than a week since i've last blogged and many things have happened...

Spent much of the rest of the week outside, hanging out and shopping with different friends. Spending so much time outside also meant that much money was spent...not a very ideal situation although it was still time well spent... Managed to catch up with a close friend...We don't get to meet up very often and its very heartening whenever we meet up and know that we are still actively serving God in our respective ministries. There's this sense of unity, knowing that we serve the same God.

Christmas has come and past..and i'm touched by how many christian groups have come together to bring about the Good news of Christmas to everyone...somehow felt that its easy to be misguided by what Christmas is by the atmosphere created by retailers, all the partying, shopping that its become more lk just a holiday rather than to appreciate what Christmas is all about...

indeed, now its time to look forward to the new year ahead, another year of surprises and beautiful memories...

2008-12-19T23:37:00.002+08:00

i really thank God for keeping me guided through this whole week...He's planning every single day for me and I'm glad i know He's going with me through...its like through the daily activities many things may not go the way i plan, but i know clearly that He's tracking all the events that happened...in that sense, i know i'm secure in Him regardless of what happens...

really appreciate the chat with jiehui today..its encouraging to one's faith to be sharing each other's journey of faith and to be spurred in faith through our testimonies...i thank God that through my life, He has placed strategic friends to be with me and to spur me on in my faith..although i don't get to see him that often nowadays as compared to last time, but we know we're doing God's works in our own arena...

really blessed by the company today...know that God's hand is upon us even as we choose to follow Him and keep our focus on Him

2008-12-14T23:57:00.001+08:00

Somehow unknowingly, this holiday has become as busy as previous holidays but i'm very blessed through this 2 weeks of break thus far. Although i'm being tired going out from morning to night, but i'm treasuring every moment especially since i've the opportunity to catch up with different pple.

Went to lance's house on wed to cook with him and tutor him as well. We were supposed to each cook smthng that day but i didn't really have the time to think what i want to do and prepare, so i ended up helping him out with his risotto. I really enjoyed the time at his place, to have fun cooking. Maybe its because that was lk the first time after exams that i wasn't meeting any schedules/programmes but simply laze ard and relax. It was also a gd time to catch up lance esp since we didn't have the chance to talk to him for the past few sundays. Had the chance to tutor him with his mathematics. Didn't really teach him a lot since he understands that most of the content he just have to work hard and practise on it. After that we went to ikea tampines to shop. I really thank God for this brother...he's one of those whom i feel comfortable hanging out with and spending time tog...

I thank God for the christmas part organized over fri and sat..other than seeing the cell come together to play a part in organizing, what i appreciate from it all is to see the guests being touched by the powerful testimony of kelvin soh. I believe even christians ourselves are being blessed by it. For me, although it was the fourth time watching it yest, but i am still amazed to see hi transformation through God and more importantly to see the extent kelvin is used by God in breakthrough missions. Personally, i've always believe that it has more impact is not only the change God has brought into one's life but the many changes one changed life can bring to others, thats why his testimony really touches my heart and i believe has inspired many others...

Will be carefully planning for my activities for the rest of the holidays...do not want to do my own things as i'm reminded even during the last month of sabbath yr not to do my own pleasures..i think that will be kept in me even as we move ahead to 2009...

2008-12-13T23:12:00.003+08:00

its madness....i've out of home almost from morning to late night everyday since hols started...i didn't i wld be so occupied but whats really new...every holiday i'll be making the same old comments..haha...but i'm not complaning cause i'm enjoying every single moment of the holidays so far...will update more tomorrow..really tired right now...

2008-12-08T23:03:00.001+08:00

a few days have past since the end of exams...has been rather fulfilling thus far...For the past few days, i've being kept busy...Being able to spend time going out with the different friends have being a blessing especially since preparing for exams has kept me away from contact with many pple, the holidays meant that i could spend time catching up with friends. For the past few days and even for the whole of this week, I've blessed to have this opportunity to catch up with friends from sec, jc, army, uni and church. Through this, God is reminding me of the friendships which i've built through these years and its something to be treasured and valued, therefore i've always tried to make it a point to be present if invited and to meet up even if it meant that i would be kept busy.

I guess this holiday's plans have more or less being taken up, with all the catching up, Science club/RAG related events and activities. The youthnet dancers are also preparing for an item for countdown party too which meant that there'll be extra practice each week. Last thur was our first practice for this item. There's a lot to learn for me with all the different techniques required and definitely challenging for someone lk me who don't have dance bkgrd. But i'm surely looking forward to this item at countdown since this is lk the first full performance item for me....

i thank God for finishing the run yesterday especially since i've being quite worn out for the past days dancing, running, gyming and giving flyers to 12 blocks for old clothes collections on saturday...but i'm glad i managed to finish it in the usual timing of 2.5h. Will be seriously training to improve my timing for the next one at adidas sun-down since i would have time to train for that one....

2008-12-03T23:42:00.002+08:00

finally, the moment i've been waiting for is here..indeed, i'm enjoying this moment even if it seems sudden that all the hard preparation for the exams has ended..i'm rejoicing but more so because of what God has done in my life...

was at the lders' mtg just now...the significant moment came when pastor screended a testimony from 'my hope Singapore' and seeing how God changed the life of a drug-addict...even as we already know what God can do in lives of the desperate and needy and how he can transform, what really impresses upon him is who this man, upon his transformation use himself as a testimony to share with many convicts in the prison fellowship...

its always being in my heart to use oneself as a vessel for the Lord's use and to personally share my own life journey and how real God is in my life to the people ard me and it touches me to witness how this one man makes himself available to be used by God and the extent of his ministry based on a personal conviction and transformation...

although i might not have such a 'colourful' testimony, but i believe each one has a story to tell and to transform lives of others with their own testimony as long as the faith is real and God has been real in our own lives...

Lord, may i pray that i can continue to be mightily used by you to be that testimony of your grace and goodness in me to the area of influence you have placed me in...

2008-11-28T21:28:00.002+08:00

today marks the tenth full day i've spent at the library since the start of last week...this place literally has become our camp ground..we actually spent more hours of the day in the library than in hall...i actually can't wait for my paper tmr to start and get it done and over with it..in fact an hour ago i wished the paper could start right away...

counting down the days...i can't wait to get out into the sun...the air-conditioning is deteriorating my health....

2008-11-20T23:47:00.002+08:00

today marks the fourth consecutive day that i've spent my entire day at the library...i'm literally there from opening to closing hours...i thank God for sustaining me through these few days of studies..the scope to cover for this sem is really large and physics can be really challenging at times..but i'm still thankful that once in a while, there would be this magical spark within me that reminds me of the wonders of this scope of science that motivates me...

i pray that the Lord will continue to refresh me each other even as we head to the last lap of prep...

2008-11-13T11:39:00.003+08:00

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
‘til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

I will stand, I will stand
All other ground is sinking sand
All other ground (x2)
Is sinking sand (x2)

heard this song over the radio when the dj introduced this and related to this particular verse of this song "no guilt in life, no fear in death". felt that it is particularly crucial that we live our lives without any condemnation..very often, we see pple in this world living their lives as if death is the termination of our lives with no eternity in their minds, which will only cause satisfaction in the emptiness of things...

but its only through the power of Christ that i'm reminded that we're redeemned and we can live our lives in freedom and security...this gift of life which is bigger than any other gifts in this world...

2008-11-13T02:02:00.002+08:00

a morning breakfast conversation with an exchange student here cause me to wonder if we singaporean students are too coped up in their small world...in the sense, are we not as globally-oriented as compared to our peers from across the world? maybe we can blame it on our physical environment..small island with limited resources...its time for us, or at least for me, to really look beyond our shores, perhaps to widen our horizon and explore the wonders of this world...

arh, can't wait for sep to arrive soon.....

2008-11-10T18:04:00.004+08:00

just had 2 consecutive tests in the morning...by the time my fifth hour of lesson ended, i'm almost drained out of my energy...even my hunger has gone past the extreme hunger stage...i'm just thankful that its over and the horrible experience over the weekend of trying to squeeze in as much time as possible is over...

just to recall an incident last friday when i wanted to head down to the library to study..since my immediate friends weren't available/didn't want to go there, i decided to head down there anw, with faith and prayer that i will bump into someone there and perhaps have an available plug point for my laptop...was there roaming ard on the fifth level and then the sixth one...just that i thought i saw someone familiar...headed nearer and recognized hen and gr...at that moment when she saw me, she invited me the empty seat beside her...and guess what? i look a peek and saw an empty power point...to top it off, they were staying there till late at night...i couldn't believe all my 'requests' fit in perfectly..

well this incident only helps to increase my faith in Him and to show that He is faithful in answering prayers...

2008-11-04T09:31:00.002+08:00

28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

these verses are particularly relevant especially during this period of time when everyone is rushing to meet deadlines, assignments, preparing for end-sem tests as well as the final exams at the end of this month...it is often easy to get tired when i don't my focus back to God, especially when in my mind its always thinking of what to do and what has not been done...but even this morning as i spent quiet time with the Lord, He reminds me that He is gentle and humble in heart, that His presence in me will sustain me through this period of time...i might be confused over what to do, how to plan my schedule but He wants me to keep my focus back to Him, the one and only one who can get give me the rest and assurance in my life...

2008-10-31T00:31:00.003+08:00

its finally the end of my em test this afternoon..even though i'm not satisfied with it, its still a great relief that its over...have to be more prepared for the exam...

i thank God for the many events which have been happening during the past few days in this week but one thing i really appreciate is my chance to stay in hall this sem...much of my experiences and memories from this sem came as a result of my stay in ke7...and they are very much memorable and significant...and also i've experienced challenges in this place and learned to overcome them as well...what is more important is that the Lord has directed me back to be focused in what i'm doing with my life and not be distracted by challenges and obstacles that may come my way....

its going to be november really soon....exams are coming soon but that would also mean the holidays are real soon too.......

2008-10-27T11:50:00.002+08:00

the mind can be the greatest source of distraction, a distraction to the things you're doing..it can hard to control the mind at times and the only way is to place the focus back to God..only through the grace of God that one can overcome all...

who i am would not be possible without Him who constantly pull me up from the miry clay and place the joy of His salvation back in me...may the Lord always be the focus on my mind and to guard my heart and mind in His presence...

2008-10-23T23:27:00.002+08:00

guess even as i shared about being that friend to the pple ard me in my previous entry, the Lord has brought upon several occasions during the past 2 days to learn exactly that...just yest night as i was doing my work, i received a call from my friend from China...he's one of the friends i made during qqs last week and its been a yr plus since then..indeed its a real rare occasion that i receive this super-long distance call from this friend..although it has a bit hard to fully comprehend all that he was speaking, i still had a great conversation with him...its simply being that friend for him, to be that listening ear as well as to share personal thoughts and comments...well, from the circumstances which i know from his side, i do believe this is a friendship which he treasures a lot in which he can share with me with freedom and no reservations and that is why we have been keeping in contact with each other since and that he has made this long-distance call...i'm glad to simply be that friend for him...

of course, this is only one of the many moments i had, another being the movie-watching tmr...although i'm not a hsm fan, i'm still watching the movie with my dear friends simply because of the friendships built...

past by orchard road today..oh my, christmas decos was being put up...tanglin mall, orchard rd street deco and even paragon has its interior all decked up...the bells of Christmas are ringing louder..............

2008-10-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

one of the things the Lord has been teaching me during this season is my availability, esp since last sunday's sermon as well as fellow teaching today..to be available despite being busy to the needs of the people around me...it shld not out of a sense of convenience that you lend your time to others or extend a helping hand to them...and more importantly, you nv know how impt the time rendered could be to them

and i believe this is in parallel to how i must always be available for the Lord, for Him to use this sacrifice of time..who knows if that availability of time for this particular person might just be the time He will use to do His work in them?

i thank God that during these past days i have tried to make myself available for the people ard me through small simple ways...it might seem insignificant, but the impact might have just been made...

a reminder for myself: no matter how busy i may be that i can and will make myself available for those who need the time...

2008-10-20T20:47:00.000+08:00

I was thankful for the prayer walk at nie last friday. This prayer walk was particularly meaningful to me as it would be a place which i'll belong to in a few years' time. But what impacted me more was how the Lord showed me during the walk that this is where my career as a teacher will start. Knowing this is where i'll begin brings much hope for me even right now as a student. It was a strong reminder of my purpose of education right now and that no matter how tough it may seem right now, knowing the goal in mind brings hope and motivation to persevere through. Being secured and assured of the path the Lord is bringing me allows me to go all out to do my best in all aspects of my life... really glad for this opportunity to visit nie which allowed me to put my focus back on the path which He has shown me...looking forward to my time in nie in the near future....

2008-10-14T23:12:00.002+08:00

just came back from a short suppertime with loke...enjoy such randomness in hall where u just decide to pop down for supper..no doubt it'll be just for a while, but the satisfaction of a nice egg, ham and cheese muffin and a great chatting partner makes the trip down enjoyable...

thanks loke for the randomness when he intended to just pop by my room to say hi but ended up both of us went for supper...guess that i will look back in future and rmb all these little highlights in hall life...

2008-10-11T20:37:00.002+08:00

i'm really thankful for what the Lord has blessed me over these 2 days...first was the sep interview yesterday...it went better than expected as most of the interview was based on my experience in teaching and i was always ready and excited to share my experience during my teaching stint at nchs...the Lord granted me with favour with the interviewer and i was really excited that i was offered my first choice at University of Manchester for my sep...it was simply amazing as i never take it for granted that it would esay to get a place in a university in uk, much less my first choice...looking forward to sep in jan 2010!

next to thank God for is for my ippt this morning...its such a relief that i finally took it..having postponed it for 3 times, i thought there was much resistance in me taking my ippt but i'm glad i finally pushed myself to take it...wanted to aim for silver again and i can say, it was a close shave to not being able to achieve it...was doing my standing broad jump and my first attempt was a D score and i needed a minimum of C for silver and on my second attempt i manage to achieve the minimum distance for a C score and it was such a relief...

through these the Lord has once again reminded me that it is Him whom i serve and its because of this great God whom i trust, i can be secured and safe in the hands of the Father