Friday, October 31
its finally the end of my em test this afternoon..even though i'm not satisfied with it, its still a great relief that its over...have to be more prepared for the exam...
i thank God for the many events which have been happening during the past few days in this week but one thing i really appreciate is my chance to stay in hall this sem...much of my experiences and memories from this sem came as a result of my stay in ke7...and they are very much memorable and significant...and also i've experienced challenges in this place and learned to overcome them as well...what is more important is that the Lord has directed me back to be focused in what i'm doing with my life and not be distracted by challenges and obstacles that may come my way....
its going to be november really soon....exams are coming soon but that would also mean the holidays are real soon too.......
jel; 12:31 am
Monday, October 27
the mind can be the greatest source of distraction, a distraction to the things you're doing..it can hard to control the mind at times and the only way is to place the focus back to God..only through the grace of God that one can overcome all...
who i am would not be possible without Him who constantly pull me up from the miry clay and place the joy of His salvation back in me...may the Lord always be the focus on my mind and to guard my heart and mind in His presence...
jel; 11:50 am
Thursday, October 23
guess even as i shared about being that friend to the pple ard me in my previous entry, the Lord has brought upon several occasions during the past 2 days to learn exactly that...just yest night as i was doing my work, i received a call from my friend from China...he's one of the friends i made during qqs last week and its been a yr plus since then..indeed its a real rare occasion that i receive this super-long distance call from this friend..although it has a bit hard to fully comprehend all that he was speaking, i still had a great conversation with him...its simply being that friend for him, to be that listening ear as well as to share personal thoughts and comments...well, from the circumstances which i know from his side, i do believe this is a friendship which he treasures a lot in which he can share with me with freedom and no reservations and that is why we have been keeping in contact with each other since and that he has made this long-distance call...i'm glad to simply be that friend for him...
of course, this is only one of the many moments i had, another being the movie-watching tmr...although i'm not a hsm fan, i'm still watching the movie with my dear friends simply because of the friendships built...
past by orchard road today..oh my, christmas decos was being put up...tanglin mall, orchard rd street deco and even paragon has its interior all decked up...the bells of Christmas are ringing louder..............
jel; 11:27 pm
Wednesday, October 22
one of the things the Lord has been teaching me during this season is my availability, esp since last sunday's sermon as well as fellow teaching today..to be available despite being busy to the needs of the people around me...it shld not out of a sense of convenience that you lend your time to others or extend a helping hand to them...and more importantly, you nv know how impt the time rendered could be to them
and i believe this is in parallel to how i must always be available for the Lord, for Him to use this sacrifice of time..who knows if that availability of time for this particular person might just be the time He will use to do His work in them?
i thank God that during these past days i have tried to make myself available for the people ard me through small simple ways...it might seem insignificant, but the impact might have just been made...
a reminder for myself: no matter how busy i may be that i can and will make myself available for those who need the time...
jel; 12:11 am
Monday, October 20
I was thankful for the prayer walk at nie last friday. This prayer walk was particularly meaningful to me as it would be a place which i'll belong to in a few years' time. But what impacted me more was how the Lord showed me during the walk that this is where my career as a teacher will start. Knowing this is where i'll begin brings much hope for me even right now as a student. It was a strong reminder of my purpose of education right now and that no matter how tough it may seem right now, knowing the goal in mind brings hope and motivation to persevere through. Being secured and assured of the path the Lord is bringing me allows me to go all out to do my best in all aspects of my life... really glad for this opportunity to visit nie which allowed me to put my focus back on the path which He has shown me...looking forward to my time in nie in the near future....
jel; 8:47 pm
Tuesday, October 14
just came back from a short suppertime with loke...enjoy such randomness in hall where u just decide to pop down for supper..no doubt it'll be just for a while, but the satisfaction of a nice egg, ham and cheese muffin and a great chatting partner makes the trip down enjoyable...
thanks loke for the randomness when he intended to just pop by my room to say hi but ended up both of us went for supper...guess that i will look back in future and rmb all these little highlights in hall life...
jel; 11:12 pm
Saturday, October 11
i'm really thankful for what the Lord has blessed me over these 2 days...first was the sep interview yesterday...it went better than expected as most of the interview was based on my experience in teaching and i was always ready and excited to share my experience during my teaching stint at nchs...the Lord granted me with favour with the interviewer and i was really excited that i was offered my first choice at University of Manchester for my sep...it was simply amazing as i never take it for granted that it would esay to get a place in a university in uk, much less my first choice...looking forward to sep in jan 2010!
next to thank God for is for my ippt this morning...its such a relief that i finally took it..having postponed it for 3 times, i thought there was much resistance in me taking my ippt but i'm glad i finally pushed myself to take it...wanted to aim for silver again and i can say, it was a close shave to not being able to achieve it...was doing my standing broad jump and my first attempt was a D score and i needed a minimum of C for silver and on my second attempt i manage to achieve the minimum distance for a C score and it was such a relief...
through these the Lord has once again reminded me that it is Him whom i serve and its because of this great God whom i trust, i can be secured and safe in the hands of the Father
jel; 8:37 pm
Friday, October 10
felt a bit down today..no particular reason, many just the little things happening ard me which caused that and by the end of the last lesson, i just wanted to spend time alone reflecting and just enjoying the time spent alone...and i thank God for dance practice just now..dance has always never failed to lift my spirits up even as i choose to put aside any burdens and dance to His glory...
was reminded of what pastor shared for sermon last sunday that we hold the keys to His Kingdom, to be able to bind any distractions, addiction and loosen the freedom which belongs to us so that we can indeed live the privileged life..claiming that so i can truly live in his freedom! A kind of freedom which can compared to nothing else, that joy will flow from within. May everyone be blessed even as we seek in live in this freedom of Christ!
jel; 12:00 am
Monday, October 6
its yet another long break from my previous post..in fact, it seems like time has really past by real quickly..it seems lk for the past week, i've been living through each day as it passed, living out the schedule which i've planned for the day..and it kind of fits into the routine..thats when i start to fear, fear of losing the focus of living the life which God has intended...
felt that i'm going through this moment of re-aligning myself to what i'm doing now..felt that i've not done the best with what God has blessed me with, especially with regards to my place here in nus, as a physics second yr student...i was reminded of how i was placed in this position not by coincidence but by His plan and arrangements..well i guess i've sort of forgotten that recently and losing that focus caused much worries and anxieties...
i guess i need that focus back again so that threats from this world will affect me less and i'll be able to fruitfully live the life God has for me..knowing His purpose for me can definitely help in living the privileged life which He intended for every one of us..praying that I'll understand this focus more and learn to live my student life knowing this focus...
jel; 12:14 am
