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Saturday, January 22

going back this evening...the past 2 days had been fulfilling...went to the army market with alwyn and my section mates...met a lot of familiar faces there too...later went out with joseph to p.s....getting to know this new friend better....we hit off quite well...hope to know him better over the next few weeks....dinner was at cafe cartel with alwyn, candice and py...yest lunch was at n.y.d.c. with them and sl too...sort of celebrated sl and my birthday as well...thanks for the presents...and sorry that i've bought the album already.....long time since the five of us got tog...

then met my family for dinner..to celebrate my birthday as well...bought a few clothes..finally...realised all the new clothes were bought from the same shop..i think i can become their spokesmen already...have to be chop chop cause i haven packed my bag yet...i dun know when's my next bookout but it wldn't be too long ahead..till my next bookout, ciao....

jel; 10:17 am

Thursday, January 20

yest received an advanced birthday present...i really got a shock..it was a cat high sch bear..something which i've always wanted but couldn't get my hands on...it was really precious cause its not juz something which u can buy from stores...thanks alot..u muz have taken a great deal of effort to get it...to think that i had thought i wldn't be able to have it liao...now i wun have any regrets...thanks thanks,,it was really one of the best birthday presents i have received so far...

jel; 9:15 am

hi! i'm back!...so exciting...the past 2 weeks has really been a different experience...quite surprising, it wasn't as bad as i had thought...at least i had gotten used to life there...the place seemed to have become my second home....the first two days were quite bad in the sense that my appetite was horribly bad and i couldn't sleep well...overcame those prob soon after...free time was lacking initially cause there's lotsa stuff to settle...but there's a lot of talks and lectures initially...training may be tough but everyine goes through it tog and in fact there was one night training where everyone feels so shiok after all the physical exercise...maybe its because we feel very motivated...quite looking forward to this bookout day..everyone counting down to the number of days...but its going to be more tough the subsequent weeks...there's simply so much to say for the past 2 weeks...dun really have time to say much now cause i'm going out soon..with my section mates to the army market to buy stuff...talking abt section mates..i really think fate brought us tog..cause we seem to be able to get along quite well..yest me and joseph were discussing abt this..i really can't imagine if i was put into other sections of my platoon...i do hope we can become really great pals in future as they always say army friends stay with you for life...

jel; 9:00 am

Thursday, January 6

Today is the day where i enter into the next phase of my life....

feelings are mixed....all i know is i dun wan it to be a sad farewell....

nothing to be left behind, everyone has to learn to move on....

till the next time i come back, it's farewell for now, pals......

jel; 8:42 am

Wednesday, January 5

Memories

My third official day as a non-student...trying to get used to not going school on a school day...it seems lk the sch holidays have been extended...went back nj last back...has been a month plus last I last entered the sch compound....a pretty short yet fulfilling two years have been spent there....as what a lot of pple have commented...the friends and the times spent there have added colours to my 'grey' days...I rmb the first day of sch...a new chapter to sch life...everything is new, lotsa stuff to learn and get used to..i still rmb the first time I stepped into the sch compd, I told myself 'this is where you’ll be spending the next 2 yrs, make full use of it'.....since then, I feel that I'm learning something new everyday....orientation 03 was a great start to a new sch life.....ground-breaking no. of days...a memorable period full of exciting new stuff to discover each time....I was pretty much enjoying every moment of it.....building great calamaderie with ogls and friends....not forgetting chancing upon my grand-ogl...since then, the learning curve has been an exponential one....getting used to tutorials and lectures and nj sch life....after 3 months, I have contemplated switching schs....cause nj wasn't exactly where I have visioned myself in right from the beginning...but certain feelings pulled me back right from the first day...something not easy to explain..its not the teachers, not the sch system, not how run-down the sch may look.....

The first few months found me maturing rapidly..no longer a sec sch boy but a pre-u young adult...challenges and responsibilities u face in jc is lots but its what makes the whole jc thing so exciting...tough may it be but I found myself learning and growing with each experience...there are times where I encountered problems during that period but its just problems faced by a typical student...everyone is bound to face similar situations....but after that, I guess I've learned a lot...throughout the two yrs, there were setbacks in terms of cca and ext activities, but I guess life wun be smooth-sailing....

Significant highlights of the yr include the ndc...I guess that is the only sch celebration which I am most involved in...reason why that was a highlight was prob because I tend to lk to get heavily involved in organising stuff although I’m just a participant in ndc...but the process of organising and ensuring its success is a new challenge for me each time...I lk getting into the hype of such sch celebrations ...but I guess the thing is in nj, the only chance to organise events lk ndc is to become a hs rep...project work was an interesting period of time...have to work tightly with a grp of classmates really isn't an easy job....there's a lot of friction at times and things just isn't as smooth-sailing as it shld be but I’'m really glad things slowly work out for the five of us and at the end of the day, our cooperation really makes things work...the results were fabulous, considering the fact that there were lotsa setbacks and we thought we couldn't make it in the beginning...thank you for such a great grp combination....

Being chosen as an ogl for orientation 04 was such an exciting moment....the fact that I enjoyed my orientation so much makes me want to relive the moment again.....and the fact that I lk to get into the hype of sch activities make me want to grab this opportunity .....and I can't imagine having the hit the books once sch starts...I guess u can't tie me down...haha...with more new friends, I felt a greater sense of belonging to the sch...the fact when u know more pple and know the things happening ard u, u feel part of the sch community ...from the point of being selected, everything was just fun..i guess I chose to adopt a positive attitude and go all out to have fun...no point in dwelling on small stuff which spoilts the fun....got to experience what my ogls used to go through...all the ogls share a similar fact that we all lk to have fun makes the entire process so fun and enjoyable right from the preparation to the camp and finally to the actual orientation...too much too say from this experience but in a nutshell, orientation 04 was definitely the highlight of my jc life and prob the peak...

Hard to recover from the orientation mood during the post-orientation period...esp hard to join the rest of the cohort and trying to catch up..when others went on gear in their studies, we have to be at a higher gear than the others...I rmbed I took a month before the initial stress settle down.....and I'm glad the ogls were there to provide support for one another during the tough period...

Year two was busy...with lotsa of tests and a relationship to handle...its tough when u dun perform as well as expected and very stressful I would say...studying for the a levels was a mind-boggling period...trying very hard to concentrate each day...its very hard to tie myself down...the more I try to, the more I yearn for freedom...but at least at that moment, I just have to concentrate on studying..i dun need to be busy with another activities or worry abt minor and major issues...there is an excuse to push everything else after the exams...

Throughout my jc life, reflecting on myself, I guess I matured a lot from my sec sch days...I've learned to control my temper, at least it has been reduced by a significant amt...maybe I've learned to release my anger quick enough...I've been less sensitive to a lot of stuff and adopt a positive attitude....all these has allowed me to be a much happier person and allow me to enjoy each day....but a lot of times, others often only see the more chirpy side of me....i dun know how I project myself of others and I have this feeling that sometimes, they see me as a person I'm not...I guess when I'm alone, I'm quite different....oh and I think too much when I'm alone and that's something I have to change...that's bad cause it cause me to worry and stress unnecessarily...

I often tell myself to be brave and live life to the fullest so that I wun have any regrets but I guess its hard not to say that I dun have any regets in nj....first, I wan to say I have no regrets coming to nj although I dun know whether I'll perform better elsewhere....but I have a tint of regret joining interact....it wasn't the ideal cca right from the start...i guess I joined it cause I was afraid to break away from the norm and that was a wrong move indeed....there is no denying that I love the nature of the cca but throughout the 2 yrs, I didn't get the fulfilment that I wanted and pursued for.....I felt that I had more to give which some other cca are able to offer me.....I believe I shld try something new and learn some thing new each time.....to maximise myself and be able to satisfy myself and others.....there are a few ccas which I had wanted to join but I just everything was my mistake.....a lesson learned...

My class for 2 whole yrs...03S15...this is where I start my learning point and breeding ground where I mature from...where I share laughter with and being tog through the happy and sad times......i'm glad the class managed to get along pretty well with one another...there isn't any outstanding person worth special honour or recommendations but because each one of us is equal and outstanding in their own ways, we all managed to build bonds..i'm really happy to be in this class where everyone is on similar frequency..there's no rivalry going on, no fights, no cold shoulders...yes it may seem dull and boring, but seriously, who wants all those? At the end of the day, I may glad none of such stuff ever happen...I dun know how I'll do if I was in another class, but I am sure this is the class I’ll never regret to be in...

Farewell 03S15...from this day, we go our separate paths but may there be a time where the paths meet again...
Farewell NJ...2 fulfilling yrs are enough for me to keep u in a special place in my memory...

jel; 4:04 pm

Monday, January 3

Holidays

Holidays are over...sch has reopened..i'm going ns very soon....this holidays have been one of the most fulfilling one in all years... this holiday marks the end of student life and is the least stressful one...no worry abt holiday assignments, projects or the next sch yr...there have been many firsts and many exciting moments...a jay chou concert on the last day of papers...this concert is esp meaningful as I've watched his previous concert at the start of my jc life and now this one, to mark the end...and thanks to them, I've been out almost every single day...seriously speaking, I only rmb not stepping out of the hs for one day although not all of the rest of the days were out with them...the many firsts: ice-skating, bowling, wild-wild wet, booking a hotel room, exchanging Christmas presents, colouring of hair, watching performance at esplanade, swimming in the sea, playing volleyball at sentosa, on board a navy ship, counting down Christmas and new year with my friends, dining at many eateries lk cafe cartel, secret recipe and others...and of course satisfying my dying craving at sakae, pastamania, crystal jade....and satisfying my urge at kbox, pool, escape theme park...i have this feeling I missed out some stuff in the lists...

Oh and the prom at swissotel...something I've been looking forward to for 2 years..haha...the stay at swissotel was wonderful...large room and a magnificent view...sad to say everything beautiful has to come to an end...looking forward to another stay there...

because I'm occupied with a lot of stuff, I didn't have time for a lot of stuff lk spring-clean, develop photos+doing collage, read some books, visit the old cat high compd (it has planned two yrs ago..argh...), explore bugis/bras basah area and most importantly, I dun time for my hobbies and to develop my interest...the holidays are too short or shld I say the enlistment date is too near...

Of now, I have done and tried most of the stuff..at least i dun have any regrets before I enter NS...I'm more or less prepared for it....
Juz something for B5: thanks for the many happy memories spent during this period…it has been an exciting journey which I’ve truly enjoyed….may the happy times be rmbed….i know I was a bit weird those few days…I just hope everything is fine with every one of us…I will definitely miss u pple in future…

jel; 11:14 pm

Sunday, January 2

standing at a deserted pavement, looking through the glass window of an brick buiding....
bustling with activities inside but no one can hear anything from the outside.....
longing to enter to join in but strangers filled the place.....
strangers not familiar with.........
enjoying their laughter and jokes.......
no particular reason, just an exuberance of feelings.......

jel; 1:09 pm

jel; 1:09 am

7. Not to be too sensitive and always look at things with an open mind

8. Bear a positive attitude at all times

jel; 1:07 am

Saturday, January 1

My New Year Resolutions

1. Stay happy (very important) and healthy

2.Cherish those who love me

3. Keep my temper down

4. Dare to try and challenge

5. Pay more attention to the needs of others and society

6. No compromising of one's believes

this is all i can think of at this moment.....will add more when i've thought of it....i will find time to type my reflections abt a lot of stuff at a later date...2005 sort of came too quickly....

jel; 8:34 pm

Happy New Year Everyone!

its just hours into the new year but it seems lk the countdown was so long ago...last night's programmes were rather inpromtu....we met at city hall and went for dinner at raffles city....decided to go esplanade for countdown...along the way, we almost decided on going to airport to spend the night....but didn't in the end...

esplanade's lineup of programmes were ok...a bit of delays and gitches her and there...pro because of the downpour which lasted till early night.....sitting on the steps...drowning in the voice of corrinne may...such an angelic voice.....i was so absorbed into her music that i totally shut myself off from the other three's conversations (if there was..i didn't know cause i was too distracted)...anyway, after that there was a minute of silence for us to reflect before welcoming in the new year....such a pleasant heart-warming start...esp this yr where the year didn't quite end off on a good note....sombre atm...fireworks cancelled too....makes me sort of reflect abt a lot of stuff throughout the night...and also after i've read the morning papers abt the parties tonight, i'm glad the authorities did the right things....

after that, we went candice's hs...quite a last min decision....played mahjong throughout the night...what a great way to spend the time away...but time did past by really fast when u play mahjong...strange though....caught an morning train home and managed to catch a few hours' sleep before i had to go out again with my family.....lucky i wasn't tired throughout the rest of the day.....managed to buy quite a few stuff...everything but new clothes...its either the clothes are too exp or i dun lk it...nvm, at most i dun buy any....

jel; 7:56 pm